Alright, in short, I'm using this thread to write bare unedited ideas for a story or multiple stories so I can keep track of them. Read if you want, but I'm not looking for critiquing.

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As I grew older I realized something every child eventually realizes. Not as fancy as the sweet sixteen car or the twenty-one keg, but still, it was a timeline splotch in life that every child realizes at one point I suppose. Being a rather large disappointment it isn't the sort of thing one would look forward to or know about through media until after it happens. Sort of like learning that the jolly fat man's not the one leaving packages under the tree, and there's no magic bunny deranged enough to hide chicken eggs on your lawn. Although, you still get the presents year after year, and I suppose you get the eggs too if you want them, my realization didn't change anything around me; it only gave me a pessimistic view of it while altering my personality indefinitely.

What was this realization you might ask?

It was the realization that I'm not going to grow up to be the president, that when mommy and daddy no longer dictate my actions (something I truly looked forward to) the government would do so instead. The realization that I'm not going to be a famous millionaire with a thirty inch waist and a hot car parked in front of my mansion that I own with a famous actor. The understanding that I will spend the rest of my life working my ass off nine to five to earn a paycheck that will immediately go to taxes, house payments, car payments, and other bills.

"That's just how it is."

I'm agreeing fully with what my parents told me, I'm just not liking it. It's nothing like the 'you can do anything or be anything' fairytale I was promised as a child. I miss putting cookies out for Santa and searching for fairies in grandma's garden. Sure, I can still look for them, but it's not the same when reality tells you they just aren't there.

Oh, but it gets better. I began to understand the world is give and take, and that your value as a person is determined by society as how useful you are to society. Of course, anyone would like someone more the more they got from them. ~to be continued... maybe...~