“Where’d everyone go?” I asked and he looked where my finger was directed to see that everyone was gone.

“Crap, “ he said, and I looked around running a hand through my hair.

“Ughh, this isn’t good,” I said looking around for them. But it was useless.

“Actually it could be,” I heard Joe reply from behind me and I turned around, to see him rubbing his hands together, to stimulate heat. I looked up to the sky for a moment. Yeah it was definitely going to rain. Eh, I didn’t care, and im sure that Joe didn’t either. After all it was just water.

“How so?” I asked still looking up at the sky. He walked over to me.

“Well, if we’re gonna be buds, we’ve gotta get to know each other. So, let’s just walk around and we’ll meet up with the guys later. I know the city so, we can get to just about anywhere, at anytime, “He suggested looking around at the cars and things going by us, I turned around. I mean, this would be a good chance to not only gain my first friend in this business, and it couldn’t hurt for the guys to hang out with Nick, and Kevin. And they were already gone. I looked up from the street to see Joe looking at me waiting for my answer. He looped his arm for me to put mine through and I slipped it through.

“Couldn’t hurt right?” I said and we walked off talking about whether to go uptown, hang out in midtown, or downtown first.

I could already tell that I would enjoy this day very much.


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The group of boys laughed loudly as they watched a group of girls swoon over the naked cowboy, and he simply kept strumming on the guitar.
“Rox look at this guy,” Tristan said laughing and turning around but not finding Roxanne, “Roxanne?” he questioned again but saw that his dark haired friend wasn’t there. He turned completely around to get a good look around the street, “Shit.” he muttered and the other five boys turned around.

“What’s wrong?” Kevin asked looking around, and then to Tristan, who was still looking around for her. He looked over to the sunglasses station, she wasn’t there. Hot dog stand, she wasn’t there.

“Where’s Roxanne?” Julian asked looking at Riley who looked around for her as well.

“Where’s Joe?” Nick piped, and they all looked at each other, and shrugged, but it was Kevin who froze out of the group.

“Guys I think we’ve got a bigger problem,” Kevin said pointing to a group of girls that were staring at them. Each boys eyes widened, as the girls screamed.

“OMG IT’S NICK JONAS!” one screamed who looked like she was about to internally combust. They all screamed again. The boys just stared wide-eyed.

“AND ATROPHY, OHHH MYYYY GGGGODDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” another screamed, and they screamed again. Tristan turned and ran back to the sunglasses station and grabbed a pair tossing the guy fifty bucks.

“Thanks,” he said and took off down the street. The guys all did the same and took off running as the group of girls followed them close on their tails

“Shit where are we gonna go?!” Julian screeched and they all heard a laugh to their left to see Riley with his camera snapping away pictures.

“This isn’t fuckin funny man, get us the hell out of here, you know the city,” Matt threatened and Riley just laughed holding his camera and running around the corner sharply and then into a tiny grocery mart. They all hid inside until the heard the screaming girls pass by. They all shared a collective sigh, and slipped on their sunglasses.

“‘Kay so, we’ve gotta keep it low-key for the rest of the day,” Nick said adjusting his sunglasses and putting up his hood to hide his curly locks. The guys all nodded.

“Now who’s missing?” Matt asked looking around then noticing that their perky front-girl was no where in sight.

“Roxanne...” Tristan trailed off looking over at Kevin for the name of the other person.

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“Where to Captain?” Joe said my arm still linked through his. I didn’t really mind my arm being liked through his. In fact I’d want it linked with his. It makes me look good. Hah, just kidding. But it does. I put my free hand up to my chin and thought.

“You wanna take the train Uptown, and see what’s up there, you’ll have a less chance of being recognized than you would being here in Midtown,” I said looking from the passer by-ers to Joe’s eyes. They were the kind I could melt in. What Mina probably would have called ‘bedroom eyes’, but that was a farfetched thinking for a time like now. I hadn’t realized I’d been staring for a couple seconds, so to make myself look sane I looked away and to the little shops we passed.

“Whatever is fine,” he said and I nodded and instead of walking straight like I had intended to, Joe dragged me towards a staircase leading us underground, “You were gonna keep going huh?” I nodded and he laughed, “I thought you knew you’re way around the city?”

“I do, but I only know the city above ground. The subways confuse me,” I said giving him a ‘pitiful’ expression, he laughed at me, and I frowned, “you know you’re subways?” I asked and he nodded.

“It’s okay, my dad taught me on trips into the city when I was little,” I smiled and thought of a little Joe, it was cute. We walked in silence for a moment until he stopped in front of a map of the train lines throughout Manhattan. I looked at the map, and then over to Joe who pulled a case out of his pocket, and placed his glasses on. He took a long look at the map and I just unlinked my arm and leaned against the white tiled wall, and watched as he used his finger to trace a line. I smiled at how cute he looked, “Okay, I just wanted to make sure, so we take the A train for about a half hour and get off right in...” at this time he realized my staring and stopped, looking at me with a weird expression on his face, “What?”

