Blerg I hated the snow! It was a pain in my rear to drive in! and I didn't even get snow days out of it...you young kids with your snow days and your...hippy hop music. :illgetu:
Why hallo Cherry. :3 Things have been pretty... er... confusing? for me lately. So much has been happening. ;_;
Basically, in the past week I took my entire life, turned it upside down, shook it a little and am now trying to figure out how to set it back down. It's mostly been amazing, but there have been sucky bits and I had a really bad panic attack the other day. But now I'm just waiting... for what, I'm not quite sure yet. :/
How have your things been?
@KT- I can't imagine a good Beatles hip-hop remix. >_>
Muahahaha! >:D I've got so many songs stuck in my head right now.
Why hallo Cherry. :3 Things have been pretty... er... confusing? for me lately. So much has been happening. ;_;
Basically, in the past week I took my entire life, turned it upside down, shook it a little and am now trying to figure out how to set it back down. It's mostly been amazing, but there have been sucky bits and I had a really bad panic attack the other day. But now I'm just waiting... for what, I'm not quite sure yet. :/
How have your things been?
I'd gathered that a bit. I hope things turn out for the best. Change is good.
Uhhh, things have been weird for me. It's... it's weird. It's the best way I can describe it.
Honestly, that I'm turning 19 this summer is kind of freaking of me out. I need to move forward in life, but I'm dealing with some pretty crippling issues that are preventing me from doing such at this time, so I've kind of been zoning out to games and movies.
Super happy fun time. 8D
Aw, I'm sorry. :< *hugs* What all's been going on, if you don't mind me asking? I'm so scared of getting older and not knowing what to do with my life, so I can sympathize.
You had? O_o Am I that much of an open book? :P
Thank you. I just hope that everything works out in at least a good way, if not in the way I want it to.
Well, I don't have my GED, I can't get a job, and I'm not in college, and that's freaking me out. And I've got some... issues with myself. Depression and esteem problems. Makes doing much of anything nearly impossible. Honestly, I can only post this because I'm so tired. :lol:
Having my boyfriend be 10 hours away doesn't help for shit, either. I mean, I don't really have... really good friends. I've got one, not counting Daniel, and that good friend doesn't live near me either, so the only person I ever talk to face to face is my mother. Kind of does weird things to a person, being isolated. And it just seems like most people who know me don't like me and don't take me seriously, so that kind of... fucks things.
Oh yeah, and I need a kitty, but can't have one right now. ><
No, you're not that much of an open book. I just am a curious person so if I see a hint of something, I go digging. I picked up that you seemed off from your posts, saw a relationship change on FB and could guess from that that things weren't perfect.
*creeper* 8D
Damn, I sound creepy now. ._.
That really sucks. Why don't you have a GED? Did something go wrong with the homeschooling program? :< I hope it all works out for you. I'm sure it will. And this is super-hypocritical of me to say, but don't stress out about it. If there's nothing you can do about it at that moment, then let it go. When it comes time to confront it then confront it, but there's no use in worrying about it before you can do anything.
I know what you mean about all of your close friends being so far away. Stupid internet. :/ Mannn, I want a kitty too. ;_;
Haha, no, don't feel creepy! xD And it's not really that things aren't going well with the ex... he was being really awful for the first few days but now he doesn't talk to me at all, which is fine for now. I think he just needs some distance. I'm just freaking out over a lot of things (school, feeling like a total ass, having a crush, being insane), and I think breaking up with John was the straw that broke the camel's back. :/
Dont let stress drive you to insanity because it doesn't solve anything. Keep pushing through even if things seem tough now you eventually gotta make it out if you put through the effort.
Anna - Well, I have catching up to do, because we majorly slacked off. I'm 'tarded when it comes to math. The GED test is pretty simple since it basically contains the answers right there (like it'll show you a paragraph, then ask you questions about it... but you can still read the paragraph :lol: ) so it requires only really basic knowledge for much of the test. Even though I've never had a science lesson, I'm pretty sure I can do fine on the science sections. :lol: But with math, you do have to have a bit more foreknowledge. My boyfriend thinks I know enough to be able to pass it as it is. Afterall, there's no scores, it's just pass or fail. So it doesn't matter if I suck at math as long as I pass. No one will ever know, really. It's just a matter of knowing enough to pass and getting my mom to schedule a damn date. She keeps saying she's going to, but then she never does.
Yeah, fuck the internet. :lol: But I love it too, since I wouldn't know these people otherwise. I just wish I had oodles of money to spend on airfare to go visit people. I wanna go visit mah fran'. :gonk:
Yeah, it's probably best to just leave him alone. For both of your sakes, really. It's possible you two could be friends later down the line, but I think trying when everything is so fresh would just be asking for a heap of shit. Him being all "guhh" and you being all "guhh" and just... guhh. :c
Yeah, I can see how that would make everything feel like it's piling on you... But if you feel it's for the best, then it most likely is, and this means things will be getting better instead of worse. So, yay, better!
And don't feel like an ass. Don't feel bad for wanting what's best for you. This stuff will never be easy, but that doesn't mean it should never be done. So it has to, and you did, and that's what's best.
@Cherry- Aaaah, I couldn't even get a quarter of the way through that song; too scary! D8
Aw, I'm sorry. D: Don't underestimate yourself, though, I'm sure you'll do great and I doubt the math test will be too hard if the rest of it's that easy. :/ I hope your mom schedules your test soon. If not you'd better smack a ho'! xP
Yeahhp. Well, before I broke up with him, I had promised we'd hang out that Sunday (I broke up with him last... Thursday? Friday?), and I felt bad breaking the plans, so we did and he was still all cuddly and weird and it was like he was trying to pretend I had never broken up with him in an attempt to win me back. He gave me a ton of chocolate, too, but apparently he'd bought it a while ago. He gave me an entire bag of my stuff back and I only had two things to give him, both of which he'd lent me, which (I think) shows how much time I spent at his house and how little he spent at mine. :/ And then he was calling me nonstop for the next few days. Then we had a massive snowstorm this Wednesday and he called every two seconds and I ignored all of them (as per my dad's advice... I guess he's a pro at this? Dx) and he started calling my dad's phone, so I checked mine and he was asking if I was alive, and how horrible would it be to let him think I was dead? So I sent him really abrupt replies saying I was alive and home and he hasn't texted or called me since. It sucks, but I can't think of any other way to do it. I really wanted to be friends but after he tried to have the breakup call (which lasted THREE HOURS) a second time, and after he tried to win me back while I was still ON THE STAGE on the final night of my school's musical, I lost all fondness for him. :/ [/TL;DR]
Thank you Cherry. :) I definitely need the reassurance. :hug:
