A story of My Own entitled "Like Athrun"
 

Today's month is a heart’s month and I am thinking of a person whom I would love to be on my side if only I could choose. That would probably be someone like Athrun Zala, from the anime gun dam. I like him for being so seriously drown with his work. That type of a man is a workaholic and I presume that he would take love seriously as well. That kind of attitudes makes my heart go pounding and make me think that I choose some one that goes into my ideal type of a guy. Beside this, he has warm heart and kind personality. Like athrun, he would be someone who could listen to anything that worries me and from being busy, he would still make sometimes for some one he loves. When he decides to protect someone, he would go through his words and fulfill it without any reservation.

When he got holidays and time off work, he would invite me go to the ocean to take sometimes off. There, we would spend our time together, having conversation over silly things and building the futures ahead on together with each other. I would love to see his smile and hear the way he laughs. With those kind eyes he has, he would let me wander off to the zone where I suddenly forgot the worries I had deep inside. We would play near the sea shore as the wave runs of the shore. Playing like a little child and pouring each others water, thinking that time is only for us to spend in this world. As the sun reflects to the ocean beautifully, it also reflects through his eyes the sincerity and the love he had for me. If that moment will come, I will surely treasure those memories like a diamond that a woman could possess and protect it from anything in this world.

Like the character of Athrun, he would show me the weakness deep inside him. The sadness he feel, the softer side of him. I am not after of some one who shows his self strong in front of me, as if there is nothing wrong with him. I don’t want a man who thinks he could do anything without any help. I hate a man who would walk proudly along the road boasting and unhumbly showing off with anyone whom he meets. I don’t want a man who aim high aimlessly, a man who would think so much of something carelessly. Like Athrun, I would prefer some one who would think the best out of something, and of course who would let me be part of it. I don’t want things like those in a man as what I have just stated negatively, for the reason that I would like to be much help of him more than anyone else in this world. Who could do something with his own hands, with his own power, who can change something even though it’s just like a tiny speck of a glass. Someone who would also change something deep inside me, the one who could let out the part of me that is hidden. Some one who could show the world what he is and what he can do through his own strength. I could never imagine how happy I am if this would be the real thing.

Athrun is much younger than me, I presume. However, I would love to be someone who has the same age as I am or five years older than me. Like Athrun, he would be someone whom my eyes want to see each day. When my heart is trembling and shaking for some reason, he could calm it so easily even just a little kind words coming from him. Who could say the words I want to hear, yet I would also prefer those words that I could realize things, that what I have done is wrong. I don’t want a man who would tell a lie to me, of course. When we will be together, the knotted string of fate attached in our pinky finger would be tighten more. My place from this four corner of my room, would be much wider and see the world in a more positive way through him. A man whom I could do anything and have strong fate to conquer anything just being beside him.

I know this stuff is like thinking out of proportion and going outside beyond the horizon of dreaming and beyond anything else without any reservation. Nevertheless, let me be far off in this fairy tale story, because I know that NEVER in this world could be perfectly define a typical man as what I illustrated just now. He could be far off, just like a dream, far from reaching.
:vicky: