Hi all. I just need someplace to vent.

WARNING: Long winded and boring.

I work 24 hours a week as a carer in a nice residential/retirement home. I work all day (8am - 8pm) on a Tuesday and all night (8pm - 8am) on Saturdays.

I only want to work nights but currently no more night staff are needed/there are no openings. The only way I could get more night hours is if one of the night workers were to resign. I only took the Tuesday because I couldn't just work the Saturday...

I really hate working that Tuesday. For one; I am not a morning person and it takes me a while to get going in the mornings. The biggest issue though, is that I have mild social anxiety (thankfully no where near how bad it used to be) and I just can't stand being stuck amongst my co-workers for 12 hours straight. Trying to appear social and alert/interested is exhausting. I am not unfriendly really, but by nature I am an only child and enjoy being on my own. Being with my dog and my bf is enough onteraction for me!
By 3pm I am ready to go home and will start yawning.

This makes me sound mean, I know. But almost all of the workers are really nice, there are just 3 ladies or so who I have been "warned" about and they are "off" with everyone not just me so that's okay.

It sounds ridiculous but honestly last Tuesday when my alarm went off I woke up going "Ohhhh!" actually angry that I had 12hrs of being stuck around people ahead of me. That's not normal right!!

I just dread every Tuesday. I start to feel down on Monday afternoon/evening. :(

I really want to stay at this place because I only started at the end of November and I honestly love working the nights there - but currently I am looking elsewhere for 2 nights so I could hopefully drop the Tuesday, keep the Sturday and work 2 nights somewhere else bringing my weekly hours up to 36hrs which is what I really want.

The manager of the home is really nice and said as soon as there are nights available she will give them to me, but like I said, I am just waiting for someone to leave and in the mean time taking on very sporadic extra nights due to holidays.

It's difficult to think about, just a mess in my head. It's really getting me down... :(