“You’re glasses are so cute. You’re like a little rockstar bookworm, I love it,” he smiled at my opinion and looked up into my eyes, and immediately the butterflies in my stomach came alive and were more active than I’ve ever felt. He was so cute! Ugh, wait til I tell Mina.

“Well I don’t know about the rockstar part, but the bookworm part’s about right,” he said and smiled, “C’mon if we want to catch the train we should probably hurry,” he said grabbing my shoulders and leading me and the direction of the MetroCard machines.

“Alright best friend,” I said pulling five bucks from my pocket and doing the MetroCard machine, Joe just watched with raised eyebrows. I turned to him while I waited for the card, “what?” it was his turn to ask. I tried to stifle a laugh.

“Subways confuse you, huh?” he said with a sly expression.

“I said subways confuse me, I didn’t say I didn’t have any brain cells,” I said taking the card out of the machine and grabbing Joe’s hand, “Lead me towards the train master,” I said and we walked towards the MetroCard slider thingy.

“Ladies first,” he said putting out his arm, and I slid the card, but it didn’t work.

“Damnit,” I muttered, and slid the card again, it didn’t work, “Jesus,” I muttered again, and I heard Joe laugh from behind me. I turned around to see him standing behind me closely with his front pressed up to my back, and he grabbed the card from my hand and slid it through, and I immediately heard the happy sound and the green righting saying ‘GO’, but my body wouldn’t move.

“Whatcha waiting for sunshine?” he said and pushed against my backside and moved for the both of us, I felt shivers go up and down my spine, and I blushed thankful that he was behind me. After we got through he shoved the card in his pocket and then walked up from behind me. I sighed throwing my hands into the pockets of my jacket.

“So where to now Captain?” I asked turning to him with a smile. He looked around looping his arm again, I linked mine and he lead us in the direction of the train.

“So, how about a game of twenty questions?” Joe asked looking down to me, with a warm smile, something I’ve seen a lot of today. It was nice. I mean I wasn’t complaining, it was definitely a good thing. I definitely missed the feeling of having a boyfriend, but if I wanted anything to happen between me and Joe, I had to be his friend first. I didn’t want to have another, Christian issue.

Christian was an ex-boyfriend of mine a little bit after Tristan. We were so caught up in each other that we hardly had time to get to know each other. We rushed into everything, and I gave up my most precious gift. Yeah, I know. I felt so violated and dirty about it that I broke up with him, and told him that not only was I not ready to do it again, when he asked, but that our relationship wasn’t going anywhere. All he wanted to do was fool around after I let him in the first time. After that I vowed to myself that I would never do it again until I knew I had found a person who truly cared enough, and when I found someone who I really felt deeply about. I never forgave myself about this, and I knew that I really never would. It was a mistake, I wasn’t going to make twice.

“Roxanne?” I heard Joe ask again and I felt bad about zoning out on him, and snapped back to reality, looking over to him.

“I’m sorry, just zoned out for a minute, yeah twenty questions is fine,” I said nodding, and smiling politely, he smiled and nodded as well, and sighed as he thought looking straight ahead.

“Hometown and school?” he asked, and I smiled when I thought of home.

“Sunset Grove, Long Island, S.Grove High School,” I answered and he smiled obviously thinking of his hometown as well, “And you?”

“Hey this isn’t about me right now, “ he said and I rolled my eyes, “twenty for you, and twenty for me,” he said and I sighed

“Okay how about we just shoot back and forth?” I asked him with a hopeful look on my face, and he nodded, “Okay, Hometown and School.”

“Wycoff, New Jersey, and Washington High School,” he said and smiled wondering what Joe was like in school. Of when he must’ve been little, like 4th grade with his little glasses, taking a spelling test in the classroom, “School sports?” he asked and actually had to think for a moment. God, I was forgetting. Geeze, this was not good.

“Captain and Foward for the Varsity soccer team, and pitcher, catcher, and 3rd base in Varsity Softball,” I explained happily, and he nodded, and I looked at him waiting for him to answer.

“Mid on Varsity Soccer,” he said and I thought he’d say something else but that seemed to be all coming so I didn’t push it, “ummm... tv, what do you usually watch?”

“Actually, I don’t really watch tv, but when I do, umm... Family Guy, soccer, or baseball really” I said and he smiled down to me.

“Soccer fan huh? Favorite player?”

“Players, umm, Cristiano Ronaldo, Fabregas, Van Persie, Neville, you?”

“Henry, Gerard, Ballack,” he said and I gave a pained expression, and pulled away from him, he looked at me weird, “what?”

“You’re a Chelsea fan,” I said acting disgusted and kept my distance. I was only joking around and it was nice that he caught on so fast.

“Hey, You’re a United fan but I was willing to get past it,” he said holding out his arms, and I shook my head in disappointment, “it’s a shame. We could’ve had something special,” he hung his head, and I crossed my arms.

