@ Cricket - Alright.
o-o Those are some scary crickets.

Yeah, I know they're scary. I was tempted to make my name, "Chirping Cricket Horror Show," but I didn't know if it would fit. ^^;;

Rainbows: Put clear fingernail polish on your nails. Go out and find the stinkiest, nastiest tasting clear nail polish you can find and put it on your nails every two days. That's how I taught myself not to chew my nails.

@ Rainbows - I'd notice. o_O; Nail polish tastes funny.
I don't just chew my nails. I chew my entire hand. >.>;

Like I said, use a really nasty tasting nail polish.

A trick that a friend of mine did was soak her fingertips in vinegar (and sometimes rubbed garlic on them), so they'd taste nasty and she'd immediately pull her fingers from her mouth. I tried those once too. The garlic is the worst, and it stays in your fingers for over twenty-four hours.

That was nasty, but I started having a weird reaction to it.

So I just used nail polish. Not only do I hate the taste, but I also hate the feeling of the little paint chips in my mouth. They're really nasty.

D8 I don't want to risk that. I'd probably end up poisoning myself.

-Shudders- Pink is the color of Satan. >.<

-Doesn't like pink-

I like pink if it's neon pink and paired with black.

Baby pink is hideous.

... I bite off dead/dry skin instead...

I just kept my hands busy to keep them out of my mouth tostop the biting phase. Drawing, writing, whatever... keep them busy and down and grabbing something and out of my mouth.

Of coures then I started knawning my pens...

We mean more along the lines of clothing one wears. Most people can't really do the pink look very well anyway, or at least not if your pale skinned. makes the red in your face come out more. Lobster look. eck.

hello ... how is everyone?

Awww *cuddles Rainbow*.... sorry, I seem to have Open mouth Insert Foot syndrome today.

So what is going on here?

I don't feel well either emotionally ... I just got home and I was feeling better, but then something was missing ...

One of our dog's passed away today ...

I am so irritated right now. I was on Eternal Nox and someone called me a name that bothers me. It's a term of affection, but is overly used, and it comes tied to really painful memories from when I was a kid.

So I never let anyone call me that name. No one.

This person called me that name, and I told him not to. Then I gave a quick explanation as to why, to emphasize that he should never call me this name again.

Immediately I'm jumped for "Being harsh" and then I'm pretty much lectured by this chick about offensive stuff and about how she was raped and other such bullshit.

You know what? I wasn't looking to be "Bested" by someone's sob story. I wasn't being harsh, but I ended up saying, "You'd sound harsh too if..." and it was completely taken out of context.

Mind you, I'm about ready to cry my freaking eyes out because it stirred up really bad memories and now I'm really missing the one man in my life that was ever like a father to me (I've never met my father, this man was like a father to me, then my mother married a child molester. The only man who has really been a father to me left my life under bad circumstances, and it really really hurts when people call me that name of affection).

I wasn't looking to be bested. I wasn't trying to best anyone. I wasn't being mean or being harsh, I was telling him why not to call me that and then suddenly I'm the bad guy. I'm made to look like some sort of evil, mean, hateful person (granted, I hate humanity and I can be mean when people piss me off), when I wasn't being mean, hateful, or anything. I wasn't even offended. I was just suddenly really really depressed and trying my best not to start sobbing.

I'm having enough trouble breathing right now due to allergies, the last thing I need is to cry until I can't breathe. After that chick's rant I just gave up and didn't even bother to stand up for myself. It's not like they're going to listen. And whatever the hell I try to say in my own defense will just be bested by some other bullshit sob story.

No one's going to listen anyways, so what's the point in trying to stand up for myself anymore?

Please tell me my feelings for this aren't wrong... I was only trying to tell him why he shouldn't call me that name...

@Shy girl: I'm sorry about your dog. I had a rat pass away a few weeks ago. You might not think it's the same, but it is. It's hard to lose a pet.

I've learned never to share my problems on the net. It is full of people that want to 'best' you, and will gladly do it to make themselves seem more rightous. It's why i dn't have nor want a blog of any sort. My friends know whats going on and that's all that matters.

Just tell them not to call you that name. They do not need to know why. Commonly to much explination leads to trouble when it is not needed. If they ask why, jsut say 'it entails bad memories. That is all'. they persist, fidn someone else to play with. That is the internet for you. Unless you utterly knwo the group isn't going to try pistoning you on a stake and barking at you, edit ones replies. It's just like going to a large party of people that you vaguely know. You don't tell them the same exact everythings you tell your close freinds.

*cuddles* I'm sorry they were dicks to you though. I've had freinds like that, alwasy besting, when I just wanted a hug and a pat to tell me it will be alright, then a conversation switch. Not another sob story that may or may not be true to make me feel bad that I feel bad about what exactly I was feeling bad about. Never fun. Very causting relationships are cuased by that.

I didn't give much detail. But in my experience, unless you give them a good reason, they'll keep calling you that, if only to bother you/hurt your feelings.

I wasn't being mean. I wasn't being anything except trying to tell him very briefly not to call me that...

The real world is full of assholes. After all, people online exist in the real world too. At least to some extent.

God, I didn't deserve to be lectured or bitched out. The whole rape bullshit sob story was completely uncalled for from that one girl. It's all a bunch of bullshit.

You know, if I went into my entire life's story, I'd best over half the people on the internet.

And then everyone would start making up bullshit lies just to out-do me. It's all so stupid... Why can't people be honest and decent? It renews my lack of faith in humanity. And here I was starting to gain it back, too...

XD As my own personal quote on Deviantart says... "Half of my gave up on humanity long ago, while the other half hopes desperetly."

Ignore them. It's the internet. They do this because they are anonymous. And honestly, you can say to the R chic that it was TMI and to go to a serious discusion group and leave you alone. They just sound liek a bunch of donkey's anyhow... wait.. that insults donkey's. Just go to anther area and a different group.

Plus, if they keep calling you that because they knwo it bothers you, then THEY are the clas A dicks and can't play the 'woe is me' card. Either way, forget them. It's nothing in your real life that should effect you, as they do not think of you as a real person but as a cahracter made of pixels.

*cuddles*