Alright, CrossHatch aside, totally breaking character here... but I don't even care.

I have enough trouble in my life, dealing with depression, trying to keep that from destroying my relationship. The fact that I'm unable to find a job is killing me!! I try and try all the time, and I can't get anything! I owe 1000 dollars to the court because my utility bill went to collections, and I have a 700 dollar bill to the hospital that's dangerously close to collections, then another 100 dollars to the MedCheck place. What am I supposed to do? Pull 2000 dollars out of my ass? This is breaking me apart, because I can't do anything! Thank the gods my dad and step mom paid the 8000 dollars for my dental work I had done, but that doesn't spare me from the rest.

What's wrong with this world? They know that everyone is struggling but they just keep gouging away! The economy is shite, so no one can get a job, and if you have no experience, they won't hire you, but if they won't hire you... HOW DO YOU GET EXPERIENCE????????? Seriously, what is with this viscous cycle? How do I get out of it??

It seems like it doesn't matter how hard I try, I just get knocked down again and again!! I had a mental breakdown the other night, which caused some tension with me and my girlfriend, which made me feel worse, so I'm trying to be better now... so what happens? I go outside to smoke, and BAM, "here's your summons to court" FML!! How can anyone get better in times like these?? I'm doomed to live with my parents forever and have nothing! I'm 22, I should have some form of a life of my own right? But I can't get out of this... If I don't rant I might just slaughter someone...

Gah, I really hope something changes soon, because it's very hard to deal with this and NOT pull my hair out or end up in a padded room!!

I wish I really was CrossHatch, he doesn't have to worry about this stuff!! le sigh

I fear I'm right there with you. Since I graduated from college a few months back, I've been jumping between 'alright, I have a degree now I'll just send out apps all willy nilly and harass folks til something pans out and that'll do it and 'oh, shit, I have a degree in English, my loans are here, even with a minimum wage job they'd be more than I could pay off while paying for an apartment, car insurance, and gas'...and that's presupposing that I can GET a minimum wage job, which, apparently, I can't. They'll hire utter morons (not all of them mind you, but some of the folks around here I just don't even...), but me, nope.

You see, those morons have experience. They're just coherent enough to run items over a scanner or toss em in a bag, but they've been working since high school, or since they dropped out, or what have you, while I focused on my education. I've got a shining example of a GPA and a degree to prove for it, and do you know how cares about that? No one. I lack experience. Unfortunately, I need a job to get experience and, right now, with the job market being what it is, even big name retailers like Walmart have their pick of whomever they choose.

For the time being, I'm back in with my parents because I can't afford anything else, but there's always a chance that they'll kick me out sooner or later, what with my being 'useless' in their eyes. I mean, what college grad can't land a job, right? My dropout brother has a job. /sigh

Looks like I'm joining you on the totally screwed train, Cross, depression and all.

Tee hee, I do have a few friends that work at Walmart.. my girlfriend does too! XDD They aren't idiots, but they were lucky enough to get a job! Anyways.. Yeah, I'm sorry your in the same boat as me! I don't have a degree or anything, but it's just ridiculous. Surely there's enough jobs for everyone to have something... but I guess I'm wrong.

Le sigh, maybe, we'll get really luck and both get jobs!! That would be pretty epic huh? Here's to hoping, cause this is getting very very old!

Sorry, didn't mean to generalize, I wasn't saying all of them are idiots (some good friends of mine work at Walmart), that was more directed at some of the folks at the local Big Y, to be honest, though I've seen a Walmart employee or two in my days who knew less about where things ere in their department than I did (seriously, I don't even work here folks!).

As weird as this is gonna sound, at the moment, you're probably lucky you don't have a degree, because the debt that comes with it (unless you've gone and got a degree in one of the few things still in high demand these days) can't really be shouldered alongside everything else.

One can hope and yes, yes it is. >.<

I wish we handled student debt the way the UK does. They only make you pay when you're above a certain threshold of income and if you drop below that, payments stop again. That and after a certain number of years of working toward paying them off, they vanish if you've yet to finish paying them off, or so I've heard from a lovely friend who used to live there.

Haha no it's fine! I am fully aware that Walmart hires all kinds of people! A lot of people use Wally World as an example, that or McDonalds! Not a big deal though...

I've been considering going to college, for something to do with art, either just graphic design, computer animation, or, what I really wish I could do, Special Makeup Effects... tis my dream!! But, only time will tell what I end up doing.. cause right now, I can't do anything!!

But that sounds amazing!! I never knew the UK did that, but I really wish we did! Could you imagine how much better off people would be here if we did that??? That's incredible... and at the same time, saddening, that our country doesn't care, they just want your money!! >.<

Originally Posted by CrossHatch

I've been considering going to college, for something to do with art, either just graphic design, computer animation, or, what I really wish I could do, Special Makeup Effects... tis my dream!! But, only time will tell what I end up doing.. cause right now, I can't do anything!!

Good news is that while you're not currently working you could probably learn graphic design and animation at home with whatever resources are available on the internet.. you could start building your portfolio whenever. p: It's a matter of taking the time and the risk of learning without an official school institution to organize things for ya.

