Well, maybe he's confused about his feelings too.. unpredictable people can be difficult, but also can be a good change. Either way, I hope stuff works out. ^^

I mostly get updates from Erik through his tumblr and stuff, we don't really talk per se. But I know he took it pretty hard when Glitter disappeared.

I was going to go to uni earlier, and last minute I just decided that actually, I would be spending at least £5-6 to get 10-15 minutes of "I think you should put these pictures in your portfolio". I already know pretty well how to edit down my pictures and I've got a good idea of what I want to put in my portfolio, so meh. Instead I should probably use the day to work on pictures at home.. and stop surfing the internet..

Yes... this is very true. I'm trying to not be a stresser on him, but it's kinda hard when people keep throwing shit at me, though at least my life ain't so bad. I mean, worse shit could be happening right now.

Ah, this maketh sense! I'm sure Yooyoo has an explanation.. wherever he may be. We talked a lot and I know he cared a lot for Erik, so I know he didn't just decide to poof outta nowhere... I miss him though :( He was my buddy.

Yeah xD That makes sense. Don't ditch too much D:<

Ugh... I feel like I'm in an art funk. It's like... I'm getting better, but I don't ever feel it's good enough... like I just haven't found my muse or something. I go through the art motions, sure... but I just don't feel it.

I didn't really talk to him very much, but he seemed like a great guy. There must be some reason for his disappearance.

I do ditch a lot actually, but attendance isn't compulsory and I'm attending more than I used to. It's just that especially now that I live further away from uni, it's like £4 to get there (and another £4 to get back), and if I don't have anything else I need to do there other than a really short lecture I feel isn't really that important, I'd rather spend that money on food and rent. :P

Every artist goes through that though, don't worry. I feel like that a lot of the time too. Main thing is just to continue without pushing yourself too hard. For some people it's good to make art just for the sake of making art until they come up with something, for some you just have to focus on something else for a little while until inspiration hits. I'm the latter kind, though it's difficult to explain to my tutors sometimes..

I was going to work on making that website yesterday, but my internet blacked out for the bulk of the day.. then I decided to stay at my partner's place for today since his connection is a lot more reliable, and I finally managed to sign up without getting error messages.. and then they have to review my payment, or something, and I have no idea when I'll hear back from them. Gaaahhh. Dx

I like... rarely ever ditch. Sometimes I really want to... since I get so annoyed when they try to force creativity out of me. I have pretty understanding teachers though, so they normally leave me be when I explain myself.

I'm going to try and work on people and faces and variations with people in my drawings and whatnot. I really love drawing people... I mainly gotta work on legs o.o Some reason I got issues there... At least when I put pants on them xD

I seem to be getting my mojo back a bit though, which is good!

I wish you luck on the website! They can be such pains sometimes.

Thing is the only times we need to show up are for random bits that are usually pretty important and I do show up for them, and then there are weekly lectures from visiting artists, which can be helpful, and can be a complete waste of time (especially when we get an artist that works in a completely different way from how I work). So usually the only things I skip is those lectures when I really really really don't feel like going. I try to go as much as I can though.

Ugh just worked 7 hours at the bar. I am really quite frustrated at the managers as well, especially since I considered myself quite friendly with them, living in the same building and everything.. they offered me some part time shifts about three or four weeks ago, which I was of course really happy with, but then two weeks ago they told me that they'd been losing a bit of money so they couldn't afford to keep me and they'd let me know if they needed help.
Tonight they did as they couldn't get anyone else to cover for this girl who couldn't make it, so of course I was happy to get some extra cash. Except it turns out one of the girls working there just started working about a week ago, part time. Which made me go wait, wtf?? Why did they tell me they couldn't afford me if they can afford her? :/ I dunno, I should probably confront them about it, but I'd rather confront the guy who manages that pub (there are two) since I don't know him as well as the other guys, and he's on vacation for a couple of weeks. So I'll probably do it when he gets back.

Anyway, speaking of vacation, I should really go to bed as it's 2am and I have a flight tomorrow at noon, going to Croatia with my man for a week! ^_______________^
(Which also means probably not a lot/no internet time, so I'll talk to you again in a week! Hope you have a good one! *squishes*)

Well, that makes more sense then! So long as you aren't penalized for it >3

You should definitely confront them on it and I don't blame you if you are peeved o.o I know I'd be ticked off in that situation. It's like when I was attempting to get a job at this car place and they told me "Oh... we're not hiring" then a week later we drive by their store and there is STILL a HELP WANTED sign in their window. I wanted to go in and punch them in the face. If ya don't want me or if I'm not qualified then FUCKIN' SAY SO. =.=

I wish I had some kinda job T___T soooo needed.

