I dont think you should get upset over this. No it's not "just" a "game" when real people are involved, but then again, the people that are bitching are probably twelve year olds whose mothers didn't feed them dinner or something. But you did say that you were coming off as "bossy", and as you may know, most people dont like bossi-ness, because it's closely associated with obnoxiousness (I think that's the word), as in, they may think that you think you're so amazingly awesome that you can boss them around. I mean, getting this upset over something that can be avoided is SO silly. Did any of that make sense? Probably not.

But what I'm trying to say is; if you're feeling suicidal over something like this, then your mentality isn't strong enough to fit the administor type of position. If you're afraid of being hated, then Admin is deffffo not the job for you. You should quit the site altogether. No virtual world is worth considering taking your life away. I mean, virtual communities are fun and all that, but notice the keyword FUN <-- you dont sound like you're having much FUN <---. Stay on Mene where everyone is nice and friendly and smily. <33

Ignore the accusers - there are more people who appreciate you than dislikes you. Don't let GAIA bring you down. =) Those people are annoying and jealous, who cares about them! C:

And killing yourself won't solve the problem - it may worsen it. You want to wrap it all up, don't you? =) Expressing your thoughts here is a good start, it helps vent a little.

Trinity, please read this. I know you and I haven't spoken for a while, but I hope you read this post.

Sometimes you can say the wrong thing in the wrong tone. Yes. But even the Native English speakers can do that too. The truth is language is meant to be seen and heard not read. It takes great skill to communicate properly through text alone and so people will often mis read a meaning. It happens to me (That's why we don't talk any more. But that's beside the point), it even happens to English teachers in England. If they want to be petty and vindictive about something that they're more than likely done themselves. ignore them. You can do it. I know you can. They're really not worth it.

You are such a sweet and kind person that the staff on that forum really aught to realize that what these people are saying isn't true. If they had half a brain they would be able to see that you try your very best, just language is a barrier for you. As you've already said spanish and English are very different languages. Pretty much everything we've disagreed upon has been because of that.

Know that you are loved. And that you matter. Don't let these people hurt you because you are better than that.

thanks everyone, when I feel down I go back and read this and feel so loved and I thank you everyone of you for cheering me up.
Things are much better but I'm still trying to find my way, I was really critizised for doing this topic and there is one thing I want to clarify : in Porteño spanish (the kind I speak) when you say I'm gonna kill myself you dont really mean that I mean its like saying god this is horrible I'm sick of it or something, so sorry some people took it literal...I was just too sad that day but really never ment that.

@Jayms special thanks for you, pm me whenever you want I dont hold anything bad about you ok? I mean it, and thanks *hugs*

Like others have said already; Gaia really is going down the drain, and has been for the past few years or so.

Not only is it over-run with hackers, scammers and just rude and obnoxious people in general, but they seem to have no respect whatsoever for the mods (you).

I'd bet that there are a lot of people that actually appreciate all of the hard work you're doing. They probably outnumber the disgruntled members by far. So just ignore those who seem to have nothing better to do then ridicule you for doing your job.

And, as I've just realized (I'm slow sometimes...all the time. xDD) that English isn't your first language, so if they're all hickledy pickledy because of that, then I think they need to grow up.
D=

Besides, you've always got us on Menewsha.
=D

Yeah, I kinda figured it was a phrase of speech. I'm glad I was right and you don't really plan on killing yourself over an online thing. *hugs*

People are cruel, but you have to be positive.
If someone wants to take you down it's mostly because they want to be you, so it's actually a compliment.
For every friend there is a foe, even if foes are more outspoken than friends.

Just my vision.

I hope you feel better now, too.
Don't value others' opinions too much is my advice.
Your opinion is the most important one to you, don't forget that.

You're talking about Kinsaki, right? I was there for a little while. I remember you when you became a moderator there. You were very helpful and I appreciated you a lot. Unfortunately, people are asshats.

Though regardless of what site it's on...

If they're really bothering you that much, just leave like I did. It doesn't matter if you're an admin or not if they're treating you that badly. Here on Menewsha there are more friendly people, and they're smarter, too.

Don't kill yourself (I know you were just saying it, but sometimes just saying it turns into doing it) because of some fucking losers trying to make your life harder. Snap. Bitch them out, give them that attitude that they keep accusing you of having. Believe it or not, sometimes losing your temper at people like that make them back off.

Bad mouth them like they do you, rant to your heart's content and tell each and every one of them exactly how you feel about them and tell them that they need to fuck off.

Don't let them win. Don't let them defeat you. You're too good of a person to let them get you down! Don't give up! I'll be cheering for you!

GIVE THEM HELL!

thank you so much everyone, well some news some of you already know, I ended up quiting that site so I dont have any problem and I feel happy again.

I dont feel they won, on the contrary I feel they lost one very helpful person because of imaturity and fights, but since it was too much for a person like me to stand I just decided to leave them alone in their hell and go to solia or stay here at mene to have fun.

I know I have lots of friends here and that makes me feel better *hugs all*
I'm so relaxed now, believe me I wouldn't go back not for all the gold int he site hahahah XD

I'm happy a lot of people will remember me and the experiences I had with users were all good =) I made friendies and also I'm happy of some of the things I managed to change for the good of the site, but its not my place anymore and I only wish them the best , hopefully they learn and become better.