How many siblings do you have?

Re: Moonlight - Yeah, no, no, no, trauma is individual. Having to push yourself into recovery is universal. Otherwise... Well, living in denial and emotional bottling is something I can absolutely empathize with. Facets of said recovery can be absolutely different, but yeah. Reading over my post, I guess I did mistype in my haste to catch up with the thread itself. But yeah, no, it's more groups of people I've absolutely relied on going behind my back and deciding I wasn't good enough for them anymore and just a gradual loss of self image and esteem that broke me down (what's great is that it's still happening and hasn't exactly shown signs of stopping) I still believe that it's mostly my fault, but I can't admit that to myself, so I shift blame and it gets all messy and drives more people away. It's a bad catch-22. But, after each time, all I can do is press forward and know that it's not the end of all the good things that come from going out and finding friends and support either. I tried going lone wolf for a while and that was almost the end of me. But, ah. I hate talking about myself for a reason. It makes me feel like I'm belittling everyone else's problems.

If I don't stop now, I won't.

Iltu: She needs to stop pestering you to have kids. Lol.

I'm going to go for now - because I'm getting too worked up and I just had Daniel take my blood pressure and its higher than it normally is. :/ I may be back later but I'm not sure when that will be.

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Shattered: Yeah, your original post was not worded like that.

Sorry you have gone through all that but right now I can't be here because I'm afraid I'm going to snap accidently. That happens without warning. :/

I'm sorry.

Shattered- [hug] You've alluded to all that since we've known one another, and I'm sorry you got put through that whole mess. I know we're on different websites and social media and stuff these days, but even if we talk less, I'll always consider you one of my Cool Pals! I know hearing people say stuff like that... doesn't really fix self esteem issues or any trauma you've experienced or make recovery easier, but, still. You're rad. <3

Amane- I like to talk seriously about myself over the internet, because then people can't tell what a huge crybaby I am like they can if I try to be serious about myself in real life. (...But then I TELL everyone on the internet that I'm a huge crybaby... so...)

Moonlit- Sorry to hear that! See you later, hopefully. In the meantime, I hope you have a good evening!

Re: Iltu - Don't discount your support! Little reminders like that go a long way, especially when I'm really down. We were only really on tumblr at the same time and even then I don't communicate much on tumblr, so this is really the first time we've sat down and had an extended conversation and you're turning out to be a really rad bro too (no patricarchy)! Not that I'd expect Lath to have any non-rad friends so... enh

'No patriarchy' is possibly the best phrase I've ever heard and I wish I hadn't graduated so I could go to my uni's feminist club meetings and tell them that. I might just show up to tell them anyway.

Thank you for using the word 'rad' to describe me too, because that is one of my favorite words omg. :') AN HONOR! Tbh, I do love that we can have like. Actual convos on here beyond occasional fanmails and sending OC Ask Meme questions and being like "whoa... that's some quality gltas content they reblogged" that Tumblr lends its self to.

YOU ARE SPEAKIN' MY LANGUAGE!

Re: Iltu - Rad is my absolute favorite, honestly. I say Bro all the time too without meaning brother. Or dude. I call everyone dude if they're chill enough to handle it. If someone gets angry over that though and they're a peer of mine, I usually swing right around and use the most sarcastic "yes, ma'am/sir" because people who get angry over that kind of stuff really amuse me. Like, chill our dude, you're being totally un-rad right now.

I might have lied. The more I think about it "no patriarchy" might be my favorite spin on "no homo" yet. "No homo" is always a lie and where is the lie in "no patriarchy" cause I don't see one.

Dude. Rad. Chill. Sweet. Bro. All these words are my friends. Unrelated to that word group, but I also LOVE the word scamp. Lath is probably like "please chill on the word scamp lately" because I've been putting it into every other conversation I have. Also, bucko is a great word.

My favorite used to be "no romo, some homo," but I think "no patriarchy" muscled it out of the top spot. It's such a beautiful and versatile alternative to the unusually large turd that is 'no homo.' :')

Amane- Yesssss "no allo" is A+

For me, it's when I call people by a gender-neutral bro or dude and have to clarify that I'm not calling someone male/masculine because I'm using a traditionally male/masculine word based on brother because "sis/sister" doesn't have the same ring.

Word aesthetics have to be my favorite aesthetic right now.

Amane- [lol] Oh my gosh, that's a great example. I actually chuckled at that!

Shattered- I've had convos with people where we discuss how we LOVE the word 'bro' but then we're like "uuuugh masculine default, boo hiss" so that use of no patriarchy is excellent for that. They will be pleased to learn of this

Good morning everyone, and good news! I saw a snake in the woods, but Tucker, my big goofy dog, did not! So I got to see a neat wild animal but Tucker didn't try to eat or make friends with it. Excellent start to my mid-morning!

How about y'all? Having good days so far?

Charges across this thread on Clyde the wonder camel, knocking over on the magazines. 🐫🐫🐫🐫🐫

Iltu: Awesome! Does your dog usually go after snakes?
I'm doing ok-ish.

Cheshire: I can kind of see that being considered spam. :/ (Well not totally sure if the site would, but to me it immediately jumps out as spam.)

Sorry, it's meant as Humpday humor... Onward!!!! Camel rider's!!!!!

Yeah... I get it... Wednesday.... But still, you weren't making any attempt to try to join in the conversation and to me that's spam... Oh well...


UGH! D: My mood from last night hasn't fully gone. :( Blah.
I may have to disappear again and pray it goes away.
I wish someone was home so I could take a bath and have someone to help me get out when I'm done.
Baths usually make things better.