Today was not a good day. My Valentine's date didn't go very well and I decided to talk to my fiance today about us and where we are and where we're going. We've been having problems for a while now but I kept hoping that we would get through them. Apparently we're both doubting our relationship now and it seems like we're likely going to split once our lease is up in October unless things change for the better. I'm really glad we talked because these doubts have really been eating away at me but now it feels like we're in this together. Still, that didn't stop me from crying pretty much all day. I just can't seem to get ahold of myself. To be honest it feels like it's over already, which it might be, and thinking about the future is terrifying. We've been together for eight years, it's hard to imagine us apart...

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To be honest today I said hello to pretty much no one except for my fiance and a few online people. It was really cold outside and I had other preoccupations so I didn't leave the apartment at all today.