So lets begin with my dad, in all due respect I dont think he really cares about me. We have no relationship whatsoever, sort of began once my stepmother came along and the flowers that I usually got, were given to her and his attention was, and still is centered around my step siblings who are spoiled and have no concept of anyone else and dont really care if anyone else if bothered, its all about them, twenty-four seven, all year round. He used to live two hours away so we would visit every other weekend and see him four days a month, in which I was invisable to him and if I talked to the wall I got more of a response, well recently they mvoed to twenty minutes away but my stepbrother and my sister moved with them, my step sister stayed with her dad but I still have to visit every other weekend, which I havent been lately.

Well next comes my odd depression but I dont know why, I went to a physciatrist in grade six but I still feel depressed but I really dont know why, I should feel happy but im not. Basically the world seems evil to me and I really dont get any of this. My mom works day and night lately so I dont see her, with everything moving away and being alone, as well as my friends all going out, breaking up ect I think I may have abandonment issues which dosent add to my depression, my only happy moments are with my horse but I cant even see him too much often so really life isnt great right now and thats just the beginning of it. Honestly I dont know what to do anymore, I know im off my medication but still I shouldnt feel this upset, and its not like I can help it.

My sister wnats to move back but I really dont want her to, she has a chemical imbalance and her temper is bad, she gets violent and destroys everything, im left to watch her alot but she hardly listens anyways so I refuse to watch her if she comes back, any suggestions?

Wow what a situation you are currently in, family problems are tough, more so when you don't have anyone close you can depend on. I am like that now with my family though its with my mother not father coz he aint around anymore. Write down your feelings and try to talk to friends if you can. I think talking can really help and generally will make you feel better. I hope things work out for you.

Talking, it dosen't work well for me. I've tried just about everyone reliable then my family and welll, it made everything worse. Its basically been decided I have a month or so before she comes back so im counting down the days, I dread it, shes here for the weekend and has alreadyn spazzed on me as well as destroy the house in her anger, im left to clean it yet its so bad im almost scared of it.

Huney I want to help but it would help to know how old are you before I can continue the advice ok? if that's ok with you

Me and my father have no relationship either. I don't like fathers feel very connected with their children like mothers do.

@Zumbie
Not true... it just depends on the father. :3

@Allurist
I'm sorry for the hardship you're currently going through. It certainly isn't easy!
You've asked if you should feel obligated to take care of your sister. I don't think you should have to, no, and if it's pushed upon you, it's completely unfair. If she's as mentally unstable as you say, then she needs to go someplace where people can help her.

Trinity, im thirteen near fourteen and I shouldnt have to deal with this.

Yes and thank you for your understanding guys, as for Chiairen, yes its really bad, I believe she's on fifty mg of Stretara every day, I mean I love her, she can be so sweet, like when we dropped her off, she cried, but im sick and tired of this, I wont beable to keep going on with her this way.

It's not wrong to not want her back, but you have to cope. It's your sister. I'm not going to spew out family values like a retarded Hallmark Card on acid.

I advise joining after school clubs, or SOMETHING so you can be out of the house more and keeping your door locked when you're home so you have a chill spot during rampages (unless you share a room, in which case, GTFO immediately). My brother was a crack addict for awhile, he went on rampages and sold what he could steal from my room, destroyed what he couldn't. Eventually I just kept beating on his ass and my dad chained him to a railing in the house. Think Black Snake Moan with a crazy spanish guy instead of Samuel L. Jackson.

Anyways, that's all I can say apart from "Good luck." So um... Good luck.

Merr, yes I know im accepting it peacefully or atleast my mouth stays shut while my thoughts go on a rampage. Well since i refuse to babysit she has to be at a Before and After school program, my Moms going to ask for straight days during the week(she has shiftwork) so atleast i shouldnt be left with her. No we dont share a room, and I dont have a lock(yet, which I may get) yeah I got pretty violent with her(nine year old females are pretty violent themselves)