Well then such is life. Life isn't always how one wants it to go... it just happens to be how life really is. It isn't perfect. And RARELY goes according to plan.

Which is why you'll never cease to have the ones like me who cry and complain every step of the way and wait for a revolution we can't create ourselves, let alone describe.

Yeah - I guess I just see the complaining to be a bit too much at times. Why complain when you can try to do something different or change the circumstances to work with you, it may be hard but when is life ever easy...?

'Cause there's too much to sacrifice when you take a risk.

That is life. I guess I'm tired of peoplle who aren't willing to take their lives into their own hands and be willing to step out there and just GO for it. You'll need to grow up at some point and just take risks and LIVE but eh, it's your life. I just know how hard it can be to get out there and truly live instead of complaining about everything but life is SO much better when you start to actually just learn that it's ok to have things not go right and learn from those experiences!

But do whatever you want to do, it's your life, but as long as you're not willing to take risks - nothing will really ever happen. Life will be boring. It was when I learned to take risks that I truly learned to start living.

That's us, complaining in our safe-holes and hoping someone else knows how to make a difference.

Moonlit: Yeaaah, true. It just sucks, 'cause this isn't even a four year. I'm just trying to get an associate's, and I've been busting my butt off to get it in the two years. I can't afford to come back next year for a single class, and I'm moving next spring. BUT such is life! Things happen, and we just gotta deal with it best we can. Albeit with venting to get through the rough parts. And we've been together about seven months now! We started dating the first week or so of February, after months of courting around each other-- I was too oblivious to notice she liked me, and she was too tentative to say anything. :'D

Amane: Aww, it's unfortunate you have that outlook on life! I find that the more you believe you cannot do or accomplish something, the more true it becomes. Which isn't always the case, of course-- you get things like depression, that can just straight up road block your life and no amount of pure wishing and self believing will overcome it. But if you never take risks, you can never grow as a person. Sacrifice and loss are just facts of life.

Lathrine: Oh wow! :( Can you talk to someone higher up about how their canceling the class is only making it more difficult on students! So not cool! Good luck! Oh awesome! Sounds like me and my husband when we started dating, well before we started dating. I wasn't looking for love and he wasn't sure how to approach me.

And that's so true- if one is not willing to sacrifice anything in life they'll really get no where and grow, so true! SO SO SO true!

I seek not growth and exploration but bliss.

Moonlit: I wish I could, but the class was cancelled due to low enrollment. :( So all I can do is hope I get independent study for it, or try to change my major and finish a new program in a year. A week and a half before school starts so all of the classes are full ahahaa,,, At least I'm not the only one screwed over by it-- there are three other theatre majors trying to graduate this year, and we were all supposed to be in that class. And ahaha, awwww! That does sound similar! :'D The gf had just gotten out of a crummy relationship and wasn't really actively looking for (but not opposed to) another, and so I was nervous about saying anything to her (once I realized I did, in fact, have the biggest of crushes).

Amane: Alas, a life without growth or exploration is a pretty boring one. Not much bliss to be found there, but I wish you the best of luck!

Lathrine: You could at least contact someone to explain how the class being canceled, despite it being canceled because not enough people signed up for it - throws off your education plan. It may not help, but it would make them aware? Sounds stressful!! OH wow! So many similarities - I had gotten out of an abusive relationship, the one I mentioned previously, and was working on focusing on myself, not finding someone else when Dan stumbled into my life. :)

Moonlit: True! I hadn't thought about that. I'll wait a bit and see if I get a response from my teacher, and regardless I'll see about calling the head of department in a few days and expressing my concern. Aha~! Funny how that seems to happen. :'D Who woulda thought all that junk about just being yourself would end up true. Man, I'm so glad you got out of that relationship and found Daniel. Or, rather, that he found you!

I found some old chatlogs from my past. At this particular time, I used the word "awkward" a lot. I'd do the thing where people make pictures with text characters to decorate the word when I used it. I just now thought of this pun and was like, beautiful. I guess I went through an "awkward" phase. *gunhands*

Lathrine: Yeah, it could help others in the future, even if it can't help you. Sometimes I Don't think that the higher ups really realize that doing things like they're doing mess up their student's plans for their own education. I'd contact them sooner than later, than put it off too long.

Yeah, sometimes it pays to take risks... and put yourself out there. You never know how things will go. <3 I'm so glad that I got out if that relationship too. We've now been married for a year and a half, he has legally adopted Norah so she has a father, and we have our second little one due soon! :) I'd say things are going well. <3 Me and Danny at our Renewal Ceremony last November

In the beginning he was just the strange man who kept coming in on days I'd work, to get coffee every morning. He told me a bit after we started dating that he was trying to work up the courage to talk to me.

You know what feels good? Cutting bad experiences out of the picture and being able to go on.

WHOOPS guess who laid down and closed their eyes for .5 seconds and ended up napping for. an undetermined amount of time.

Moonlit: Yeahh, I think the higher ups don't care quite as much about our education as they do about their paychecks, unfortunately. And since class size is something set by each instructor, I'm probably going to get told to just deal with it. :\ Right now I'm looking at other degrees and working out class stuff-- my fallback was Anthropology, but that requires more math than I can do in a year. So I've just got stuff worked out for a History degree instead, 'cause I can pull that off in a year (so long as I don't fail my math class twice ahaha,,,). I'm gonna give it time to work out stuff with my professor, because he takes an age to respond, and if I haven't heard from him by Wednesday I'll contact my head of department and exchange the theatre classes for history classes and math.

