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Well I went to the doctors today. That was fun. See we were registered there up until 95 when we moved to a different doctors. Well the doctor wanted to know why. *grumble* Well he eventually told me what's wrong. I have a chest infection. Joy of joy and stupid mould! So I have to pick up my perscription tomorrow. *dies* But, my check came from the electricity company and that will just about cover my medication. *cry cry* |
*absolutly murderous*!
I am absolutly LIVID! So here's a warning STrONG LANGUAGE!!! So my asswipe of a landlord promised my mom two weeks ago that my place would be ready today. So I pull a 24 hur day on my day off to move back in. I go to visit the stre first then head over to my place. Only I lft my keys on the floor last night. So I have to wait for my dad to show up with the spares. Well Faye, next door spotted me and took pity on me, inviting me into er place to wait. Here I find out that my landlord for some reason offered to let my neighbours use MY shower! *fury* So then I go into my house and my kitchens fine and always was, so I head doownstaires to the living area, of course the rat bastard has used all my eletricity! But as soon as I can see the end of the stairs my heart sinks. MOULD! STILL!!! The rat bastard hasn't done a thing about the mould! So we ring him and suprise suprise! No fucking answer! So we run around trying to get electricity so we can dry the walls. Only that falls through. It's now on emergency reserve. So he's been given an ultimatum. Answer us by monday or we're with-holding another months rent and doing it ourselves. I'm not fucking happy, but I hope he lets me have that option because then I get to design my place free of choice. And I KNOW he won't uck it up even more. |
Calmed down a little bit
Ok, so I've calmed down, but I now want to cry and I don't even know why I'm bothering to type this out *sigh* Maybe some magical fairy will read it and make everything all better? It's just, this whole thing has been one long nightmare! From the day my tennancy started and the landlord was IN my flat with no respect for the law, to the doors not fitting properly and doorhandles falling off. I mean the backdoor is un-usable because of the handle and the front door...well it's ok now, my dad fixed it but at the start I couldn't use it, it didn't fit! I once locked myself out of the house because the doorhandle came off the back door and the front got well and truely stuck! And my windows don't actually open. Then the water started pouring in and flooding everything! Thankfully nothing was destroyed, as far as I know. But then the mould! I was so sick! And the mould was everywhere and the plaster started comming off of the walls, so I've been made homeless while he "Fixes it"... A month later he PROMISES it will be ready by yesterday and it STILL isn't! The floor is rotten and the walls are even worse! But the leak is fixed. *sobs* And then of course there's the pet problem. My bunnies are 2ft long each! Their cage is 4ft long. It was only ever meant to be a base and now they're confined to it almost all the time because my mom whom I'm staying with won't let them be free. I'd move out but getting another place is so hard! This is an area where flats, single bedroomed flats, sell for well over a million pounds! So I could get in the health board, but then I'd be homeless for a LOT longer. I don't have the finances to sue him. I don't know what to do! I feel so helpless and so lost and I just want to...am crying. I want to go home! |
Aww..I'm sorry, honey. That's so horrible. I wish I could offer some advice, but I can only assume the laws are different there. At least here you can try to get the police involved before taking it to the courts.
I would definitely hold back rent until the place is completely fixed, and if he's not willing to fix it start doing it yourself, if that's what you choose to do. If you hold back rent you could probably hire someone to take care of it. I'd say you could bill the landlord for the fees too. -Hugs.- |
Thank you ^_^ Yeah the laws are different, but it's ok, I think I've made up my mind on what to do.
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*sits in a corner and cries*
I know no one really reads journals anymore, so I'm not really expecting any replies here. I think I just really need to let off some emotions before I burst. I don't even know what time it is where all my Mene friends are, but I doubt any of them are online to read this anyway, I'm usually in bed at this time myself. So what's so terrible to have me awake at this time and at my moms house? Because you know that's really the only place outside of work that I can have the internet. Well I woke up early today because I wanted to ring my Gramma and check how she was after her operation. She's been down lately and I worry about her. She's really my world. Growing up I was always closest to her and my dad. So I like to check in on her. I don't visit much any more because I work nights, so I call from time to time. Anyways, my mom and dad dropped by her place while I was on the phone and kinda invited themselves over. Which you know...is ok but it's the middle of my sleepy time and I really wanted to sleep, but they came over. I'd fallen asleep so they had to ring the bell several times and then actually ring my mobile to wake me up. And I was happy, my gramma sounded ok and I'd made progress with unpacking, and wrote a letter and was in good spirits. Then dad sat on my bed and said he needed to talk to me. In that deadly serious voice reserved only for when I'm in serious trouble or there's something seriously wrong. I thought I was in trouble, not a clue why...maybe I'd done something wrong at work? ... My Gramma has cancer. See it was in the part of her bowls that they'd removed but it had spread...or something. I was being told but all I could hear was my world ending. And this voice in my heart was screaming "Not gramma! Haven't you stollen enough from me already? Not Gramma for fucks sake!" But worse news was still to come. See the bloody fates in their infinate cruelty are not content with just giving her cancer, they've decided that they're going to kill her with it. See this cancer is not only aggressive, but it's incurable. They're estimating how long she has left to live and they say it could be six weeks or six months. I can't take it! I'm angry and sad and I just want to destroy something. Kick the shit out of someone or punch a wall into dust or something! Why?! Why my gramma? Was it not enough that it killed my nan nan? Was it not enough that it attacked my uncle? Is this some sort of punishment? I can't... I don't know what to do! I hate at the moment. Really hate! |
I am soooooooooooo sorry Angel. I know this must be horriable for you. and you must feel really bad. I understand I really do. I just want you to know I am here for you if you want to talk,vent what ever. I am here for you.