“I know, but I just can’t be seen with you,” I said pretending to tear up. He moved closer.

“I know it’s hard, but we can get through this is we can just put it aside,” he said and went for my hand.

“I can’t,” I said and shook my head pulling my hand away. I was kidding, but I could bear to hold his hand, because then my shivers and goose bumps would be obvious. He sighed and looked around, and then tapped my shoulder.

“We’ve got an audience,” I tried to concentrate as the whispered breath laid on my ear and sent worse shivers than could’ve possibly showed up if he held my hand, but I suppressed them thankfully.

“Huh?” I asked and looked around us to see a group of girls standing behind us whispering. I could hear them talking.

Is that Joe Jonas?

Yeah it’s him, oh my god, he’s so hot

oh I know, but who’s that chick he’s with?

Girlfriend possibly?

Nahh, doubt it. She’s not his type

that’s right he likes preps,

and she definitely doesn’t look like the kind he’d pick.

Me and Joe listened to their conversation, and I couldn’t help but feel a pang of pain as their words sunk in. Was I not good enough. I looked down towards the floor, and my face must’ve been obvious, because Joe leaned down my ear again and whispered. A bittersweet torture, “Play along,” was all he whispered and he grabbed my hand, and brung it to his lips, turning to me so they could see his gesture. Oh God. Even it was pretend, I silently wished that those girls would be on our train so he could keep this act.

I turned my head to face him stealing a quick glance at the girls behind us as Joe turned to the look around, his fingers laced with my mine. I gave them a nice smile that was answered with a half of one.

How nice.

I turned back around and leaned into Joe as he took his hand from my grasp and slid it around my shoulders, pulling me to him. I looked down smiling to myself. I looked up to Joe, and he gave me a warm smile.

“Where we headed?” I asked noticing that we’ve been blindly walking for about ten minutes, but Joe knew exactly where we were and where we were going.

“It’s right over there,” he said pointing to hallway soon coming up. I could hear the two girls giggle and laugh as the approached us on Joe’s side, and the walked into pace for a minute or so, and kept giving Joe flirty looks, he just gave a simple smile and pulled me closer, but they didn’t notice. They just kept giving me glares. I felt uncomfortable so I simply tried to hide myself from their view using Joe as a shield. He chuckled at me a little and refused for me to hide myself.

I didn’t exactly like being not liked, so this kinda irritated me. And I gave him a weird look and he winked as if something were coming. I looked towards our gate for the train and it was not too far away. I bet the girls were still walking into pace but when I turned around to look my lips caught his softly, and only for a slow moment. If that was possible. I felt a shudder escape my body and my shoulders clenched as I felt his tilted head remove from mine. I blushed and just leaned on him. He smiled and the girls huffed and walked away. Once they were out of earshot, we separated and laughed at how mad they got. Even though I was laughing, I could help but still feel the residue of the shivers from when his lips were attached to mine.

“This way,” he said as if nothing happened and he were completely fine. I took a good look at him, and notice that he looked a bit rattled as well. He noticed my reddened cheeks and gave and embarrassed look, “I’m sorry, if that was awkward for you, but it seemed the best way to get them to go away.”

“No, no , it okay. Smooth move Don Juan,” I said skipped in front of him, walking backwards a bit, and Joe laughed until I saw his eyes widened and he rushed over to me. It seems me being the extremely smart one, I forgot there were stairs there, and he rushed over grabbed the rail and slid a hand around my waist pulling me back from falling.

“Oh my god,” I breathed and Joe laughed at me, I was still startled and I rested my head on his shoulder and hugged him, “Thank God for Don Juan.”

“I should’ve let you fall,” he joked and I laughed as he let go of me, and we walked down the stairs and onto the train.


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“Shit, she won’t answer her damn phone,” Riley said closing his silver RAZR after his fourth attempt at calling Roxanne.
“Neither will Joe,” Kevin said terminating the phone call on his sidekick, “I sent him a text saying to call me when he finally stops hitting on Roxanne.”

“What?!” exclaimed Tristan, Matt, and Julian with shocked expressions. Nick and Kevin just looked at each other and laughed.

“You didn’t know that?” Nick asked and each boy silently nodded his head, “She’s all he talks about lately. He doesn’t stop about how ‘her eyes remind him of the leaves on trees’, and ‘the waves in her hair remind of him of waves in the ocean’ its sick man.”

“And those are direct quotes,” Kevin said nodding stating the facts.

“Dear Jesus,” Tristan said putting a hand on his forehead. Matt stood with his hands on his hips, and Julian hung his head down low. Riley just tried to look like an innocent victim, this Tristan noticed, “what’s that look for?” he asked.

“Nothing,” Riley replied and began to fiddle with his camera. Each boy had removed their sunglasses as they sat in the Starbucks on Lexington.

“Liar,” Matt accused and Riley sighed.

“Alright fine. She told me they met, and so she sorta likes him too,” Riley said and the Jonas boys smiled, while the others just widened their eyes.

