I don't know what I am feeling right now, it's like one of my "days without a soul" as I call them. I feel like a zombie, I feel everything all at once but I cannot make out what any of it means, it is like I am thinking in a different language or something. So many things happening, all the feels going on, what do I do?

And now, having told a close friend that I know in person, that I think I may be Gender Fluid, it is something I wish I could take back now... the way all she said was "your a weirdo" .. It was like, gee, thank you best friend.. >.< "everyone is like that" Um, what? No.. where did you get your information from? I do not know if I should share this information with everyone I know or not, perhaps my girlfriend, but I still do not even really know about that either.

Just, all of the feels, I hate the days like this... so many things I want to say, but I can't think. I guess If I can clear my thoughts a little more I'll post again in here, maybe make this my little diary or something. *shrugs* No idea.. just rambling.. halp? jokes? something, just make me laugh or something... idk

I'm sorry that your best friend reacted that way. Sometimes it can be hard to deal with the fact that even your best friend does not accept who you truly are... it's just one of the things I hate about real life. Too many normal people who live in their normal bubble. D:<

Well, it is not exactly that she is normal. She tried to say she was joking, but it is hard telling with her.

It is hard to think, man, if she acted like that.. what would everyone else say? Ya know, maybe this is why I am in this mood now! I know my girlfriend would not react that way, she's a transwoman, so I really doubt she would have anything bad to say about it! XD Real life does suck though, sometimes, it's too hard to explain things like that to people who know nothing about it. When I first told my friend I thought I was Gender Fluid.. she said, "I couldn't imagine you with a penis" and I went.. you called me weird, but you don't even know what it is I'm talking about.... le sigh. Oh well, I'll probably talk to my girlfriend about it later tonight, she is great to talk too!!

But, thank you Risque! I should be okay with that particular situation, now it's just worrying about everyone else! haha *hugs*

Goes to prove that education is really important! It's overall easier to empathize when you actually understand what's going on. XD I was worried that maybe your girlfriend would react unfavorably too, but I'm glad to see that that wouldn't be the case. p:

Exactly!! Too much ignorance in the world and that's where the hatred comes from! It's not difficult to even read just a tiny description of something to get a basic understanding before you judge and hate something. But yes, no problem with my girlfriend I am sure! If anything she will be a huge help to talk too! XD

-gives all the love to CrossPrime-

Gaw... *cuddles Clock*

---------- Post added 01-18-2013 at 10:54 AM ----------

Ya know, the more I think about it, Gender Fluid just fits so well!! I had a long talk about it last night with my girlfriend, who is amazing! She said she doesn't care what gender I feel like, or what orientation I am, so long as I remain a good person, she will always love me. She also said, speaking from experience, if I'm not certain about it, or if being referred to as the opposite gender (or just having validation from family and friends that I am Gender Fluid) that i shouldn't tell anyone but close friends... and even then, to be careful about it.

I know the hell she goes through with dealing with people, just last night a customer made a shitty remark to her regarding her gender... and I hope he got hit by a bus after leaving... but whatever. You can't make people stop being douche bags, she just doesn't want me to have to deal with it. But honestly, my whole life, considering well, I am one of those women with practically no chest.. to put it a least awkwardly as possible for me! lol, but all my life, people have always asked if I was a guy or a girl, mostly just to be mean or hateful, but some because they genuinely didn't know... but really, it used to bother me, now, I almost get happy sometimes when someone thinks I'm a guy, at least, when I feel like a guy... cause when I feel more like a girl, it does hurt.

*sighs* It's so confusing.. but I am glad that it hasn't effected my relationship with her, and it appears that everyone who now knows on here doesn't care either. And no body should care, it's not gender or /anything/ that matters, it's who a person is, and I know I am a good person, so nothing else should matter... right?

right. sounds like you got yourself a keeper, CrossPrime.
8D

Clock understands the struggle with Gender Fluid to a point.
Clock prefers the term Queer for identifying herself.