Awwwwww, he sounds like such a fantastic guy! <3 And oh my goodness, you two look absolutely adorable! :'D I'd say you're absolutely correct to say things are going well. Best of luck to you two! <3

Amane: True! Sometimes that's the best way to approach bad things, but you can't totally cut shit out. You've gotta face it and deal with it eventually.

Haha, I've so done that before. I love naps though!

Yeah, that's a sad truth! But hey, it'd be good to let them know "HEY! Stop messing with us. You're making things REALLY hard! STOP IT!" Although word it nicer. haha! But along those lines. Yeah, well they need to know that maybe they need to figure something out - because if it's a HIGHER up class that's NEEDED to graduate, people will need it! So canceling it will mess people up. :( *grumbles* At least you have a fallback plan. So that's good at least. Sounds like a good plan there, all of it.

He really is! Thank you! <3 Things have never looked better Thank you so much! :]
Do you and your girl have any plans for your future, or are you just taking it a day at a time? (Not really literally there, more using that as a figure of speech.) :]

Ignoring the crap in life only leads to it piling up and becoming a massively huge GIANT deal later. Best to not avoid the crap when it comes your way because it really usually doesn't end up pretty. I'm speaking from experience. Just saying. And you can only fully grow up and deal with ADULT things, which we all sadly have to do... and avoiding it... only will make it worse when you have to face them EVENTUALLY. And you will have to face them - so it's better to take the things as they come so you won't have to deal with a massive pile of stupid things at once. Because once again speaking from experience, that's not fun - and is REALLY stressful.

Aaahaha… Oh, you two would loathe my mind.

*flops back in* Sorry y'all, I thought I was gonna be around more today but then my day went from "cool and nice with fun plans" to "garbage day on garbage island" and uuuugh. (But not as garbage day on garbage island as Lath's, YIKES I'm so sorry bb. ;-; That really blows. Colleges can be the worst and totally ignorant to what students need, and that's just. A real bogus move by them. I know you love theater and it sucks so bad that you have to seriously consider not graduating with that. *hugs*)

Hopefully Norah had a fun day with the puppy and you had a nice restful day, Moonlit! (Also, what a darling picture of you and Danny!)

Yo, Amane, hope the day is treating you well!


(Y'all, I know overuse exclamation points and I'm sorry but I can't stop myself. )

I used to overuse exclamation points. I still do if I pick up somebody's serious vibes. Also, XD is the face.

I've tried to stop many times, but I can't. 1) They are too useful a form of punctuation 2) I am very excitable anyway 3) I overcompensate for the lack of tone text conveys. I'm pretty good at chilling out with the using them constantly on professional emails but the rest of the time it's, "Hey guys! Do you think dogs are cute! I love dogs! How are you! I hope you are doing good!" etc etc

I mash that caps button. Most of my posts are funny, so I try to keep it calm for extra effect. Unless the emotion is the funny part.

Moonlit: Yup! Definitely gonna let people know it's not okay to mess around with students like this, but I'm not sure how much good it'll do. But it'll do more good than not saying anything would! I'm tryin' to stay as positive about it as I can.

We've got a few plans, yeah! Nothing super big right now, but we're planning on moving in together after we graduate this year. In part because we'll both be going to follow up 4 year colleges in the same part of town, so living together will save us a fair bit of money. Especially since our city's minimum wage will be going up soon. :yes: But also because we've been living together off and on for a while (she stays weekends at my dorm b/c my roommate leaves for the weekend to visit family), and it feels like the next natural step.

Iltu: awWWWWWW OH NO im so sorry friend!! what happened? D: alternatively, if you wanna message me on tumblr or some such thing to talk instead, you're more than welcome to!! i had a garbage day, but that doesn't discount your garbage day. ;; days that start out great and then turn absolutely terrible are the worst /hugs

Amane- Ah yes, the deadpan internet humor approach. A good one!
The caps button is also my friend! I feel like I yell a lot on the internet. Or emphasize things. Again: excitable gal, here.

Lath- Aw, thanks pal! Long story short is my mom and I had Cool Plans (to go to a bookish coffee shop/cafe! Coffee, tea, books, and food are 4/5 of my favorite things!), she sad something totally innocuous that happened hit a button with me (about something completely unrelated to her) so I got upset, she took it personally, and the afternoon and evening just went to shit and we didn't go and some other things happened and bah. It was all very silly and should not have become as big a deal as it did (we were both at fault for that) but it was what it was.
And I'm super disappointed we didn't go because I got upset in the first place is because since I now live at home, can't drive, don't have anything in walking distance and all my friends live 30-120 minute drives away, I don't do anything ever and it's making me like. Super bummed all the time. I can only walk the dogs in the woods so many times before I start to wish there were other places I could go, haha. I'm sure you can relate when you're not at school, too!
Also my lower buttcheeks got really sunburned when I was with the dogs at the pool, which does not contribute to making a day good lmao

awwWWW I'm sorry, friend. D: I totally get that feel, being upset you didn't get to go to a thing because you just. don't have transportation and live too far from things and just. that is NOT a fun place to be in, Rommy, i'm sorry. And maybe it shouldn't have become such a big deal, but it's still totally valid for you to be bummed out and upset by it! The sunburn definitely doesn't help a bad day at all. :( I'm definitely getting that feel lately; I cannot WAIT for school to start, even with all the bull they've been pulling, just so I can get back to somewhere where i can have kind of a life and see friends again.