Their little Roxanne was sorta kinda...on a date.


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Ch6

I can’t say that the kiss wasn’t awkward. Because well... it was. But another thing that assured me that me and Joe’s friendship was reliable was that we were able to shrug it off without anything really being awkward. After all it was just an act. Even if the act had given me shudders, and made me freeze up with completely joy and bewilderment.

We had sat on the surprisingly somewhat empty train going Uptown, and listened to his iPod. We had similar music taste and that made me even more happy, and even more enchanted by him. I mean, this was perfect. He was gorgeous, he was funny, we had similar tastes [minus that fact that he’s a Chelsea fan and we clicked. We continued up where we left off on the game of twenty questions, and I learned that he was born August 15th, he was one year older, his favorite sport to play is Wiffle Ball, he favorite color was blue, he was a Leo, he was born in Arizona, his named his guitar the Black Pearl, he loved to make movies, and go jogging. He learned that my birthday was March 15th, I was a year younger, I loved to draw and write, my favorite color was yellow, I love listening to music, and driving around, and I often just bugged out for no reason. Among other things.

“Okay, the next questions the last one. Last relationship, good or bad?” he asked as the train kept stopping people kept exiting, and soon there was only two other people on the train besides us. It was nice. So here we sat with only four stops to go, and he sat normal, but I took the liberty of sprawling my legs across his thighs as we got more comfortable around each other. At the end of his question my insides churned a bit and I shifted a bit. Christian. He noticed, “I’m sorry,” he said as if he could read my mind, “You don’t have to answer if you don’t want.”

“No no, it’s fine,” I said sitting up a bit, and clearing my throat, “My last boyfriend Christian and I just completely rushed into things. We didn’t really get to know each other. We were so caught up in that attraction thing that we didn’t really talk that much. I didn’t know his birthday, his sister’s names, his favorite color, how he felt about things, or how he felt about me at all,” I explained looking up at Joe with a half smile, it seemed as if he were actually listening. Which filled my insides with happiness. Anytime I’d talk to Christian he’d end up falling asleep. How sweet. But Joe’s face just looked as if it were taking in a relishing every word I was saying, he also gave me sad look, “I don’t we just rushed into too many things.”

“What do you mean too many things?” he asked, and I looked up at him, and he smacked himself, “sorry ,that’s really none of my business,” he said laughing at himself, and I put a hand on his shoulder.

“No, no it’s fine. It’s just I don’t really trust a lot of people to keep my secret,” I said and I could tell from his facial expression that he knew exactly what I meant, but he didn’t seem to believe it.

“I would never tell a soul. I’m a good secret keeper,” he said and smiled proudly like a five year old boy who had just been given candy, “you did? I mean...” he motioned his hand as to say ‘go all the way’ and I sadly nodded.

“I’ve never really regretted much in my life, but I wish that I could just go back and never have done it in the first place. I gave it up for someone I thought loved me and he never even had an inch of the same feelings as I had, and I was blind to it. I was an idiot-“

“You weren’t an idiot, Rox. You were just kinda you know, entrapped in a picture that you wanted to see. It’s not you’re fault. It happens to everyone who falls in love. Now you may not be able to you know...get it back, but you can clear the fact that I happened from your mind and start over,” he spoke trying to make me feel better, he gave me a sincere smile, “soon enough you’ll find someone who is actually worth it, and you’ll know it’s real when you see them. The look in their eyes, you’ll know,” he spoke and I smiled at him.

“You know you wouldn’t be half bad at that whole motivational speaker thing,” I said playfully punching his shoulder.

“I’m Joe Jonas man, I can do anything,” he said nodding with a smile. I poked his side at his cockiness, and he giggled and squirmed like a little girl, and I laughed even harder.

“Someone’s a little cocky huh?” I said he just pretended to flex his arm muscles like he was some big bad body builder. I took his arm and put it down and back on my legs that laid over his, “you’re turn, last relationship good or bad?”

“Eh, it was okay. You heard of Aly, and Aj right?” I nodded, “well I was going out with Aj, and things were good at first, but I don’t know, we were about a month and half into the relationship and she said she wasn’t happy anymore and she left me for some Cody kid that was on some Disney channel show,” he said looking down playing with his fingers, and the side stitching on my jeans. So he’d been in just as much pain as I had.

“I’m so sorry Joe,” I said lending a hand to his shoulder. He gave me a smile.

“It’s okay, I think I’m better off now, it’s a less stress waking up every morning and calling her not knowing if she’s gonna be happy or mad at me. It’s nice, now I can just be me,” he said getting in my face and screwing up his. I laughed and gently pushed it away. We had one stop till we were there. I felt comfortable telling Joe things, I didn’t know why, it was just like he was always there to listen.

