I was born and raised in the big city, so I'm used to it. But I'm also used to the quieter side of things.
Not to say that the city doesn't scare me once in a while... crazy people out there.
I've had horrible wine before... and for a long time I thought all wine was that terrible.

Okay, okay. >.<

Just blew up and vented at the other teachers here. One of them commented that it sounds like I have burned out. Great.

Roza; Eh, I've never lived in a large city other than Venice. The noise now just kills me.
I suppose we all start off with the cheap drug store bottles. We just have to look past it!

Maiden; Good lord, girl. Do you think you've burned out? And if I may ask, what caused the explosion?

I'm much more used the quiet now. The constant honking of cars or the ambulance passing by what seemed like every ten minutes, is kind of annoying.
I suppose. I've just made sure I get good wine now.

Just thinking about conversation classes. I'm actually an introvert. I'm shy. I'm super nice. I have a soft voice. I like to make people happy. I hate causing conflict or distress. Yet I'm being asked to teach English to students who don't speak it without any orientation or textbooks or guidelines or curriculum or goals. I go to class and face students who don't want to be there, are speaking in Korean and ignoring me, won't do as I say, don't understand enough English to do anything no matter what it is, and don't care about the class since I can't give them a grade. I dread each class. I can't think of what to even attempt to teach in them. I got my degree in history, not teaching conversation. My skills are not in that area. I have no discipline skills and controlling the class is difficult at best.

I don't think I have burned out yet. I have burned out once before in college and know what that is like. I'm not quite there yet, but it is a strong possibility. I just want to go to a continent with like 5 people on it and continue my education in history without all the problems that come with uncontrollable students. I just graduated a year ago. I'm too young for this!

Roza; Seems when I go to town nowadays there's a constant alarm of some sort going off, no matter where! It's like they wait for me and blare as loud as they can!
Very good. Leave the bad stuff for the people who don't care.

Maiden; that sounds like a literal definition of Hell. I'd have exploded at the others too, especially if they don't really see why you're acting the way you are. I mean, you ought to tell your superior or whoever put you in a language class to begin with that it's ridiculous, which it is! You're meant to study and teach History, not English to a bunch of kids who don't even care.

You're damn right you're too young for that. If I were there I'd have done something! I'm usually passive but not when someone I see as a friend seems to just be stuck in a hellish situation.

It is horrible. I don't understand why they gave the English teachers most of the history classes and me all these conversation classes. I only have one history class (and it is my favorite) but can't do anything about it. Koreans are different. Every time we ask or suggest something (which we only do when we are desperate) they seem to get some sort of glee out of saying no. Before this year, I was told we figured out who taught which classes. For some reason though, this year a Korean administrator who doesn't even know us went and assigned us classes. Evidently they didn't look at my resume or at transcripts because it clearly says on there history.

I don't mind teaching the literature classes. It is basic and there are textbooks. Some of the skills from history apply there as well. But the conversation classes are students who don't really know English and they said teach without telling me what to teach. I had been thinking about staying here past two years, but now am reconsidering. I just have one year, 2 months, and I am free. I'll be back in the States so fast you won't have time to blink...

and I have to go to class.... be back in a few hours.

I think that's how most big cities or towns work. :c
Constant noise everywhere!
There used to be a train that passed by here every other week, but it's been over four years now that I haven't heard or seen come by. I sort of miss it, probably the only 'noise' that I miss in general.
I could do without the random gun shooting or car crashes though.

I honestly don't know how some people can drink bad tasting wine. o. o

Maiden; I hate people like that. I mean, really, people in general with a few exceptions, and it's this kind of person or people that just makes me want to make use of my friend's forensic tutoring. And if I were in your position I'd have knocked those idiot kids over the head already, so you have more patience than I do with stupid people.

Isn't there another school you can go to in need of a good history teacher? Something better than that... place?

Roza; Oh, I love the noise of a distant train. I've got the sound on loop, actually. I agree, one of the few sounds that's fine. That and rain or a thunderstorm.... Or coyotes howling in the faraway woods... Sounds so sad.
I'm glad I'm away from the gunshots and screeching tires and screaming fools of that slum-like neighborhood... Guh....

True, true there. Maybe they plug their nose...

We don't get coyotes around here. owo I love the sound of rain. When I feel like listening to rain I'll go to rainymood and just have it on all day. Quite peaceful and helps concentrate when I want to read a good book.
I wish I could move away from all this. I think, two nights ago, I heard gun shots. But I could be mistaken for something else that sounds like a gun going off. Haha.

Plugging my nose never worked for me. :c
Usually made things worse. o wo

Coyotes are in abundance here. Luckily they don't bother humans or domesticated animals. I suppose they haven't formed packs or groups.
I don't go to Rainymood. I have an app on my Kindle that has... Oh, ninety or so sounds. From a ride in the car to a cat purring and various water sounds.
Usually if it's not a gun it's a slamming door or car backfiring. Most of the time for me it was a gun, mainly target practice on small animals or windows or cans to, every now and then, a human.

Makes it nearly impossible to swallow whatever you have. That's how it was with medicine for me. Mainly Nyquil. Oh, God, it tastes like black licorice and I hate it with the passion of a million blue giant stars with the surface temperature of approximately or over 25,000 K whose mass is sixty times greater than the sun!

Ahem....

