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self-mutilation
I've been cutting myself for the past 5 months or so. I do it to feel pain, not to kill myself. I don't want to die, and I never go that far. It's just a simple knife/other sharp object across my wrist a few times, with a little blood.
I love it, and I do it nearly every night. Thus meaning I have a ton of scars, which I have trouble hiding. Also, I'm sort of afraid. I can't stop. I'm addicted. I'm not sure how other people view this, so I thought online would be a good place. I can't tell my parents or my friends, and I don't know if I should. And I do want to stop, I just can't. Discuss A)How and if I should tell people I know and B)How and if I should stop |
Thats sick!
No matter how much you "love" it, you obviously have some sort of problem. Whether its emotional or phycological. Ask youself: Why do you love it? It's not right to cut yourself, especially when you enjoy it.. :/ Hopefully its just a phase.. When I was as young as 12 I cut myself every night, but thankfully I realized how stupid I was being and stopped myself. So please, for the sake of yourself and your loved ones, don't cut yourself! It's dumb! |
Look, I'm not going to give you any sympathy or that carp. If you want to kill yourself for no reason at all, then fine. One more person who won't F*ck up the world.
But seriously, do you even have a legitimate reason? It seems a bit fishy to me that you're "addicted" to pain. Good luck living. |
It started when I got dumped and I wanted to feel non-emotional pain. Now I just do it because I'm bored, or when I'm hurt [emotionally], that kind of thing.
And this was more for recommendations for how to tell people and how to stop. |
You might love cutting yourself now, but when you finally stop, you have left scars on your body that will take years to go away. Then you will end up hating yourself for it. If you love the physical pain, try to find ones that aren't permanent. Wear a rubber band around your wrist. And when you feel like cutting, snap the rubber band.
Yeah, getting dumped sucks. It's no reason to hurt yourself. There are plenty of other people out there. If you're emotionally hurt, try to endure it, because life is about going through these emotions. If you're bored, occupy your time doing something else. I find that writing down how you feel actually helps. It gets out all the frustration. |
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o.o; Woah, that is a rather serious additction that could be life threatening. I know about addicting habits, I myself bite my nails a lot... and I can't stop. But this is much more serious.. woah..
I don't know what to say, really. I think you should tell someone, even if it is just your friend. Someone needs to know so they can support you in your time of trying to stop. You need to hear "You can do it" several times before your mind really believes you can! I think you can. Seriously. You can do it if you really want to. |
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Right now I'm actually looking at e-therapy. I might try it. And thanks to all of you. You've helped, in some way or other. You inspired me to look at help sites. |
I was a cutter 10 years ago in my early teens. My mom caught me in the bathroom doing it once and I missed out on half a year of school going through treatment. I'm left with terribly ugly scars even now 10 years ago they stand out as if it was just a month ago.
I'm better now, but living with these scars is difficult. People think I'm crazy and they will for a long time, since they don't seem to be going away any time soon. Please get some help. Tell your parents. Don't be afraid. They'll love you and no matter how difficult the help may be at the time, you'll get through it. One of the things I learned throughout the whole thing was that life goes on. Through the bad and good. Life goes on. |
Sweetie. You get one body. And for the rest of your life, you have to live in that same body. It'll be with you all the time.
You can either treat it like shit, and have to live with the consequences (ill health, infections, scars, etc.), or you can take care of it. You're not a doctor, sweetie. Even if you're not doing it with the intent to kill yourself, you do realize you have a major vein going down your inner arm, right? And since you're not a doctor, how do you know PRECISELY where that is, and that you won't hit it? If you do, you could bleed to death. Or you'd have to go to the hospital, and then everyone would have to know about your problem. Your cuts could also very easily get infected, if you're not careful. Would you do this to someone else? Would you cut someone else's arms just because you liked to? This is no way to take care of yourself. If you really hate yourself so much that you're injuring yourself daily, you really need to work on your esteem. Seriously. |
Cherry is right. You only get one body in this lifetime. I do not support self-mutilation, but one of my good friends had a problem with it. I didn't support it, but she sure as hell put me through an emotional whirlwind. It took her years and years to get it under control. Somehow, she did it herself. Somehow, she still has the desire, but she won't allow herself to cut anymore.
She rarely wanted to kill herself, if ever. She did it to feel the pain, as you mentioned, or to simply feel -something-. My only suggestion to you is to go get help. For a problem this severe, we are only online faces, most of which have no doctors degrees. Counseling (even from us) can only go so far. You have an addiction, and though it's not, say, alcohol, you need help. There has to be support groups out there for self-mutilators. Urusee has a good point. Sometimes you need to tell yourself you can do it. Instead of telling yourself you're in so much emotional pain, tell yourself you can get through it without the knife. The knife isn't making you better. It's making you worse right now. It's not your friend, it's not your savior. It is not making your pain go away. It is not a coping mechanism. It is not a permanent fixture for what you are feeling. The first step you can do is admit you have a problem. You've admitted it to us here. Now you need to admit it to someone who can help. I am thinking friends aren't going to do it. They do not hold the power to get you to a place that might be more suitable for treatment. Your parents or another trusted adult, however... The first thing is being brave enough to admit to them you need help. Please, please try to. |
Cruel as it sounds: Better hurting herself than others. Granted she shouldn't have to feel that feeling physical pain is a distraction. As a former cutter, I sympathize. Personally, I took up several OTHER dangerous hobbies. I started skating, and for those who KNOW Pennsylvania, it's hilly and rocky as HELL. Messed up a leg skating because I hit a rock and got dragged twenty feet or so on asphault, tore off a leg of my jeans, ruined my favorite jersey, needed several skin grafts, broke several fingers and actually had to have one surgically reattached.