We had lunch at a subway near-by where I had the italian BMT without the T [T for tomatoes, and Joe had a chicken cutlet thingy with mayo, what appeared to be his favorite. After which we walked around to some music shops were I bought some CDs, and we both bought a couple band t-shirts. I got another Incubus shirt to add to the collection, a Sublime and a Paramore t-shirt. Oh and a Jonas Brother’s t-shirt that Joe insisted on buying for me. I couldn’t help but laugh, as he tried on some of the girl t-shirts and pranced around like a model, the faces and all. He laughed at himself, and changed back into his clothes. He himself picked up a Switchfoot shirt, a Copeland shirt, and I myself bought him a black Police shirt to remember me by. He laughed at this and promised me he would wear it the next time he saw me. I laughed and agreed that I’d wear the JB shirt next time I saw him as well. We took pictures, and actually even made a video that we decided to call ‘Journey into the Outside World’ where we went around to different places and described everything in fake fancy British accents, and then pretended do run away from a group of dogs that a lady was walking. Soon I think the lady began to follow us just for fun. I definitely wanted that video once he put it on a computer.

We continued on and it was getting dark on the city, and this meant that we had to find the guys. I took out my enV and Joe immediately snatched it from my hand.

“This is sooo cool,” he gushed flipping it open, and I smiled as he seemed at the gizmo, “Well someone is popular,” he said and I peered over to the phone in his hands to see why. I had 4 texts and 5 missed calls. Shit.

“Shitttt,” I said and grabbed it back from my hand and check to see who is was, “4 missed calls and 3 missed texts from the guys, and a call from my mommy and a text from my brother.”

“Geeze if you have that then Kev and Nick must’ve tried to,” he said and pulled the sidekick from his pocket. This confused me, why he was so amazed by the enV when he a phone like the sidekick, “yup 3 texts, 2 calls. We’re in for it.”

“Ah, its okay. It was worth it. I got a friend out of today,” I said putting the phone up to my ear as it called Matt. Joe just looked down to me and smiled.

“Ditto,” he said and smiled as we stood on the curb for a moment. I heard the phone finally start ringing on the other side and I looked around the street. From not too far away I could see a man in a green jacket snapping pictures by a fruit stand not too far away. I turned to look at Joe to see if he noticed but he was yapping away on the phone.

“Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know... no she’s here... she’s fine! I didn’t do anything to her! She’s not weirded out...no Kev. Fine, yeah, yeah, we’ll hitch a cab...sure...okay, bye,” he said and hung up the phone, as I slipped mine back in my pocket, “They’re freaking out of course. They think I’ve contaminated you or something.”

“Awww, poor Joey Boey,” I said giving him a hug and then pulling back and stepping into the street a little, raising my hand and ailing a cab. As one pulled up, and Joe raised his eyebrows.

“My kinda woman,” he said and I laughed as he followed me into the cab as we headed for the HSBC bank in Midtown.


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“Where have you been?!” Julian gushed and hugged me tightly.
“If you’d let breath I’d tell you,” I managed to get out from the inside of his tight embrace. He let go slowly and blurted out a sorry, and the boys surrounded me swarming with questions and I just sat there and took them in, and watched over their shoulders as Joe chatted with his brothers, about something I couldn’t hear. I sighed, and waited until the boys were done with the whole ‘worried protective brother’ scheme, but I assured them Joe was a good guys, but in the middle of my speech the limo rolled up and Ronny rolled the window down.

“Ready kids?” he asked sending them a smile. The boys all nodded, and turned to Nick, Joe, and Kevin doing that guy handshake-hug thingy, or just plain handshakes. I walked over to Kevin and Nick and gave them hugs goodbye even though I didn’t really see them today, and then I turned to Joe, and he pretended to cry. Something he was surprisingly good at.

“Awww, Joe don’t cry,” I said and gave him a hug. I could feel him smile into my shoulder as he bent down a bit, he held me tighter, and tighter and lifted me off the ground receiving a squeal from me, “Agh my ear,” he complained and I just hugged him tight as well.

“Give me a call best friend okay? I need to see you soon,” I said as he let me down, I smiled, and so did he.

“I will, let me know what you’re doing tomorrow,” he said as I began to walk towards the open door of the limo.

“Okay. Bye guys,” I said and hopped in the limo and noticed that the guys were all giving me looks, “We’re just good friends,” I said taking out my iPod and turning ‘Please Be Mine’ on.


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Matt, Tristan, Julian, Riley and myself as squashed onto my bed close to each other as we watched The Hills Have Eyes 2, with the bucket of popcorn in my arms. Now these boys may try to be big strong men when they go to see scary movies with girls but as we watched this movie they were just like me. We all jumped and covered our eyes.

We were still not far from the beginning when it was silent as a girl walked along the mountain top, it was quiet. And out of nowhere my phone screams out my Gavin Rossdale ringtone, and vibrates in front of us, and we all screamed bloody murder, until we realized that it was my phone. We all let out a thankful sigh, and I grabbed my phone and seeing that I had a text message I opened it without looking at who it was.

Hello beautiful, how’s it going?