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Thank you honey. I know you're here for me. I'm just...I don't know. I think I really need a stiff drink.
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maybe some time to yourself or some time spending it with your grandma will help.
but just know I understand you dont want to talk right now and know that I am here for you when you are ready to talk. Things like this is always a touchy topic and it is hard to find words that will comfort. so not to stick my foot in my mouth so to speak and say something wrong here I will wait for when you are ready to talk. Loosing loved ones myself for lots of reasons I know how you are feeling and what you are going through and I know that it is hard to talk about your feelings. and sometimes it is hard to make out how you are feeling. lots of different emotions going on at once and it is hard to make out what is what right now. I know this. so when you are ready to talk I am here. |
Maybe... I think I may burst into tears when I see her though.
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I'm so sorry Angel. But on the plus side - many people live long beyond their estimated time. I wouldn't say put your hopes high into it because it can be a horrible thing to lose a grandma, especially one your close to. I was close to my grandma too, very close and lately I've been crying almost everyday when I think about her; so I do know how you feel. I just suggest that you see her before she's unresponsive or can't remember who you are - that way your last memory of her isn't her in a hospital bed or not remembering who you are.
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I'm so sorry Jayms! D: I'm really bad at consoling people, but I hope you know my thoughts are with you. It's hard knowing you have such a short time left with someone you love, but that also gives you a chance to try and make every little bit count.
Cancer is a terrible thing. T__T I can't bare to think what it would have been like if my mother hadn't survived her breast cancer, so I can only imagine how it feels for you. |
My moms mom died of lung cancer. My uncle survived it. My dads mom is now dying of it. *sits glumly* I think I've gone numb now. I can't believe it's real. I can't believe it's happening.
I'm just at a loss. But I'm so glad I've done so much charity work to help with cancer. I just never realized any of it would ever go on my family. |
That's the terrible thing about cancer, it hits just about every family in some form. T__T I'm sorry you have to go through this though!
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Update
So I went to visit my gramma on friday and that helped me. I mean for the first part of my visit I kept bursting into tears and trying to hide it from her, but then I gave her a hug and cried on her, and I gave my aunt a hug and cried on her and I think that really helped me get some things out of my system. My gramma told me not to cry any more, that she wants me to be happy when I come to visit her, and I think now that I've finally let myself accept it I can do that. See I'm a lot like my dad and we've both been denying it and not talking about it and hoping it'll just go away, but now I think I can be strong for my gramma and not cry when I go and visit her anymore. We'll see on Sunday when I next see her for mothers day. Then I went out drinking with my friend Heffy and her two housemates Ula and Sandy. We had a girls night of fun and it was really good, it really helped to cheer me up. Just being with friends and having seen my gramma again. Life is beginning to take on a hint of normality once more. But on another note, and why I'm online at this time, I stayed at their house for the night, only I'm nocturnal, so they all went to sleep and I stayed up texting my big sister in America. I can't believe things have gotten so bad with her! She was in a car crash this week, nothing serious...well... She caused the crash. Drink driving again. I thought she'd stopped, I really had and with everything going on in my life I've not really been paying much attention to her. I feel so guilty now. But the crash was a real wake-up call. She knows she has a problem now and hasn't touched alcohol since. She's thinking about therapy too! |
Angels heart attack!
