Is it solo therapy? Like, not group or anything? Sounds like you need someone more understanding to help you. :/
I try to smile and be polite whenever I can, it's just getting to talk to people or go be social that I have a problem with.

Hehe yep. Better be on the safe side. :3

Heh, yeah. I don't really know what it is that triggers my anxiety, but just the thought of going to school or work can give me panic attacks sometimes. I had to cut down on work this summer because I was suffering from it quite badly by the end of it. So I had to take Wednesdays off during the last week. Thankfully my boss was very understanding and I just worked a few extra days to make up for it.
I think it often has to do with doing the same thing again, seeing the same people again. I get most anxious around people I sort of know, but are not quite friends. The people at school you know in sight and may have talked to a couple of times but nothing more, or the customers who come in quite regularly. I have no problem with complete strangers though.
I hope the sessions work out for you, would be a let-down if you had to start all over again with a new therapist. :/

Hehe, I don't know what I'd do with my Gaia stuff if I quit. As it is, I don't really chat on there that much. But I've spent so much time and money on the items I have, I can't really just.. leave them. I don't even have any friends on there I really know enough to give my stuff to. Maybe I'd just do a charity for clever nooblings or whatever.

Definitely worth starting over and over again if it means in the end you'll find someone who will be able to help you properly, of course.

Yes, I know what you mean. It's been a long while since I stopped going to the forums, but I've occasionally had a look at a couple of guilds I'm a member of that had some intelligent people. Seems like everyone else is thinking along the same lines though, the guilds are slowly dying it seems. And I'm not interested enough to spend time reviving them, to be honest.
It is a real shame though, since Gaia does have a lot to offer and their items are often quite amazing. Still, I think too much of it is starting to revolve around items you can only buy for Gaia cash, their regular shops don't get too much of the fancy items because they're too busy making the evolving items. And I think there are way too many of those, too, it's become one big money-sucking-machine. :/

God, either the Internet is dead at this hour on weekdays, or everyone is busy watching the elections. I've actually started organizing my playlists on iTunes, which is such a massive amount of stuff to go through I've been putting it off for far too long.

Yeah. I don't know. I think the aquarium is a cute idea, but it's too heavy for my browser and it requires a lot of regular attention. If it was real fish, I'd have no problem feeding it but as it's something that may cause my browser to crash, I can hardly be bothered.
I really really want to try out the new google browser, I'm just waiting for them to complete a Mac version. It's supposedly really good for stuff like Flash, videos, etc.
But yeah, not everyone has the money, especially not young teens, which is the majority of the Gaia population. It's really quite silly.

That's a lot of browsers. xD I prefer Safari over all the browsers I've used, but I also have Camino. I can't seem to be able to get it to support Icelandic letters though.

*Yaaaaawn* So tired. I wonder what I should do today.. I need to book the studio at least for tomorrow. Hmm.

Ah I see. I'm well busy enough with the stuff I already have, so I'm not even going to check some of that stuff out. :Ð

Congratulations on the apartment! I hope moving went well?
I went to Brighton today to meet a friend, a girl I got to know through Mene actually! It was really nice. Even if the trip back was freezing cold.

We are?

Mmm, I bought shiny things today, and relaxing things. I've been having so much trouble with my sleeping pattern so I bought some St. John's Wort tablets. I really hope they'll help me relax enough to fall asleep at a decent hour. I also went to this really sweet Christmas market fair that is in town and bought a heat bag that is actually a very soft and cuddly lamb! You heat it in the microwave for a couple of minutes and it stays hot for an hour, can't wait to try it tonight. So soft. xD
Then I bought one of these small leatherbound notebooks with recycled paper, one small for me and a bigger, purple one with an inset stone as a Christmas present for a friend of mine. And I even took some pictures around town, so I'm feeling very shiny and happy. Now I just need to get my laundry done and cook something for dinner, and my mood will be perfected - and hopefully, as a result, not as tense as usual. I really need to get my ass to class tomorrow morning. xP

Long post is looooooooooooooong.
I like long. :3

Yes, I realized just as I hit the Post button. .______.


I have a warm lamb on my neck, I cleaned my room so well earlier it almost SHINES and I'm actually feeling quite drowsy - and it's not even midnight yet! Mmm, this is a very nice feeling.

The one I bought today, I mentioned it earlier. I've named it Lambrekur. :3