I blushed a bit because I wasn’t used to people calling me beautiful and looked to see who it was, and I saw that it was Joe. I smiled and then pressed reply.

Hey stud, not too bad watching a movie, how’s home sweet home?

I closed the phone and put it on silent and held it in the dark, and continued on with the movie. Not even two minutes later the phone lit up in my hands, and I could see the boys heads turn in the direction of the bright phone. They looked at me as I opened it.

Not too bad, it’s nice seeing everyone after so long. My little brother’s handful though, how about you?

I laughed and quickly replied then slipped it back into my hand, and not even a minute later the phone lit up again.

“What the hell Rox?!” Julian finally came out and said out loud and the guys paused the movie, and turned to me.

“Just call whoever it is, and we’ll start the movie from where we left off when you get back,” Tristan said and they all proceeded to push me off the bed, and I stumbled off, and onto the floor as they pressed play.

“Fine,” I said with a pout, and I walked out into the hallway of my house almost running into my little brother James.

“Hey kiddo,” I said passing him, and he gave me a head nod, while playing with his new Hotwheels car that my mom had bought him earlier today on a trip to Toys R’ US. She told me it was hell. I continued on down the hallway down into my room and plopped down on my bed with my phone. I opened my phone contact book and pressed J. It gave me Jay, Jake, Jeanine, Jennifer, Jeremy, Joe, and Jon. I scrolled down to Joe and pressed the green button for call. After a few rings he answered.

“Helllllllllllooo, Joe’s cesspool clean-up,” someone answered who wasn’t Joe, I immediately laughed at the answer he gave me, and I began to answer.

“This is Roxanne, is Joe there?” I asked.

“Oh hey, it’s Kevin,” the voice replied. I’d only talked to him once but he seemed cool.

“Hey, what’s up?” he proceeded to tell me that they had just had dinner, and now the three of them were hanging upstairs in Joe’s room playing Xbox360 but right now Joe was in the bathroom, “Ohh, gotcha. Whatcha playing?”

“Guitar hero dos,” he replied and I gasped, and replied that I loooooove that game, “So do we. You any good?”

“Eh, I’m only on expert mode,” I said letting that little cockiness slip out, but only in a joking matter.

“Oh well someone’s a big shot. You know we’ll have to have a contest, because I am the undisputed champ of New Jersey,” Kevin said and I laughed, and told him to bring it on. He was about to continue when I heard some yelling and someone snatched the phone, “Roxanne! Don’t...l-let him...brainwash youuuuu,” I heard Kevin say in the background, and I could also hear Joe yelling at him, faintly in the background I heard Kevin say, “agh, hold on you’ll get to talk to your girlfriend in a minute,” and I immediately flushed, after that all I heard was Kevin yelp in pain, “h-hello?” came Joe’s voice.

“God what’d you do, kill the poor kid?” I spoke into the phone laying back onto my pillow and playing with my panda bear.

“Nope just a couple bruises,” he replied his breath skipped as if he’d just plopped down on something.

“Hmm, says the guy who would doesn’t beat up on his brothers,” I retorted using the fact that I picked up that fact with our first...scratch that second meet.

“Only when they have something that I want,” he emphasized the only part, and in the background I could hear Kevin laughing like a maniac, “Maybe I should go in the other room.”

“Well, that madman might get you so that might be a good idea,” I laughed and he agreed, and told me to hold on while he attempted to make it past the madman’s barriers. But from what I heard that wasn’t before he got tripped, “You okay champ?”

“Ten four captain, okay, and I am in Nick’s room and I must say, I am scared of what I might find,” he told me as he made the breathing sound as if plopped down on more furniture.

“Just don’t go looking and you’ll be okay,” I assured him as I took a good look at my nails. They were getting a bit long for my liking.

“Eh, I don’t need to go looking, it’ll probably find me,” he replied and I laughed a bit. “So how’s the family?”

“They’re good, the Mom won’t stop telling me to watch myself in the industry, and my dads just flipping that we finally got the deal. My brother is downstairs. I talked with him about everything. He’s still kinda in shock about how fast things are going, and my little brother is just, well he doesn’t notice, and the guys are here screaming like girls in the other room,” I explained and I heard him laugh a bit.

“That’s all good to hear but why are they screaming?” he asked with a chuckle.

“They watching the Hills Have Eyes 2, they’re little girls deep down,” I replied looking up to my ceiling.

“Wow,” was all he said for a moment, and we were both silent. I wanted to say something for a moment but couldn’t pick a topic to start on, so I decided to bring up the whole ‘Kevin called me his girlfriend’ thing, but it seemed he decided to talk at the same time.

“So umm-“

“Can I-“ we both laughed at our similar thoughts, and went silent again, “you go first,” he said and I silently hit myself. Ugh, I didn’t want to ask him and make him feel uncomfortable with our friendship, I mean yeah, he’s gorgeous, but I don’t want anything to ruin out friendship, and plus I’ve only known him like what? Two days? Its just kinda fast. I mean sure, if he asked I wouldn’t say no, but it’d be awkward because we haven’t had that extension of time together, “Roxanne? You still there?”