Originally Posted by Risque

Good news is that while you're not currently working you could probably learn graphic design and animation at home with whatever resources are available on the internet.. you could start building your portfolio whenever. p: It's a matter of taking the time and the risk of learning without an official school institution to organize things for ya.

*blink blink*

You are brilliant Risque!! XD I never really thought about it like that... man, what's wrong with my brain?? I really need to start practicing drawing and whatnot... it's been hard to really find the drive to do anything though with this depression kicking my ass!! But, I've slowly been getting better, so maybe my drive will come back!

And it will only get better with the more progress you make! I wish you the best of luck.

Thank you thank you!!! <3

All the fun chats on here, and all the awesome people I meet help as well! XD

It gets better, I promise. Sometimes it just takes a while. I graduated college in August 2011 with my degree in music education and couldn't find a music education job at that point because school had already started when I had graduated and all the jobs were filled. So I moved home with my parents and I was lucky enough to find a job at a local KFC/Taco Bell/Pizza Hut. At one point I was making 28 hours a week even though I was hired for full time, all my money went to barely paying off bills and student loans. And I put out a ton of applications...and I FINALLY got hired for music teaching job to start August 2012. It really sucked, I had no money, I was in a place where I had no friends because my parents had moved to a new town when I was in college and I only knew THEM. And I know it's not the same as your circumstances, but it DOES get better. It's hard to keep a positive outlook, but it WILL get better. I can't tell you WHEN. But FIGHT for yourself :)

Gaw, well I'm glad you finally got a good job!!

Thanks for the advice! I know I have to fight for it if I want it, nothing worth having in life comes for free!! It's just a matter of finding that drive to make yourself fight!! But, I think I do have it now, some days are harder than others, but I always manage to pick myself up, dust myself off, and walk away with just a scratch!! Some things though, even fighting for them won't always make them happen! But not trying at all will just keep your ass planted in a computer chair on Mene 24/7 >.> lol. So, I'm trying to change that, I put in apps and call between posting in threads, only time will tell!!

But thank you all for the votes of confidence, and sharing your stories!! <3

I have been unemployed for nearly a year, and it really gets you down, so I know how you feel. I don't have a diploma or degree in anything, and only have experience working in a supermarket. Once you have that on your cv, it seems other places just put their nose up and pass you by. I have been trying for nearly a year to find a job, but no one is hiring. Or those that are always put "Full license needed and ten years experience required". Why do you need a full license to work at a fucking retail chain?!

I live in New Zealand, so at least you know that it is happening everywhere. Young people seem to be unable to find jobs (mainly because they all refuse to take anyone who hasn't got X years experience, even though the only way to get that experience is to fucking work) they study for a long time to find a career they want to do, only to come out of it with a diploma that doesn't count for shit. If you want to get a job, come here and be an engineer, maths teacher or doctor. All of ours are imports as everyone studies here and then leaves for overseas.

All we can do is try and get our foot in the door. I am not a out there kind of person, so I can't keep nagging people. I feel stupid if I cold-call a place, like they are laughing at me when I leave. I keep my eye out and apply everywhere everyday. So far I got one interview with McDonalds, but I wasn't employed because they couldn't open my CV >:U Ever since then, I haven't heard back from anything I apply for. I'm just hoping something comes soon. The unemployment office here are real nazis and will stop my benefit any chance they can get.

oh man, CrossPrime,
we are in the same boat,
Clock doesn't know what to say to help,
because Clock can't even help herself,
but Clock hopes you know that you're not alone in this,
and that Clock understands and if ever, Clock is here<3

Yeah, I know a lot of people are in the same boat... and it's not a very big boat, so now, the damned thing is sinking! It's so difficult to stay positive through everything, and I feel like I repeat myself a lot here. But all of you guys that I talk too on here, have no idea the impact you are having on my life, I don't feel alone anymore. I have an amazing girlfriend who I can talk to about anything, and all my amazing new friends here that I can do the same with. *hugs everyone on Menewsha*

I wish I would have discovered this site sooner, maybe I could have started feeling better sooner too.. but, I am just taking it one day at a time now, and I'll will redouble my efforts... I may have a job soon, one of my girlfriends roommates works at a place that is hiring, and even though I don't have a car, she said she would come get me everyday and take me so long as I give her gas money, which is totally ok and understandable!! So, *fingers crossed* I just have to try and hope for the best!!

woooooo~!
good luck CrossPrime!
o uo

So yet again, I get lectured... how I'm "selfish, lazy, worthless" If I can't find a job soon I'll have to move away... and that scares the shit out of me! Pardon my french there... but moving away would quite possibly mean also losing my girlfriend along with my friends and everything else I have here, which may not be much.. but I don't want this.

I don't know what to do, I am trying like freaking crazy to get some type of job, but what am I supposed to do if they won't hire me? I can't hold a gun to their head and say give me a job, cause that will land me in jail instead... this world sucks. I really hate it, it would have been so much easier if I wasn't born... but now I'm stuck in this hell.