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When Karma Seems to Have Decided You Suck
So, what do you do when life is just one big disaster after the next? The past two months have felt like a downhill slope on an icy mountain. It's been one bad thing after another, each worse than the last. I'm convinced that by the end of June, I'm going to get by a bus or something. The whole thing started when all of my best friends at once vanished while I was going through a minor depression. I was having money issues, self-esteem issues, father issues...All I needed was to talk, but everyone just kinda dissapeared. It wasn't intentional, it was just crappy timing. After that, one of my supposed best friends (I have three super-amazing close friends. We shall call them J, JJ, and A. This one is J.) decided to start being a total ass. He kept blowing me off, giving me crap, and insulting me at every possible moment. My other friend (JJ) decided she was going to hang out with another one of our friends and drink and smoke 24/7. My final friend (A) happened to be in North Carolina with a broken cell phone. Yeah...it was not a happy week. She (A) fortunately returned and was there to listen, but that was only a minor happiness in this sea of misery. Things continued down this path until the ass of a dude flat-out told me didn't want to see me. This was around the same time I was freaking out because I kept getting major stomach issues. I was nauseous all the time, and all my dad did was yell and scream at me. My grades were dropping because I was missing school, and when I was there, I could barely keep my eyes open let alone pay attention. JJ started talking about my stomach lining eroding away and stomach cysts (sp?), only increasing my stress factor. Oh yeah, she also told me she's moving to some far off country land next month. The dude and I made up after about a week. All was good for awhile (read as: "three days"). I then found out this same guy had been talking shit behind my back, saying all sorts of terrible lies. Now mind you, this is a guy who, for four years, has claimed to love me and been one of my best friends. Now he's telling everyone all that was a lie. When I confronted him, he said that the stuff he'd said was a lie, and he actually did care, he'd just been really mad at me. Now he claims I "forced the friendship on him" and the only reason we ever made up after our fight was because we were at school (I was too angry at the time to point out he messaged me over MSN to tell me we were talking again). Due to this new development, JJ got super ticked at me for being majorly depressed and we had a yelling match. I also lost a potential friend because she was J's friend first and didn't want to jeapordize their friendship (I didn't point out she was part of what had caused our fight). I now have two weeks to get all my grades up, figure out what to do about my attendance deal (our school's attendance policy sucks), and try not to go insane with stress and depression. Of course, this is all just the friendship deal. There's also a bunch of stuff dealing with a formerly MIA mother (she vanished when I was eight) suddenly showing up saying she's having heart problems, another friend who keeps coming to me to help her with her very sick grandma, the total lack of money in the bank, and the sudden sea of people who desperately need my help or advice. I'm so beyond stressed. I've tried every method I can think of to calm down, but I'm not getting enough sleep, I'm crabby, and I'm getting sick again. TT________TT Help... |
all those are shitty things but in all honesty it sounds to me as if you need some new TRUE friends in your life. Real friends won't abandon you in your time of need.
as for your stomach, i had the same symptoms for two years when I was in college, turns out i have acid reflux and an ulcer. do you get sick after you eat or drink or when stressed out? If so you should see a doctor you could have the same thing as me. all in all i hope things perk up for you. and if it makes you feel any better my entire has been shitty too though I have far too many occurances to go into detail about it. |
I say screw em'! Don't let them get you stressed out, that's what they want. Those are not true friends, and remember that you can make just the same friends later on, but ones who will stick by you. Ditch them all like they ditched you, for they deserve that [ and probably an ass kicking or two > 3< !!! ] Right now you need to focus on you. That is what you are doing though, but you also need to forget about all those "friends". That will probably relieve you a lot. I know I know, sounds easier said than done, for they were such great friends before and such, but, you just don't need this right now, or later. Please. Also, do you think there is any reason for why they suddenly all turned on you? Like, a more profound kind of reason? o__o'
Why are you fighting with your dad? I mean, is it just grades or more? Like said above I think you should go to a doctor, or do you think your father won't agree with that? What about your mother? Do you have any other relatives that could help you right now? And sorry, I just really hate those fake friends type of people : ( Not that I had any of those, but I did used to see it all the time. Main advice: Don't make the worst of an already bad situation. Be optimistic, don't let other's get you down. Good luck! :) |
^^; I have a horrible time leaving friends, but I've basically given up on the guy. I can't take one more lie from him, so I'm (very reluctantly) moving on. And I have no idea why all of this came up. I think it was just a domino effect, where the dude brought up issues with us, which in turn brought up problems with my other friends. All the stress didn't help it, as I get super bitchy when I'm stressed and keep snapping at everyone. And, jeeze...my dad and I fight about everything. He has a terrible temper, so whenever something happens that he doesn't like, he immediately yells at whoever is nearby (usually me). I told him about the stomach issues and he, in not so many words, called me a hypochondriac and told me to suck it up (which is rather funny, because I hate doctors and avoid going at all costs). Thanks to both of you. It feels a little better just getting that rant out @[email protected] |
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