I'm tired of all of the Finding Nemo jokes... and acting like that is what my username is referencing. That isn't what my username is all about. D: *sighs* Nemo was my horse years ago. And my username is my tribute to him.

I'm just tired of people feeling like they know me, then never listen, and then act like I need to be happy, to just shut up and take it and not complain about it. I can only take so much and I'm to the point where I just feel like curling up into a ball, crying, and screaming and kicking and throwing a massive tantrum of epic proportions... That I just need to take it because that's what I'm meant to do... and ugh, I'm just sick of it.

I just feel that when people tell me "you're only as happy as you let yourself be" they're telling me to shut up, that they don't want to listen... and honestly, that's all I need... is for someone to listen, and I honestly don't have anyone who's really willing to listen without brushing me off without making me feel like I'm just a stupid burden who's not worth their time... >.<

first off, i didn't mean to offend, but i honest to god say 'just keep swimming' to damn near everyone i know. i think it's a great piece of advice. it means to keep moving forward. more people than you know need to hear that sometimes.

second, throw your epic tantrum and who cares what anyone else thinks. maybe you'll feel better

I know you didn't. I just get a lot of people acting like my Nemo is relating to the Fish... and it's not. And I've kinda gotten to the point, especially with my stupid mood, that it just bothers me. Blah, I'll go now. Because all I seem to do these days on Mene is offend people... >.< And I feel like people feel like I'm not worth time... and whatnot. That's just what I get.. So I'll leave.

you didn't offend me at all. you are free to feel however you please. i love it here in menewsha and i enjoy chatting to various people about all sorts of things. it's natural not to be happy all the time, but like i said, it's how you deal with it that makes all the difference.
anyways, hope your night gets better with sleep. ta ta!

It's not you, per say, just other people... because of how upset my mood has been for the past few months... I feel like people just dismiss me, and it reminds me of how few friends I truly have.. which just throws my mood into even more of a stupid downward spiral... :(

can i just lay it out straight for you? i am aware this might come across as offensive but i'm not sure how else to say it... most people don't like to be around people who dwell on sad things all the time or how miserable they are. it makes them feel sad too, mostly because they can't really do anything to help you feel better. in my line of work we call those people 'energy vampires' because they suck all the positive energy out of you lol. it's ok to talk about your problems if you're sad but if you don't show interest in them sometimes too they probably won't want to hear about how sucky your life is when you don't care about their sucky life as well. everyone needs someone to vent to. we all want to be listened to and we all want to be heard.

i understand that you're in a bad place right now, feeling pretty low and alone and you feel like you'll be sad forever... but you won't.

I DO show interest in them... I'm not as self centered as people seem to think of me... really?! Ugh... Sorry.. I Do not have ANYONE to talk to offline, I need people to talk to, well excuse me for trying to find people to talk to.... I am on the verge of just giving up... I can't do this anymore... I REALLY don't have a lot of friends offline, and apparently it seems online either. I'm sorry. I'll go now. Clearly people just don't really seem to care as much as I thought they did... I do try to show interest, but apparently... I can never do anything right.. D: T_T

I am tired of people acting like I'm a self centered person, I DO CARE about other people, I DO ask them and show interest in their issues... D:

i didn't say you were self centered at all. i said you were sad. it's great you want to talk about your feelings but i just wanted to sort of remind you about other people too. when you said that you felt like people didn't want to listen to you, that was the reason why. i thought you should know.

if people try to cheer you up and it doesn't work they feel bad so they evade you

Well, thanks, and honestly I've been told that before, so I'm to the point where I am sick of it... sure I get it, but at the same time.. get to know me first.

I DO show interest in others.. I don't just talk about myself... AND maybe if someone TRULY listened, that's really what I want.. but I feel like people just freaking brush me off before they really get to know me. Start judging me, and acting like I'm out of line.. that's when things get worse, my mood spirals down and out of control and I just feel like I Do not get what people are talking about anymore about people being super welcoming on here.. because I don't see it.

i just spent two hours listening to your problems and trying to 'get to know you' and i'm not just 'brushing off' your problems.

Just based on past experiences - people act like they're listening, tell me that they're here, for me (of which I tell them the same - I am here for people if they do need to listen), then after a few days they stop messaging me and never talk to me again.

that's neither here nor there, it's in the past. it's time to let it go. i'd like to say just keep swimming, but instead i'll say, just keep moving forward. you can't change the past, so change your future.

and on that note, it's almost 2am here and i meant to go to bed hours ago perhaps we'll chat again soon. maybe we can find something pleasant to chatter on about to keep our minds off our problems for a while.
have a good evening.

Good morning! I guess i can' sleep in anymore... Darn school practice schedule! I kinda had a rough night, drank some milk before I went to bed and that was a terrible idea. This birth control pill they have me on isn't good for anything but make me really sick and angry.

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For Nemo- If it seems like i'm ignoring you or whatever, I'm not. I just get busy or forget. I'm really scatterbrained, and I don't mean to not respond. Hope you are feeling better today.

I know that llonka. No worries. And honestly, I'm not doing better this morning.

Aww man. I hope your day gets better then!

Given how the last few months have been, I doubt it, but thanks.

Hang in there, it's got to get better soon right?

*shrugs* I don't know. I tried to distract myself this week with my friend - I've not been home since Monday afternoon, but it didn't seem to work. I still feel sad and miserable. :(

Originally Posted by llonka

I sure am insane lately, I bet the people I flipped off earlier thought so.

Sure we have whatever you'd like, Shadami!

yay diet water!

people at resturants always look at me funny when i ask for it.

shadami, i like the colors of your avatar! you used some neat older items very well

Really?
Cause this is the best i could get. i really wanted to use the cherish skirt.

it's always refreshing to see the older items get dusted off

*Rolls around* I feel hungry but I dunno if I want to believe my tumtum or not.

i just ate some white rice and tuna fish... i'm good and full now!

That sounds... not so good. LOL! I bet it was, I just want nachos! Darn hubby denied me nacho goodness earlier. *sobs*