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I started writing this for fun and i have only been writing this since Sunday.
i am open to ALL thoughts ... as long as you don't make me cry. Thanks.

“That’s the last of it.” I set down the box I was carrying and looked around, “This place is really great Mom, thanks for letting me move.”
“Well, it’s closer to York than our loft and not to mention nicer and bigger.”
“Thats because you guys, or should I say Charles, went way over board. Are you sure it’s not too much money?”
“It’s fine Addi, you know that Charles comes from money and that he wants the best for you.”
“I know I just don’t want to have to depend on your husband for everything. He is already paying for my tuition.”
“He is your step-dad Addi, and you deserve to go to a good school like York. He doesn’t care about money.” She looked at me with a look that said lets drop the subject, “Do you need anything else?”
“No, its okay I have to go to the store later so I’ll get stuff then.” I walked over and gave my Mom a big hug.
“It won’t be the same without you baby, but we’ll be fine. Don’t forget to call us sometime.”
“I won’t Mom, I promise.”
“Bye.”
“Bye Mom, I love you.”
“Love you too.” With that, I was on my own.

When I got what I wanted unpacked, I put what I didn’t unpack in the living room. Then I headed out the door with a shopping list. In the time it took me to unpack my things it went from sunny and warm outside to cold and rainy. I had to go back upstairs and get a jacket from the bottom of a box. I definitely did not think I would need this today.
The walk to the store was peaceful and allowed me time to think about school. I am a junior at York Prep which costs about 34,000 dollars a year. I was thinking about so many things that I almost walked right past the store. When I went in the store I grabbed a basket, looked at my list, then put the basket back knowing I would need a cart. I went to the fruits and vegetables first knowing that I should get more of those instead of junk food. I filled up most of the cart without really knowing what I was putting in the cart, then moved on to the other aisles.
Mom gave me one hundred dollars to get things like groceries and toiletries but when I got to the check out line I was blown away to find out I had just spent one hundred and fifteen dollars on groceries without getting everything I wanted. After I had bought my things with the use of some my personal money, I remembered that Charles had always complained of how expensive fresh fruits and vegetables were. Next time I’ll look at what I put in the cart. I had about twenty dollars left so I decided to head to the closest drug store to get some things.
On my way home I saw a billboard for the Army that I had never noticed before. When I was looking at it, someone bumped into me and I almost dropped all of my bags. I figured that I should go home to put away all the food so I didn’t drop it all and so it didn’t go bad.
The walk back to my loft in Gramercy Park was peaceful with the sound of rain filling my head. I just watched the birds flying around and wondering what it would be like to be like them. When I got home I unpacked all my things and started on my homework but I couldn’t concentrate. I couldn’t help thinking about my Dad.
He was in the Army and was deployed a lot. We always fought and didn’t get along but I loved him. I’m not sure he knew that. The horrible thing is he died last year, and right before he left I was mad at him. I never got to apologize, and I blame myself everyday. The thing that bugs me the most is that my mom remarried about six months after his death. No one can grieve, fall in love, and then be devoted to another person in six months. I think I hate her, but yet, she is the only one I have left to love.
After sulking around for about an hour I went to take a shower. The warmth was very calming and relaxed my muscles. I knew I would be sore after all the heavy lifting and climbing the stairs today so I took my time in the hot water. When I got out and got dressed I realized just how empty this place was. It made my feel empty inside. I always took to my environment. If people were yelling, I was yelling. If the house was cluttered, my mind felt cluttered.
I looked at the clock and was surprised that it was only five o’clock. I was so tired and was glad that tomorrow was Sunday so I could sleep in, but I knew that I couldn’t go to sleep now or I’d be up very early.