Because I don't want to move to portland. :?

His reasoning is "I don't want to lose you."

Well that's all well and good and all, but...:? You're only asking me now because you are losing me. Not because you actually want to marry me.

Ya know?
Aside from that, I'm 18 and haven't done shit with my life.

yea - sketch! i wouldn't do it just for that reason. i want someone to marry me because they can't live without me and because they love me. not because they are using me.

trust me, you have plenty of time to do something with yourself! :heart:

ok- really going now! enjoy your nap!

MOVE TO PHILLY MAU!!~
and stalker are no fun! D:
when i was on gaia i had one who lived in canada. (or at least thats what he said)
but i wouldnt wanna get married so early in my life. i would say no. but thats just my opinion.

perfect mess, i will one day.. i'm still in school right now! i don't want the hassle of trying to transfer credits and then some of them not transferring.

Oh. My. God.

When we were dating he didn't talk to me this much.
But now he's up in my face all the time.
I can't go on the computer and him not be there. .__.

don't feel badly. my ex-boyfriend did the exact same thing. he was training to be a corrections officer so he had no time for me what-so-ever. i said well it shouldn't be that big of a deal to call me for at least five minutes before you go to bed. he never did. he never came over. nothing. so i told him, "maybe it's better if we were just friends." that's when he all of a sudden had time for me.

boys are stupid. note the emphasis on boys.

Look don't say shitty things about him because you really don't know him that well. :(
I still love and care about him and I understand what he's going through, but if I want to be an adult I have to act like one.

I know he's not perfect but I still really care about him.

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Why are you not on msn woman I wanna tell you stuff!!!

it wasn't meant to be shitty. it was meant to make you feel better, though it was a little low. you can't deny that they are stupid at times.
acting like an adult is a good thing lady. :heart:
and no one is perfect. you have to take the good with the bad.

i'm not on msn because i'm at work. @[email protected];

I know, but I'm faaar from where I want to be emotionally and...motivationally? Idk what to call it. for when I want to get married.

Does that make any sense?

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Also boooo work.

yea that makes sense! ><
you're just not ready that's it. he can't be mad at you for that. you know!?

He's not mad at me, but he's really really sad. :(

I feel bad about it.

don't feel badly abbi! ><
you can't go around in life concerned with other peoples feelings.. not when your life and happiness is concerned.
you gotta do what will make you happy and keep you sane. :heart:

Yeah, I try to, but sometimes you just feel BAD, you know?

yea it does suck, especially when it involves someone you genuinely care about.

mhm, and now he's avoiding me while he "digests" this. >___<"
/sigh

Oh well, what can you do?
Maybe I'll go clean out the tub and take a bath...

:(

watching IDEK on youtube may help, those boys are sooo funny. especially destrey! :heart:

And now he's back to talking to me because he can't bare not being around me.

And he's trying to make plans for me to move to portland.

Also, I need a new apartment, sooner rather than later but I don't have the money. TITS AND ASS. DAMNIT.

d'awww... well get your butt walking! :heart:
get a paper. :P

Huh? What do you mean?

Also am I a slut for sleeping in Andy's bed just after Jeff and I broke up?
We didn't fuck but we cuddled?
T_T

i mean get your butt walking around to places so you can pick up a paper or talk to people.

and no it doesn't make you a slut. you needed cuddling.

Yeah but even then I can't afford most places around here.
Waaargh!

/flail

Oh well, I have a month to figure this shit out.
I've started taking down numbers to apartments nearby. Gonna start calling people this week.
Asking how much, when do you want someone to move in. Do I need to pay utilities?
How much do I have to put down?
Can I come see the apartment, ect?

i sowwies. places are fucking expensive! D:
what is your budget?

and yea those are great questions that you should ask! <3

here watchTHIS shit!

350 I think is the most I can spend a month on an apartment and utilities. :(

It's not much so I really do need a roommate. >__<

yea - that sucks. D:
i'm sure you can find something! :heart:
keep a positive disposition even though it may seem hopeless at times!

I'm tryin' too!!! :)

/nomz on