He shook his head and looked over. I followed his gaze and there was Hyde standing there looking off into space. I sighed and scratched my arm. I looked out the window and saw snow falling silently. Yukihiro looked off his face conflicting with something. Suddenly his cell phone rang and he jumped up and answered it. He told the person to hold on and he looked at him asking me if he could leave, I nodded. He walked out and I could hear a sigh of relief. He had been acting strange since they started going out about two months ago. Hyde moved forward and sat down on the chair next to me.
“I’m sorry.” He said not looking at me but out the window.
“Why?” I looked at him. He was acting just as strange as Yukihiro.
“Yukihiro wanted to come over early but I wanted to call Airen and she had a lengthy break up story.” I looked at him. Airen was his newest girlfriend, they started dating the day after me and Yuki hooked up.
“Did she break up with you?” He nodded sighing lightly. I moved over, pain shot through me but I hugged Hyde.
“I’m so sorry.” He smiled and hugged me back. I looked up and saw Yukihiro in the doorway watching me and Hyde with fury in his eyes. He moved forward and grabbed Hyde. He pulled him outside and started yelling at him.
“She’s MY girlfriend! Just because Airen broke up with you, you don’t have to go for mine!”
“What does a hug say to you that makes you think I’m trying to take her from you?”
“You were holding her too much! I see the way you look at her! I’m not dumb!”
“You’re right you’re not dumb, YOU’RE BEYOND IT!! I KNOW WHO CALLS YOU AND I’VE SEEN THE HURT IN HER EYES WHEN YOU LEAVE TO MEET HER!!”
“LEAVE RAIN OUT OF THIS! SHE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS!” ‘Rain?’ She was one of my friends and was one of the few who kept me together with my boyfriends.
“NO! SHE HAS MORE TO THIS THAN ANYTHING! YOU ARE SO INSECURE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO KEEP ANDRIN AND RAIN AND YOU’RE AFRAID ANDRIN WILL FIND OUT AND DUMP YOU!” My mouth hung open and tears came to my eyes. ‘No…NO!’ I yelled at myself. ‘Of course, how could I have been so dumb? She hung all over him all the time and I was them kiss that night.’ Yukihiro came in and looked at me.
“What?” My voice held poison. He looked at me surprised that I could have any malice to me.
“It’s not what you think.”
“And what do I think? You know I saw you kiss her, but I thought it was just her, not you! Thanks for breaking the only stability I ever had. Leave I don’t want to see your face again for a long time!” He stood froze then silently moved out. Hyde walked in and looked at me apologetically.
“It’s not your fault. I’m glad that I didn’t walk in on them or something like that.” Bella walked in and looked at me confused. Hyde moved to the door and walked out closing it behind him. Bella sat next to me wondering what had happened. She held a bouquet of white lilies.
“Why did I see Yukihiro crying?” I sighed as a few more tears fell.
“Rain and…he were cheating behind my back. I dumped him.” She nodded and got up.
“I’m going to get a vase for these. I’ll be back.” She then stopped and got out my Ipod and handed it to me. I turned it on and went to ‘What hurts the most’ by Rascal Flatts. Tears fell freely. Hyde walked in again a doctor behind him. The doctor talked to Hyde and he nodded. The doctor left and Hyde looked at me.
“You’re free to go. I was wondering if you would like to come over to my house for a little. The cops don’t exactly want you to go home until they know who had done that to your door.” I nodded and turned off my Ipod. Bella came back without a vase or flowers. I looked at her and she smiled weakly at me. She knew I wouldn’t want anything that would remind me of Yukihiro. Those flowers were as white as snow. Yuki did mean snow. Hyde helped me up and Bella caught my stumble. They got me from the bed and helped me out of the hospital. Hyde picked me up when he saw the snow and I was too weak to walk. We stopped at his car and he helped me in. Bella waved bye as Hyde got in and started up the car. We drove away and the journey was silent because I fell asleep from the extreme emotional stress I had gone through. I woke up just as Hyde pulled me out of his car. He unlocked his door and he took me in. He laid me down on the couch and began to rummage through his kitchen.
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.” He put water into an electric kettle. He came back after he set down two glasses next to the kettle. He sat down next to me and I smiled.
“It seems both our relationships are over.” He nodded.
“It’s my fault.” I laughed at him tears falling form my eyes.
“It’s mine. He was obviously not happy enough with me that he needed someone else. I tried loving him, but my heart didn’t want him it wanted someone else.” He looked at me then looked away after awhile. He nodded. Both our hearts had longed for someone else. The kettle let out a clicking sound and Hyde walked back and filled up the cups with it and added hot chocolate to the mix. He mixed it and handed it to me. I nodded in thanks and he smiled. I took a sip and sighed. We drank it in silence and only now and then one of us would sigh. I finished mine and set it on the coffee table. I looked at the few cuts that would become scars. I looked at my tattered clothes and sighed.
“Hyde do you have an outfit I could wear?” He nodded and got up. He walked to his room and emerged with a pair of baggy pant and a large shirt. He helped to the bathroom and I shut the door on his face not wanting him to look at me. I pulled off me crapped clothes and changed. I opened the door and Hyde helped me back to the couch. We sat and I smiled happy to be in clean clothes and the warmth that came from Hyde and his heater. He pulled me over so his arm was wrapped around my waist and my head leaning on his shoulder. He leaned his head on mine and we both closed our eyes. I was happy for once considering what had happened.
“Who will be my pillow if I fall?
Who will be the one to be my balance beam?
Who will be the one to tell me everything will be ok, when nothing all right?
Who will be the one to hold me, protect me from my nightmares?
Who will be the one to carry me home at night when I’m too tired to walk?
Who will be the one to find my way in the darkness?
Who will be the one to love this fragile life?
Who will be the one who loves me?
It was fate meeting you
It was a choice becoming your friend
But falling in love with you was beyond…
My control.” The words to my poem came out from my mouth as a few tears fell. –d-

My dreams were an endless void of the pain I've suffered for years. The death of my brother, my parent's constant fights, my almost friendless existence, and my broken heart. I woke up with a start as my mind fell to what had happened the day of my broken door. Hyde had taken us to his bed and laid me down next to him. I looked around frantic of my sudden surroundings.