I adivse if you like breaking stuff, or even inflicting pain on yourself, I advise learning to do something that could potentially hurt you (minorly) if you screw up, like extreme sports, or channel that anger or whatever into other stuff, like art or writing. The tormented heart comes up with the best shit, let me tell you. Anyways, good luck stopping. |
You are welcome hun. I know that not all actions are problems, sometimes they are just a mental state of mind, and they can be over come if you work at it and try your best.
You say you want to quit, you say you want to get better. The first step is knowing that you can. You have to tell an adult and work at it. It is never right to go at it alone, and being alone just makes it worse. You are always tempted to pick the knife and do it more because it makes you feel comfortable, happy even. I don't think it really does. I just think you have gotten so used to it you don't know the difference. Find something else that takes your mind off of hurting yourself. I don't believe it is okay to hurt yourself insted of others. Hurting is all in it's self bad. A human life is a human life, there is no difference between yours and another person's, treat yourself better if you want to get better. |
I was cutting for a long time when I was younger. I used it to release anger or to prove to my loved ones that I was in trouble. For me I didn't care if I had scars, I was sort of proud of them. I wanted people to know I was damaged. I wasn't able to stop until I got noticed. I was cutting myself in order scare my family into noticing how much I was hurting. Tell someone you love and be ready to asure them you want to get better. To me it sounds like you need LOVE hun. I hope you do, take care. <3
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well you most certingly have a problem scince you like cutting yourself, you can tell people, im not exacly sure how they would react, but most probably be freaked out and keep away maby? thats how i see it, but you should maby talk to someone about it since you love doing it. that could be a bad sign of something. but still i cant really see how bad it is if its not bleeding too badly, like just a small trickle and only deep enough to just cut the skin lightly.
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Thanks, you guys.
I did talk to one of my friends about it, and I found a few sites that have really helped. I swore last night would be my last time. I doubt it, but it's a start. |
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well...there are some people who actually Like pain...I myself am not one of them. But yea I hope you do end up stopping cause its not good for your body (duh) and Im glad you told someone. when I was in highschool two of my friends were "cutters" it was just heart breaking because basically the only thing we could do was take away things like pins and razors away from them...
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My cousin nipped an artery and almost bled to death. We were clueless as to what she was doing until this incident. When she came home from the hospital their home was cleared of anything that could be used for cutting. Her mom kept the key to a secure box that had all the things they had to keep in it. Scissors, knives for cooking, etc.
The sad part was that this did not stop my cousin from mutilating herself. She used jagged edges of bent pop cans, she even used erasers to scar herself. The worst one she has is an eraser scar on her hand where she rubbed her skin off clear to the bone. Please, go get help before it's to late. My cousin is fine now, she is happily married and has 3 kids. She even managed to pull her grades up and go to college. But the scar on her hand will probably never go away. She struggled with weather or not to tell her kids what it was, and ended up telling them. I couldn't imagine having to tell my kids something like that... |
ok you obviously have a problem and unlike most people here im going o help you stop when you have the urge to cut eat instead...honestly itll work that or if you have an xbox 360 and guitar hero sit down call someone like a close friend on the phone and talk while playing guitar hero
and you should tell your parents no matter how awkward it is tell them theyll get you the help you need you can also try volunteer work, i volunteer regularly at the ymca and it helps my self esteem... good luck and god bless you ------------------------------------------------------ one last thing if you need motivation to stop listen to the song scars by papa roach...i think it would apply here... |
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I do the calling thing now. And sometimes Guitar Hero II. Eating wouldn't really work since I don't want to gain weight, since that kills my self esteem. And I'm debating telling them. And I volunteer at our local animal shelter. I always use music to try to put off hurting myself. And I'm really proud of myself. I used a super tight hair elastic as an alternative last night. True, snapping it only felt good because it hit the cuts, but still. It's a start. |
I seriously don't see how people can cut themselves
i hate it when i get cut like from falling or from my cat i hate pain |
Hun you gotta stop that thats just no good you cant be hurting yourself it not good get some help tell your parents cause this will turn into something else.
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You absolutly need to stop. You should tell you parents first so they can help you or take you to someone who can. I know it can be frightning to tell someone that you love that you are cutting but you need to. You need to stop because of the fact that it is not good for you. One day you could accidently gut to deep and do some serious damage.
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