My Dearest Love

How I hope that my premonitions are not to come true,
For if they do I will surely loose you.
It begins in my dreams where I see these visions of terror,
thus leaving my soul to be the bearer of everyone's errors.
I am infamous to many, but I am also unknown by all,
so where do I fall?
The darkness is completely surrounding me,
so how can this be that I can see so profoundly.
Left to wander through this enclouded shroud,
and yet I am able to still walk proud.
Everyone is around me, and yet nobody's there,
not anyone who would truly care.
I open my eyes to see only this surreality.
No seemings of practicality.
What do I do ?
Or am I just misconstrued?
Looking, & searching for that one true soul
that will make my destiny whole.
Who will take this role?




Poisonous Darkness

Left to be consumed by the poisonous vapors that are surrounding me in this darkened hollow that is supposedly my soul .





The venom seeping into my veins I cant see anything but the crushing pitch black oblivion that is deeper then any known abyss. The noxious fumes derived from the fact that nobody understands, & so they are fronting a fictitious facade. They just take pills, and hold out hope that they will be able to through faith Have a reason to believe that everything is not for nothing.





I am however ensnared in the fact that I am the sister of nothing, and I
may seem like my hearts bleeding all over the floors but i never really got
to have a chance and I will never "front" any of the scenes that have been
provided to me even if you were to pay me everything , so it might seem
like I am a common criminal but I can not help it love is a blackened rose
with its many thorns which gives me evidence to believe that I was never
meant to have a chance. So everyone just wants to dis me, and they can dis me all they want to, because you will never make me leave this darkness, &because nobody is going to help save me from this for nobody has given me any reasons to be able to believe.





I keep on taking in all of the hopeless& broken hearts that will make me disarm my self. All that hopelessness is definitely to be used as a mechanism for my will is going to turn making me choose ill intentions. The fact is I have my faith, and as it is in such a manner my faith is in this book, which was given to me for the use as it is like a gun that is pointed towards my enemies. They can keep on chasing after a fact that this is something they will be unable to kill.




For I am the one that has the capable use of a brain, and I am
forced to wear that responsibility upon my soul as a sleeve so if this is
what you are after then be warned, but you all may fire accordingly as your will deems necessary to you, because my will is not going to be beaten into this submission anymore it does not have the intentions of taking this anymore , and I don't plan on leaving its core open for the duration of the attempts from people that are boring in, however, mine is that which is to be the will that is forced to stay sitting and waiting in this my poisonous darkness.





There is more I am just new here. so I am not sure how things work quite what is allowed.