Good luck you still have a ways to go.

Yes, yes I do.

Yeah, that's always the way it goes. *shakes head*

Maybe if I can make irl friends on mene someday... I wont get hurt as often o.o

You just have to keep trying, I know it is easier to get hurt but the more you try, the more friends you find along the way.

that's gunna happen no matter where you meet them. I've stopped being really nice to people im at the point if im nice I get walked over and I just don't want hurt anymore.

Very very true. *nods*

I sent you a donation. Your siggy made me laugh so I figured you deserved it.

Oh, wow~! Thank you very very much! What did you think was funny?

Robin. I don't know why I was staring a I guess figured it out my mom heard me laugh when she was passed out. Had a procedure im watching her while she's doped up from it.

Lol. Yeah, well there wasn't an actually superhero Robin so I had to go with the bird. ;D I'm glad it made you laugh. Lol, oh watching people doped up can be really funny.

I think she's almost undoped we were back at her home at 10 we left at 640am and she was asleep until lunch was made at noon. She didn't have to cook so she was happy.

No kidding. That would make anyone happy. Lol. I don't know what procedure was done but I'm glad she is getting better.

shE had a epidural . A bunch of happy numbing to get the pain from her. She gets them monthly

I refuse to be impolite though... sorta goes against my morals...
I've only gotten 2 friends in my life that haven't abandoned me. One of them I've lost contact with...
So "loyal friends" is far too rare these days, how do you make decent friends Queen?

Poet is annoyingly immune to stuff that kills the nerves... especially painkillers...

I'm not. Pain killers work well on me and I'm glad she is starting to get better.

I haven had a decent friend in years. I'm more of a antisocial loner irl. The friends I had abandoned me.

Awww. *hugs on* They don't sound like very good friends.

Well um I have bad issues with me the friends I had in high school went away after that and I have friends from college they don't talk to me anymore. I also lost tons of online friends been on Gaiaonline since 04 and alot of my friends ended up fake there had to make a new account to start over. This is why I've started being mean and bitchy towards people. I need to protect myself from getting messed up again. Also the no trust issues doesn't help. I haven't dated in 2 years don't plan on anytime soo

Well I'm pretty antisocial too... but it's far too lonely now...

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Well, I can assure you I'll not be mean to you Queen ^^

My motto is "Don't piss anyone off" ^^

My current motto is protect myself at any cost lol

Ah yeah... I've sorta ignored my own well being a lot for the sake of others... o.o almost to the point of starving...

Jeez, that must be so lonely. I understand because I have been there too but you know what? You are going to get hurt anyways so you might as well have a good time while it lasts. And if you seal yourself off, that's partially why you have a hard time making friends, especially if you are harsh on other people.

Besides, you don't want to be alone forever and that's what that kind of attitude will leave you. Alone and miserable to the point where you are suffocating.

I am like that too Poet. I always put people before myself, even if I end up getting the short stick. I just don't want anyone to be unhappy or hurt. I would rather it be me, but that is an okay way to be and people notice it.

I guess both extremes end up with no friends... but honestly, even my exwife stabbed me in my back and I haven't made a single friend since... hard to trust someone again...

It is. But you got to just get out there and go for it again. People will understand. I was lead on for a year in a half by a guy who I liked, and then he didn't understand why I was so upset when he got a girlfriend. He didn't treat me right and in a way he backstabbed me but I started to like another guy and just straight out asked if he was leading me on. He didn't get offended or anything. He understood because he could sympathize with where I have been.

I am 25 my fun time is over. I was homeless, no offence I was like that before I was homeless. But I had to learn not to trust.