-pulls steves hair-

:ninja:

hi!

hey ani! And how are you today?? :)

I'm getting ready to totally slap something or punch something as I'm really starting to think he's not even coming home this June! Why hasn't he contacted me!!!!!! :gonk: T-T

*pokes head in*

hello?

Heeey Swansie! (And I missed you again as I'm not allowed on at nights anymore! Darn!)
I'm really lovin' your new avi look! ^o^

Hopeh send him abuse! It's your right to know when your going to see your own bladdi fiance. How hard is it to send you a quick text with nothing more than a date?!

Unless he's been told he isn't getting leave yet and he feels bad and doesn't wanna tell you cause you'll be BEYOND gutted? =/

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Oh and sorry i missed ya Swanz! I was up but it was my deadline for some assignments today so i was doing them all night :gonk:

I agree with Lavi on this one hope. I realize that its not always the easiest for them to get to communicate, but you'd think in all this time he'd at least get the chance to shoot you a line saying whats up. Also, HI! It says you're online right now so maybe I've actually caught you this time!

Sorry Swanz, i was probably JUST leaving when you posted that, I was so tired xD

But i hope all is ok! Including hope herself :lol:

Lavi:
Oh, I did finally manage to get it out of him. But eh. Not totally. Apparently he's having to buy his own bloody ticket home, and they can't fly him home (why not?!?!) and because he had to buy a car once he got there, it's been postponed! :gonk: I mean I can understand the need for a car. but STILL! :headdesk: So looks like it will be closer to the beginning of July before he's here.

Swansie:
Oh, it's been total rubbish trying to get him on the phone, and the one time that he had time time to call he called my cell and it was dead! :headdesk: and he hasn't gotten a chance to call me back. And I was half on last night, but then the net that I was on - I'm puppy sitting currently - decided to crap out on me and decide to hate me, so I went back to watching and oogling over Matthew Gray Gubbler (Dr. Spencer Reid from Criminal Minds).

wow, thats stupid that army isn't PAYING for his leave...surely that shud be law? =/

He'd been there for what, 6 months and more and he had to buy his own ticket home? :gonk:

Sillyness! But at least he's still coming i guess hun. Just a shame its delayed abit again!

Other than that though are you alright today??

Well, at least that's how he made it sound. I really don't know anything anymore.... -sigh-
I've given up trying to understand. just doing all I can do keep myself distracted, and not cry myself to sleep every night.
I spend the night last night with my friend's puppies (I'm still here) and I cuddled with them, even though they were squirmy little guys. Lol.

But other than being frustrated and upset, I'm doing ok. Just want him home now. So sick and tired of being apart from him. Is this really the life that I want for myself? Starting to doubt myself.

How're you doing today?

((Sorry that this post is so late, my net has been acting up again and I've been totally distracted by The Count of Monte Cristo that I'm watching on TV.

Aw hun, you're just having a rough time. It won't always be like this.

Love beats everything eventually i guess. It will be worth the waiting in the end, even if it is shite.

I've doubted it myself too with the distance, and i haven't ever had to wait as long as you :shock:
I often doubt how i'll cope when jim joins up too.

Just make him realise when you DO get time with him that he understands how hard it is for you. He has to understand.

-huggle-

I hate the distance! Haaaate it! With a passion!

Darn! The movie that I was watching is over and it's only 9 am. :headdesk: Got another 8 hours to figure out what to do till I head home. Great... time to surf the channels to see what else is on.

The distance just makes it even harder. And plus I know that his ex, who he was with for that bit of time that we were apart a few years ago, who lives down in SoCali is determined to sink her claws into him. I just loathe her! Absolutely loathe her! Expecially since because she was down there, he saw her a few times, as only friends, but still! :headdesk: Doesn't help with my insecurities, even though he swore to me that nothing happened at all.

He says he does understand, and that he misses me terrible and he feels sorry for making me wait, but -sigh- It doesn't really help, ya know? I just want him home today! I'm on the verge of posting him the 200 dollars I made this week if it means him coming home sooner.

Poor hopeh. It must really suck! But whenever it is he's coming home, it IS soon. And you'll enjoy every minute and take advantage of every second.

So keep smiling eh. It won't be long now, and make sure you've still got a smile on your face when he gets here!

Sorry to hear about your difficullties Hope. Hopefully he can get the money sooner then expected.
Makes my problems sound much lesser.
Publics in 4 days. Yay
First ones English that's nothing.
Then Math... Maths gonna frak me over I bet. Then a few more days off before History and Bio.

Unless I go camping after school I should be back on regularly after the 22nd.

Lavi
Oh, it is totally sucky! I mean I do trust him. I just don't trust her... at all!! I'm glad that he's away from SoCali for now! Even though I hate the distance, I'm so glad that he's that much farther from her. :XD
Yeah, just don't know how much it's going to overlap with my child sitting job. Hopefully not too much. We'll see.

Oh, I definately will be smiling when I see him again. No doubt about that at all.

Steve
Good luck with your exams (is it exams you need to take?)
I really dislike Maths as well! My brother is the math genius of the two of us. I'm better with English/Lit myself and working with my hands.

Anyways, half here, still having fights with my net.

Heh hope. Im the same with the maths/english.

Im suprised i even passed maths at all, and my finance module on this course almost fraked me over. Numbers scare me! D=

But yeah, I've always been better with the writing, and coursework was always my preferred. Thats sorta why i picked this course. Theres ALOT of coursework, but at least i know i can pass em, exams never go well for me :shock:

And i hope your babysitting doesn't overlap either!

Sorry i keep dissapearing too, i had an awful migraine earlier :shock:

Lavi:
Yeah, I also don't like it because I've had bad experiences with teachers (math teachers) in HS. xD One accused me of cheating. :gonk: I wasn't of course! :XD

And no worries about disappearing.
I'm prone to doing the same every now and then.

Today is going to be a day of trying to keep myself from over thinking things.
Plus I'm half asleep. -yawn-
I only woke up a bit ago.
Everyone else is gone, I'm all home alone.
Watching movies to just have some noise in the background.
Hopefully it helps.

I've been trying to write lately and nothing I write seems good. T-T Makes me sad.

Herro? Anyone about?

Sorry I missed ya again Swansie. =[ I miss talkin' to ya!

Hope things are going well for ya.

It's ok. I miss you too! Sorry things have been so stressful for you lately Hopeh :-( I really hope they get better. Things are going well for me actually. Stil chaotic, but well over all.

Oh and Hope, Lavina, Both of you, loving the new looks :-) Totally rockin

Swansie, oh, that's good to hear that things are going well for you. That's great to hear. ^o^ -huggles-

And thanks, things are slowly looking up. At least today seems to be an up day for me. Thankfully. <3

Still don't have a definitive as to when he'll be home, but I'm keeping myself as busy as I can. I'm heading out in a few hours to spend the afternoon out with friends.

And thank you! ^o^ Decided to go for something more simple than I usually go for. ^o^

Heyy, it says you two are both online, i hope i don't miss you it's been ages! :gonk:

I'm here! HI!!!!!