Oh I see. Well hopefully the keep staying away from human and domesticated animals.
It would be bad if they decided to start hunting people and pets. o wo
I don't have a kindle, and my ipod isn't a fancy one that has apps. Haha.
I'm hoping that what ever sound I heard that night, was not another gunshot. This -city- is always on the news for something bad. If I had known it was this bad, I'd have opted out in moving out here.

o. o
I can agree with you there, Nyquil is horrible. Blegh.
And interesting little tidbit there about the million blue giant stars. owo

Indeed. Especially me, because I'm alone out here! That's why I keep Lulu inside her invisible fence perimeter unless I'm around with her. They do tend to stay away from the town, though. Only rarely will one wander down the road.
Eh. I finally bought it after a couple months of convincing myself that it'd save room when I'm buying books. And it does. And now I have a place to keep my music.
When I lived in Alton (which was never really on the news), I've only heard bad things about it. A lot of... bad things, honestly, but the place had its good aspects too!

Hey, I have a few good bits of random information up my sleeve. I like celestial information.

Oh yeah. I'd hate to live out there alone with coyotes roaming around. owo
That's good, no need to get Lulu hurt or eaten for that matter. Dx So sad.
Well at least it was worth it and it worked out for you, so that's good.
I think any place has it's good and bad things to it. The only thing I like about this place is the fact that I managed to make a few good friends.

Yup yup, you've mentioned it before. :3
I like it. ^^

You get used to it after a while. They don't hold the evils of humanity, so they only act on their instinct.
Absolutely, no need at all. She usually barks at things larger than a rabbit, so I'd know if there were something dangerous around.
Oh yes, it worked out. Hopefully they won't come out with a new version soon, because I'll be more than pissed!
Friends can make everything better. Even a crappy place to live.

Oh!? I love your avatar! We're like siblings! Erh, by the way, what is that background? I can't find it!

Ah okay. o .o I'd still be cautious, just in case. But that's just how I am. >.<
Well she's alert, and that's always a good thing. Can't be too friendly with everything or everyone.
But that usually happens. Well.. at least with phones. Especially the iPhone... I think the day I buy an iPhone is when they stop upgrading it. Which will probably be never.
I completely agree. I love my three friends. Out of the many I had in high school, only they stayed by me.

Thank you!
Yes yes, I agree. ^^ Older brother and his younger sister. I don't know how many times I've created this avatar and each time it looks different.
The background would the Dryad's Hollow. :3
You're more than welcome to borrow it. ^^

Oh, I'm always cautious. Once I had to walk home with a sprained ankle with no wallet or phone, and my car was in the shop at the time. The stars just aligned that day.
No, not with everyone. She doesn't like strangers if they just come right up to the house. Oh, lord, she just ate a bug. *sigh* dogs.
I'm pretty sure they'll never ever stop upgrading that... thing. That's why I'll never buy it! Hopefully Fire will be regular Fire for a while until they figure out how to make it record videos.
That's how you can tell who your real friends are.

I love the image we'd be able to put. Ah, if only we could! I usually keep this particular avatar static unless I find a good background or add to put on, just a little detail here or there.
Oh no, I won't ask. I just couldn't figure out what it was called. I'm staying away from items for a while, grabbing art from good artists while I have the money.

Oh gosh. Glad you got home safely, though. :3
She ate a bug? Hahaha! I think most dogs like the taste of bugs. owo
When Tobi was still with us, he would go after dragonflies all the time. Unfortunate for some of the dragonflies who didn't fly away in time.
Yeah... I was never a fan of that phone. Ever. It never interested me. And the constant upgrades are so annoying.
Oh that would be nice, if it could record videos.
Yup! I learned real quick after graduation.

That would be really awesome. ^^
Oh I wouldn't mind at all. ~ You are more than welcome to use it any time you want if you don't want to buy it. :3

There might be a better place. I am there is. But I am bound by contract to stay here. I just don't have it in me to take control. I have a job while so many others in my graduating class do not. They were not able to finding teaching jobs, historian jobs, or whatever degree they got. I am able to pay my college loans and for that I am super grateful. I just wish that I was in a situation that was good for emotional health.

Roza; Oh I got home safely. Eventually. It took a lot more than an hour to get there, though.
Yes, she tends to do that. I think her favorite bugs are those hideous water beetles that come inside and flip themselves over like idiots. Heh, poor dragonflies. Lulu snaps at butterflies sometimes, but isn't fast enough to get them.
No! Don't you even say that! I don't want any of their... spies to see that and think 'Oh, let's make another with a camera next!' No! Not this time!
So did I. I think we're all awakened a bit after graduation (even if it's only high school graduation for some)

No, I don't want it. Not that much, really. I can wait, and if one comes to the Marketplace, I'll consider it. Though the decision might result in a negative.

Maiden; Eh, I suppose. Around this time you can't really be that picky, even if it's a crappy job or situation you're in.
Maybe I should write a drabble about a horrible situation one can't get out of. It might cheer you up or let you relate to a situation that's not possible. Since, you know, I write a lot of... interesting things. I'd offer to write a bit of a happier one, but for some reason, I'm just not in that mood tonight.

I wouldn't mind reading a story about a character that had a sucky life... but the people around her kept having issues such as the heel of a shoe breaking or a door opening in someone's face. She finds those small things to laugh at that keeps her going while everyone is making her life hard. Then at the end of the story, they realize her worth right as she gets a better job. They beg her to stay, but she is able to point out how she finds that hard to believe. Wahahahaha.

That's a combination of very true reality and hilarity.
I like it.
I might even write something like that just for you.
But for now... I don't think I can. I'll try tomorrow, definitely.
It's something that should certainly be written, though it's most likely already been done before.

It might have been done before, but not with your views on life. I would love to read such if you get the time to write it. I have ideas but writing them doesn't seem to always work, especially when stressed. Now you now why my posts in our RP have gotten so short. It happens when stressed.

Heh, my views on life are... far from positive. Sometimes I worry myself when I go back to read the things I've written while under the influence of anger, such as the blog post I put up today.
But I can understand that. Really there's no need to worry about posting when you're stressed.

I like to post though, it is my way of getting away. I also worry about what I have written when I am unhappy. Yet it is how I felt at that time.