“O-Oh uh, yeah, I-I’m still here,” I said a bit shakily, “How about you go first instead eh?” I could hear his voice choke up, and I knew he was just as nervous about the topic we were about to touch on right now.

“You’re not getting off that easy, you go first kiddo,” he chuckled back and I gave a half laugh, and tried to bestow myself, you know, put myself together, be Roxanne.

“So, Kevin thinks I’m your girlfriend huh? Got a secret you’re not telling me buddy?” I joked, and I could hear him chuckle in the background.

“You’ve caught me,” he joked, “I want you, I need you, oh baby, oh baby,” I laughed at his lovable ‘10 Things I Hate About You’ quote.

“I did, I did,” I said like tweety with a smile.

“When’s the next time I’m gonna see you sunshine?” he asked me and I thought about it for a moment, and then thought of Bamboozle.

“Are you guys going to Bamboozle?” I asked and he snorted on the other side.

“Of course! We’re in it,” he replied and I immediately wondered why if we were in the show, I didn’t know that they were as well.

“Really? So are we,” I said and he laughed.

“Nice, so I’m guess I’m gonna see in two days,” he replied as if he were sad.

“Why so glum perk boy?” I asked and he laughed immediately replied.

“What the hell is a perk boy?” he asked and I laughed as a reply, “anyways...” he stopped as I continued to laugh. I caught my breath and began to speak.

“You can watch me on tv tomorrow,” I said and he told me to continue, “we’re going on TRL tomorrow because the video is coming out, so you can watch me on tv.”

“Oooo, sounds good. Where are you guys gonna be staying?” he asked me and I thought about it.

“In the city I think, we still got our hotel room that we stayed in yesterday,” I replied and he made the ‘mhm’ sound.

“Well, how about after TRL, I take my girlfriend out to dinner,” he asked and even though I knew it wasn’t what he meant, but it was nice to pretend you know.

“Sounds good, but aren’t you in Wycoff?” I asked. Wycoff was a ways away from the city. I wonder how long it would take to get there.

“Yes I am missy,” he replied and I thought about it. It was nice that’d he take the time to come to the city, take me out to dinner and then go home, but it was a lot of driving.

“That’s a looott of driving mister, are you really up for it?” I asked him, and he made a skeptical noise.

“Eh, I’m willing to, if you want to,” he said and it felt nice that someone was going to go through trouble to come and see me, but I didn’t want to you know, impose.

“I do, but I don’t want to make you drive all the way over here,” he made the skeptical noise again like he didn’t care, and I thought for a moment, “How far is Wycoff from the Bamboozle sight?”

“Umm, about a half hour why?” he replied quickly.

“Maybe we could just switch hotels, and stay somewhere in Jersey, it’d be easier right?” I suggested, and I could practically hear his excitement through the line.

“Yeah, I think so. There’s a Hilton in the next town over, if you want I can get the number,” I made the noise to say ‘no it’s okay’.

“Me and Johnny’ll work it out, umm, I’m gonna go tell the guys, but after TRL tomorrow, I’ll call you okay?” I said realizing that I should probably get off the phone and back to the guys.

“Okay, let me know if you guys work it out,” he said and nodded to myself.

“Yeah, definitely,” I pulled the phone back and looked at how long me and Joe’ve been on the phone. Thirty-four minutes, Jesus the guys are gonna kill me, “we’ve been on the phone for about a half hour or so. We’re losers, I’ve gotta go check on my boys and make sure they haven’t pissed their diapers,” he laughed at this, and said okay.

“I’ll talk to you tomorrow girlfriend,” he joked once more.

“Okay, I love you boyfriend,” I replied, and he laughed.

“Love you too loser, goodnight,” he said with a chuckle.

“Night,” I said and hung up and pressed the end button with a smile.

“You are so in love with him,” I heard Hayden say from my door way, and I just smiled hugging my stuffed panda close to me, all the while wishing it was him.

End Ch6

Ch7

“And we’re back on TRL and we are here with Atrophy, who will soon be premiering the video for their hit single ‘Misery Business’ but right now we are just gonna catch up with the band,” I watched as Damian spoke into the camera and me and the guys looked at each other but then the camera guy waved for us to look and we all turned, “welcome, it’s a pleasure to have you all here,” Damian said again looking at me for a little bit long than I’d felt comfortable with before his gaze switched.

“It’s awesome to be here,” Matt shouted looking around to the crowd who cheered. I looked around with a smile. I noticed that a lot of guys in the audience were giving me an eye. An eye like Joe did when I first met him.

“Now you’re new album comes out in next week, how are you guys feeling?”

The guys looked at me. I guess it was my time to answer, “We’re really stoked about it, I think we’re all still in shock that this is happening,” I said looking to the guys who nodded.

