It's not a dark mood until, you have to have someone escort you from the room, so you don't end someone. XD

This is sounding to much like me...it's kinda creepy....

lol. maybe you are actually bipolar?

maybe....anyway to test that?
and fuck....I dunno what that would do to my carrer in the military

They can test it, but they really should have caught it on a psyche test going in.

If they decided you had it... it depends. Sometimes they do nothing, sometimes they give you meds, sometimes (if it's really crazy severe) they give you an honorable medical discharge. Your case isn't really bad enough to need any of that though, so no worries. If it gets bad enough to interfere with what you do, then they'll probably check anyway.

I do dislike the out of control emotions though
and the emotional shit that goes with the disorder.
I got more lows than Highs, but I'm looking at symptoms online, and I'm just like...fuck, I got all the ones I've read so far

It could also be a few other things including borderline personality disorder.

Regardless, did they not give you a psyche test?

They did....of sorts.
more for the fact that I was diagnosed with ADD. so they gave me an ADD test, not something like Bipolar.
and you haven o clue how many crazies we atually have in teh navy

Right... that's not supposed to be procedure... >.>

lol.

Bipolar disorder is an automatic disqualification into any branch of the military

if I do have it, and it sure as hell looks like I do, I fit the symptoms damn near exactly.
and the navy finds out. I'm most likely fucked....but then again they may not want it to be found out that I managed to get in with it in the first place

If you're already in they have to give you a medical discharge with all benefits. I'd know. Happened to my uncle.

but Tana doesn't wanna be discharged T_T

Then tell no one, and know that caffeine and sugar are your friends when depressed. They will help even you out. When manic, listen to clam music and it will help. :)

If you needs advice about this stuff I can be helpful, but you have already been dealing with it for a while yeah?

Yeah....I have, since atleast highschool atleast >.>
mother refuses to belive anything is wrong with me

I have borderline personality disorder.

Bipoliar is also "manic depression", depressed sometimes, and then mania being really 'high' into something. They gave me drugs for that intially but they might have given me a sugarpill because I still did things like broke a glass bawls bottle and sliced my arm with the shards when all of my roomates left without me (abandonment, key trigger for borderline). I won't get into it too much here, but I have a life issues thread where I talk about all of the things I've been diagnosed with or at least meet a good amount of the criteria for, along with the drugs I am or have been taking.

awwww, Crow-Sama, Tana wouldn't leave you...Tana doesnt go out much either though >.>
and I get these unexplainable highs, where i don't sleep much, thenn outta the blue i'm sad and all I wanna do is sleep
I'm practically irritable all the time except when I'm sad cause when I'm down I don't give a shit.

Manic depression is one kind of bipolar disorder. there's a lot of them. >.>

Yours seems similar to mine.

well I think that kinda confirms it for me....I got it....fuck
If i'm ever diagnosed with it I'm fucked

No hon. You'll be fine. Your case isn't severe enough for it to be a real problem. They won't see anything big enough to care, so you'll be fine. okay. No worries.

The Military is retarded and looking for reasons ti kick people out

but the internet is fun
I found an online quiz
stupid thing said I had severe Mania, and then another I scores like a....50 something when the last thing at the bottom says 25+ >.> that one was for a Spectrum one
meh, what ever.
I've aways been a tad fucked up in the head

as if I didn't have enough problems finding someone

Here's my deal: I detest it when people meet me on the basis of knowing that I have mental issues and therefore they speak down to me as if I'm mentally retarded and/or a five year old. I am intelligent. I am well spoken and verbose. I have corrected the nurses on the medications I told them I took after selecting the completely wrong one on the computer, I often tell them the brand, generic compound, and strength of all of my medications, sometimes spelling it out for the M.D.s themselves, and one time when I was in the Emergency Room for chronic pain + a viral infection that made it so I could barely breathe nor get out of fetal position let alone walk, the worst pain I've felt since I've been in post-surgery recovery, the nurse asked what I took my Percoset for. That's on par with asking what Viagra is for. I yelled out in frustration and because I was in excrutiating agony "FOR PAIN!" and she then yelled back at me saying I didn't have to be rude because she didn't have everything memorized.

If someone meets me under the premise of the fact that I have mental disabilities they assume, wrongly, that I'm stupid, and then I run circles around them with my intellect, achievements (Bachelor's Degree, Cum Laude, Teaching Credential), and experience in a wide variety of fields including Information Technology and Linguistics 'just for fun'.

This is parallel to why I don't like people meeting me under the assumption of gender stereotypes. You know what? I like Sailor Moon. I also like playing Magic: the Gathering and other card games. As a child I was as likely to go out in the woods and harvest honeysuckles in a plastic bucket as I was to catch snakes and lizards and shove them in other kids' faces. Taking away my LEGOs was the equivalent of a death sentence, and I loved toys that came with loads of small parts and accessories as I'm very dextrous with my hands.

Tana hates snakes....all kinds, they creap me out...except the realy tiny ones you keep for pets....
and the issue is finding someone. Every one I know is either married, getting married, or on their way to getting married. it makes me sad