So both Charm and Destiny have full run of my house 24/7 (except my bedroom and kitchen when I'm out or asleep), and I went out with the girls last night to let our hair down and stuff, which I really needed. So I spent the night at their house and my gal drove me home in the morning, came in for a tour of the house. Well she was fascinated with how big the bunnies were and how they kept following us around. Then we went back up into the kitchen and nattered before she left. Anyways Destiny is my naughty bunny, shes into everything, eating anything she can find, divebombing at you and getting in places she shouldn't. Only I can't find her anywhere. So I put Charm in his hutch and I can't hear her. Now my house is all hard flooring so you can usually hear the buns. Well I start to get frantic, what if she's hurt somewhere? I hunt in all her hiding places, under the bed, in all my cubbords, in my wardrobe. NOTHING! Oh DAMN! I was stood on the doorstep giving heffy directions home! We're both shell shocked from the music and I'm still drunk! Destiny has to have gotten out! I never heard her but I can't find her in my house so she has to have right? Where else could she be? So I go to my neighbours and alert them that my house bunny has probably gotten out of the house somehow and to keep their eyes open. Search my back garden, have a look down the road and out back. No sigh. I went inside and text the two bunny people I have numbers too and get advice from one, the other comes over with my dad. Again the house is searched by three of us. No sign! So I print off some posters and head out, cover the street I live on, the park (which we also searched), the road at the side of my house and even went down to the grocery shop to put a poster in the window. No sign! Well there was nothing else we could do. My sister and dad head off to the local pet shelter and I head to bed, absolutly terrified for my bunny but I'd not slept since 6 the previous night and the alcohol was making me really bad. I sat there crying and praying that she turns up safe and sound for a good ten minutes. Then I pull my duvet over me and.... A sleepy bunny rabbit looks up and her eyes say "Please put that back over me I was warm!" The poor bunny had somehow managed to get under the duvet without disturbing anything on my bed (And there was a lot of stuff on there from my getting ready) and there wasn't any trace she was under there. No bump or anything! She's never been so hugged and kissed and cried on in her life I swear! So I rang my dad to tell him I'd found her and not to bother with the posters, and went to text sooz who I'd also asked for advice and I'd run out of credit (I was texting America till like 6am). Took Destiny round to my neighbours and told them I'd found her. They gave her a load of fusses too and Destinys just sat there saying "Do you mind? I WAS trying to sleep!" But I was so relieved to find her I didn't want to let go just yet. So now she's in my living room telling Charm what an evil bunny mommy I am for waking her up from her comfy bed. Well I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow (4 hours sleep for me). I've now gotta go take down the posters from the shop window and the pub when I go home tomorrow. That bunny doesn't half know how to scare me I'm not going out drinking again for a good while now. Man I was so scared! |
You poor thing..
She really got you mommy.. but you are not an idiot.. I would have done the same thing if my bugs would do that to me. |
I had two peaople searching our garden, they had next door searching theirs, dad searched my house and me and sam searched the park and started handing out posters. Ummm I'm going to tell everyone she came back...not that she was in my bed :P
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Oh wow, that must have been really scary D: I'm really glad you found her, though :3 Pets never realize it when they scare their mommies and daddies. They need to though! :P
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I was terrified. I'm so glad she's safe though. Pets are like kids. blissfully ignorant.
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Charms turn to scare me
There was an Earthquake last night at around 1am. Seriously! An Earthquake! And it almost killed one of my bunnies! See I give my male French Lop, a Shower every week. He doesn't groom himself properly so he gets pretty messy. Anyways, while I'm having a shower there's a crash and I think that it's just my female lop barging into things as usual. Although now I think about it, that's probably the first sign of the quake. I live underground so most of the vibrations were deadened by the packed Earth around me, but a few still made their way in. Well anyways, I give Charm his shower, then have a quick one myself as the job really is nasty. Then I go and sit down to watch Stardust and all of a sudden a huge BANG and I mutter for Destiny to knock it off and turn on the light. Well she's hidden under a chair and then my lamp goes flying off of the tv and misses Charm by mere milimetres! I was in shock. Well he ran into the empty fireplace and took shelter under the chimney till things stopped falling. I was in shock, not a clue what was going on. I couldn't feel the vibrations myself, but everything against the walls could. So I was just sat there wondering what was going on. And suprisingly, Charm was more upset about his shower (which took an age this time around) than about his near death experiance! |
House bunnies? This is an interesting concept. XD Sounds cute, though.
Flink has one question though, what about poop? Bunnies seem to poop a lot. o.o Or the ones she had did. It was weird. Little bitty critters like them letting out all of that poo. But it's nice to know they're both alright. ^^ And you as well, no heart attack from worry! |
It is? Almost everyone I know with bunnies have house bunnies. It's much safer than leaving them outside where a fox, or worse, a badger could get them. The few people I know with outdoor bunnies have barricades up around the cages because a fox or a badger can tear away the side of a hutch to eat your bunnies.
hehe if you're thinking itty bitty bunnies you're going to die over this. My bunnies are 2ft long....each! Their poop goes mostly in their litter trays, although sometimes they're too busy playing they forget, then you have to sweep it up. Angel be very close to a heart attack! |
Whaaa? That's horrible! You're okay, aren't you? o_o;
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From the Earthquake? Yeah i'm fine, My flat is underground the the flat was all coushened. Anything touching the exteria walls got the vibrations, but it didn't extend to the interiar wall I was sat agains wondering what on earth was happening :P
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