Oh, awesome! :D Have fun! Bring me back something ;D

I'm back! First thing I see when I go back to the pub too (I needed to ask for an extra key as my flatmate forgot to leave my keys where I could get to them e__e ) is another new girl. It's the other pub they have, but still. Wtf? I'll ask the manager about it, but I didn't want to confront him just after he went through quite a bit of trouble trying to find the key for me.. :/

Croatia was great anyway! So beautiful, and we got some great weather too. The people there are super friendly and helpful.. we stayed two nights with Al's uncle and his family and they were amazing - and they gave us so. much. food. :| Just thinking about it makes me feel bloated, haha. But there's a Croatian aperitif called Rakija, plum brandy, and it is so nice when you've eaten too much, burns everything away and leaves you feeling so much better. So thankful for that! Plus, we got the homemade stuff, which is so much nice than the bottles you buy in the store. They even gave us a bottle of it to take home, plus homemade blackberry wine, which was really tasty, but deceptively strong too.

Now I've got so much stuff to catch up on, it's really overwhelming. D: How was your week?

Sounds like you had a blast! Yeah, make sure to talk to him o.o that's not cool!


Uuuuuh.... Usual boy drama? I guess. I'm trying to get my shit together, but it's all nice and complicated. @[email protected]; I'm also trying to find my artistic mojo... Just haven't been feeling it.

Boo, I hope your boy drama stops being complicated. Art mojos can be difficult like that, especially when you need them. I would say don't try too hard, if you need then take a break from worrying about it and just look at lots of other people's art, either online or by going to exhibitions and museums. That usually helps me.. that, and hanging out with artistically minded people, making stuff together. Of course, I bet boy drama isn't helping with that either.. when I get stressed - well, more stressed than usual as I have constant anxiety issues, I usually can't make art for shit until I've gotten through it.

Damn, I hope so too! Freakin' boy drama is aannooooooyyyiiiing.

Yeah, I've been looking at other people's pieces... but sometimes it brings me down cause I'm like "Damn, I can't do that" or something. Mainly because I lack the patience to do some stuff other people are doing. If I don't get everything done RIGHT THEN then I tend to lose interest in the piece.

Luckily Imma just be doing commissions... well, until tomorrow. Commissions I don't normally need mojo for.

Hehe, I know the feeling of "I wish I could do that!" :P But I've learned to accept it, pretty much. It took me a pretty long time but recently I've learned that hey, it would be cool to be able to do that, but (especially if it's something I don't actually practice regularly, like making clothes or painting) I would need to invest a lot of time in it to get to that level, so it makes much more sense just to sit back, enjoy the fact other people can do it, and focus on what interests me most, and just get really really good at that. Even with photography, when it's photography that is not really my main thing, like fashion or just different styles.. I just need to stop worrying about not being able to do everything perfectly right now and focus on my thing.
But yeah, I know it's pretty difficult to stop thinking like that, and it is annoying.

Also, I talked to the manager of the pub downstairs yesterda and asked him why I had stopped getting shifts. He's not actually managing the other pub (the guy who does is off on a three week vacation), so he said he didn't know, but immediately offered me shifts, one tonight which I just finished and one on Saturday.. and I just looked at the rota and I've got two more shifts next week! :D
So tired now, we didn't close till an hour and a half after we were supposed to - if people are still there we usually keep it open a bit longer, and hey, it's extra money as well so I'm not complaining. :) Plus, I got two free drinks after the shift, hah.. one bottle of cider because I accidentally opened the wrong kind, and one Jack Daniels & Coke which I traded for a cigarette. :P It was really nice though, so I'm happy. And I've got busy busy days ahead, so plenty to do, which is always good, if a bit tiring. ^^

Yeah, that's what I keep trying to remind myself of... I mean, some of those people end up envying my work, so it's just different shit and whatnot. I try to analyze it and go "What is it about this piece that I enjoy so much that I wish I could do it?". The latest reason was because I'm obsessed with high contrast, yet I don't tend to do it XD Imma try and get myself to though. I try to not get too jealous though... since it's just still life >.> and I'm not hip on still life.

Awesome! :D See what happens when you just ask? :3 Now you got some shifts! xD I wish I had some shifts D; I needta work harder on getting a joooob. Baaah.

