Lately, I have felt more and more weaker by the day. I use to be strong willed and I use to be able to stand up for myself. Now my heart seems to break every day... and I everything that happens... makes me sad... even when I'm supposed to be happy about it. I've distanced myself away from everybody without meaning to... and I start to feel everybody insulting me. I can't even tell my own boyfriend that I cry all the time... and even when I'm talking to him... all I'm doing is crying... and one of my so called friends... she's using her generosity in the past against me... I feel as though I want my life to end again... I no longer feel right where I am right now... and I'm afraid I might lose it before time would come to do so... it seems impossible to find hope... everything good or bad... it all makes me feel worse... my friends are almost gone... and I believe my own boyfriend could do better with someone else... Most of me just wishes it would all end so I have nothing to keep myself from doing what I want to....

Please don't think that way, it breaks my heart to hear those words. If something happens to you, I won't be able feel happy anymore. If I lost the most important person I love, I'd be broken!

myranda... you know people are out there souly for you. i'm here for ya whenever and however you want me. i know you are going through a rough time, and girl, i respect that! you'll get through ths... i know you will. you are my best friend, and i couldn't live without ya so :hug: feel better soon... please

I'm going through that standpoint. Except its different for me: I've been getting angry at everything and everyone. And it seems like nothing seems to go the way I planned, and nothing seems to go right.

Life will get better without you having to do anything drastic. Remember, you're loved and theres people out there who love you. Just imagine how miserable they would be without you in their life.

please dont

i just recently had a friend commit suicide
its not worth it and for those friends who do care i know there must be atleast one and your family they will be broken dont put them on the kind of stress im going through now its not worth it think about it once you graduate you most likely wont ever see those people again and most likely they will ammount to nothing as you bcome greater educated and a good job get married and a bunch of things dont make the same mistake my friend did

Originally Posted by Vesta

please dont

i just recently had a friend commit suicide
its not worth it and for those friends who do care i know there must be atleast one and your family they will be broken dont put them on the kind of stress im going through now its not worth it think about it once you graduate you most likely wont ever see those people again and most likely they will ammount to nothing as you bcome greater educated and a good job get married and a bunch of things dont make the same mistake my friend did

I knew someone who committed suicide. And you're right, its not worth it. Neither is it fair to do that to the people who love you and the people around you. Suicide has a big impact on people. My friend's sister was the one who found her hung and dead in her room. I cannot imagine what that would be like to go through, and I still sympathize her to this day [it has been 4 years]. They are still affected by this tragic action, years after the incident. Just image the pain that your family and loved ones would have to go through without you there, knowing that you took your own life away because things were getting rough along the road.

And this is bluntly put: I find suicide to be a selfish act, or a.k.a "The pussy's way out."

I do wish people wouldn't think like that. Sure you may have your down's right now, but things are bound to get better later on, believe me. Don't do anything like that, just keep living for the moment even it its not good at the moment, you are still young and have a lot to experience and live for. If you need someone to talk to, I'm open. Please take care.

Originally Posted by thoughtlessamaya

I knew someone who committed suicide. And you're right, its not worth it. Neither is it fair to do that to the people who love you and the people around you. Suicide has a big impact on people. My friend's sister was the one who found her hung and dead in her room. I cannot imagine what that would be like to go through, and I still sympathize her to this day [it has been 4 years]. They are still affected by this tragic action, years after the incident. Just image the pain that your family and loved ones would have to go through without you there, knowing that you took your own life away because things were getting rough along the road.

And this is bluntly put: I find suicide to be a selfish act, or a.k.a "The pussy's way out."

i agree

Dyon, you and I may not know each other, but I can tell from what you posted that there are a lot of people that care a lot about you. Everything is downs for you now, but there are bound to be some ups soon! This sounds distressingly like severe depression, I don't know much about you or your history, but it seems like sad isn't your norm, you've made friends, helped others, and have a good relationship going with your boyfriend. It also sounds like you're bottling it up because you are afraid to burden people, or sound dramatic, don't bottle things up, at least write them down like you did here. Try to think of at least 10 good things throughout the day, and remember that you've helped everyone around you in some way. Think about your family, your boyfriend, and your friends, and remember that they wouldn't be happy without you. Ending it is not an option, find someone or something to talk yourself out of this, and if it gets to be bad enough you might even want to consider getting a therapist or a confidant of some form. Your life is very important, life at all is to be cherished and protected. Take care of yourself Dyon.