“I can imagine, well we just wanted to ask you all some questions,” Damian said smiling as he looked at his cue cards. He began, and we got some weird questions. Some girls wanted to know what deodorant the guys used, and some guy wanted to know what perfume I wore. I was weirded out but insisted that my favorite was either ‘Love Spell’ ‘Amber Romance’ from Victoria’s Secret, or ‘Chance’ by Chanel. One question that came next was if any of us were involved with anyone. Tristan of course, spoke about but Mina, kindly not mentioning her name, and the girls in the audience frowned. Matt assured that he was single, and Julian revealed that he was dating someone, which I knew to be Tinsley. Then it was my turn.

“Not at the moment, I am not dating anyone, no,” I said with a laugh, and Julian nudged my arm at the guys in the audience who were grinning from ear to ear. The audience ‘oOo’ed and I shook my head with a laugh.

“Actually a couple fans in the audience today, wanted me to ask about a picture that has surfaced on the internet,” Damian said motioning for us to turn to the t.v. screen. My facial expression definitely expressed my surprise. These were from yesterday! I looked at them with a crooked smile, they were of me and Joe walking in Uptown. One was taken from the side. He had his arm around my shoulders, and we were laughing. He had just told about he raps, and I couldn’t help but laugh at the thought of him rapping. It was... awkward.

“Oh,” was all I said as another popped up on the screen, where Joe and me were making the ‘Journey’ video, and I was video taping him inspecting an apple. The audience laughed at his face. The next one popped up and it was when I actually saw the photographer, and Joe was on the phone. The tv froze on that picture, and they all turned to me, “Well actually that’s nothing. I’d met him at this festival and we’re just good friends, actually we all are,” I said turning to the three boys beside me, and they nodded, “we had all gotten separated yesterday and me and Joe were on our way back to find them,” I explained and they all nodded.

“Can we expect any sparks between you two in the future?” Damian asked, and I shrugged, “we’re just good friends,” I replied and they seemed thankfully satisfied with that answer.

“You heard it people, Atrophy and Jonas Brothers buddies,” Damian said and turned to us, “So here it is, the hit single’s new video, here is Atrophy’s ‘Misery Business’, it was great having you guys here.”

“Thanks for having us,” Tristan said and we all nodded, shaking Damian’s hand as the camera faded out and the video went up on the screen behind us. While the video was on we had time to sign some autographs for fans, and then we made our way out of the building but had to stop and wait for out pictures that we took in the photo booth before we went on camera. They were funny we all took some together, and then paired off taking one picture with each person.

As we were making our way down to our limo, I pulled out my phone and trailed a little bit behind the guys as they talked about how insane it is to finally have their video on TRL, I took this time to call Joe.

“Hello gorgeous, I just saw you on tv,” I heard Joe say from the other side of the phone.

“Thanks stud, technically I saw you too,” I replied mentioning the pictures, and I heard him groan from the other side, “I know, I know.”

“And someone saw me and didn’t tell me huh?” he said referring to me and the picture where I was looking straight at the camera, “My mom and dad wouldn’t stop questioning me. ‘Who’s that?’ ‘Ooh why she’s pretty Joseph’ ‘is she your girlfriend?’ blah blah blah,” he mocked in a parental tone, switching back and forth for what would be his dad and mom. I laughed a bit on my side, as we exited the TRL building and a round of screaming fans almost mauled us as we tried to get in the car. Flashes went off, so I just smiled a big grin.

“Haha, sounds like trouble for you, I’m probably in for mine when I get home,” I kinda yelled into the phone over all the screaming.

“Sounds like you’re a big over beared right now, should I call you back?” he asked laughing at me.

“No, no it’s fine, we’re getting into the car now,” I said as I slid onto a seat in the limo.

“So you didn’t tell me you saw a photographer, you little pancake licker,” he said and I raised my eyebrows at his name.

“Pancake licker? Alright, well I didn’t tell you because if you notice in the background of that photo, you were on the phone, and I don’t know I just forgot to tell you,” I said shrugging as the guys all got in as well, and closed the door.

“Likely story. You know, I’m beginning to believe that you wanted those photos to come out so people would actually think we’re dating. I know you want me Roxanne, all you need to do is tell me,” he said and I laughed to myself. He was such a...arg I couldn’t find a good name for him.

“Damnit Joe, you’ve found out my plan. I want you’re bod okay? However will I keep going on with my life knowing that it’s all ruined now?” I said dramatically, and he laughed on the other side, and sighed.

“Well, we could run away, take a raft and float off the coast, elope in Hawaii, and make little Hawaiian babies there until we get old and pruny, and if you divorce me I’ll.. I’ll kill you, with mah gun. And then I'm gonna, put you in the trunk of my car, and drag you to the desert. And then I'm gonna bring you back home, and make sure your okay because I love you ,” he replied the end with a gangster voice and I laughed out loud in the limo making the guys turn to me from the tv as they watched the Yankee game that was on t.v.