Hopefully forcing myself to do art will make me work on shit... or get my mojo back. I'd really like my mojo back.

Hehe yeah, what annoys me most when I love other people's work is when it is in a style completely different from my own, so I feel like I can't really take anything from it to help develop my work, like the high contrast.. there's a bunch of stuff for example I like to include in my scrapbook as inspiration, but I can't say how it inspires my work at all.

Good luck with finding a job, I'm sure you'll find one soon.. and your mojo too! :hug:

I just way overslept, cause I was finishing those drinks till like.. 3am or something last night. Now I'm wondering if I should tidy up my room or if I've already spent that time sleeping and should just get straight to work.. probably the latter. >.o

Yeeeah... Sometimes I do attempt the style, though, since I don't like sticking to one style forever. I get really bored if I just do the same things over and over again.

Crap, that reminds me that I haven't done shit for my web comic this week... Fuck >.>;


Thanks! I really do hope I get one soon. @[email protected]; And get my mojo! Though saying I lost my mojo is pissing off some of my friends, since I do keep drawing and making shit in hopes it'll come back and they see it and are all "If I could make THAT without mojo, then I'd be happy" >.>; I am not D: it feels so bleh!


Do what chu gotta do xD I'm working on notes for my class atm. It's kinda interesting... xD

I hardly draw at all anymore.. I dunno why, just haven't felt like it, or not had time for it more like. Me and my friends made two awesome paintings last night though, I'll have to post a picture of them later.. going to get a picture of them tomorrow so I can use the daylight rather than flash, was working all day. Never again will I wear my Converse to work.. seven hours of standing around in those shoes just about killed my feet. e_____e

I loooove drawing too much to just not do it. Oi.

UGGGGGGH >.< I was selling at a con this weekend and god damn I got some rude ass customers... so annoying! Thanks to them, I couldn't finish THREE ORDERS. Two I'm giving to the customers today and one I had to flat out cancel, which made me feel terrible because she was so shy and took forever to order so it was like she NEEDED that plushie >: So sad.

Luckily, though, I made $101 8D So, that's always good. Imma be making more soon too, because people love my plushies so much they wanna order more xD

Oh, awesome, great job! :D What were the rude idiots doing anyway?

I went to visit a good friend of my boyfriend's last night, we ended up staying up till morning (we got home around six) and then I really didn't get enough sleep.. just couldn't fall asleep at again. Feeling very hungover today. @[email protected] But thankfully my boyfriend is awesome and made me breakfast and then we've just been watching Lost all day. :B

They came up and ordered two plushies and expected it done in half an hour... when they saw I was already working on plushies and had receipts RIGHT NEXT TO ME, so that's totally a no go. They kept coming by and rushing and rushing and rushing and I don't do good being rushed. In fact, the more you rush me the less likely your thing will come out nice. It was just so fuckin' annoying.

Aaaaw! Good that you have such a nice boyfriend. :P Gimme one lmao xD

Good god.

It's... been a while.

People need to realise you can't rush art. *sighs* ...well, maybe if you are a tutor rushing your students. Apparently that's fine.

You'll have to find your own, you're not having mine! C:

Hey Erik! How are you? *hugs*

By the way, my very own website is finally up! :D Have a look!

Yeah... you really just can't! T____T... which is why they didn't get my best work >:C

Ugh... it's so hard doing junk with a head cold... I've been practicing with my tablet though! :3

http://a3.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphot..._6858002_n.jpg

I rather like how she came out.

omgggg... What do you do to get that slideshow effect? I totally want that on my site >.>

Your site is le awesome though :3 w00tness.

Yo, Erik! Long time no seeee.

i;ve never seen this thread before.....why haven't I seen it?

Because it kinda... died xD so it disappeared. lol.

but, hopefully, it shall be brought back now >D MWAHAHAAHAHHAA.

I'll help bring it back, I love how diamond is nin the dog house here. c: I love that girl v.much

lmao Yeah xD She's pretty epic when she comes in and talks!

Too bad the first post can never be edited @[email protected] Yooyoo (Gutter Glitter) kinda disappeared on us a year ago, another reason this thread is on and off dead.

And awesome to more people making it alive >3

I needta come up with more comics or ideas or something...

EDIT:
PATTY! You should join this forum: http://www.dearsweetaru.net/SweetlyA...p?action=forum

8D Me and Erik are on it! I made it just for artists so they can get critiques and feedback and whatnot :3 and talks.