This is going to be a collective of my works. I'll post each one separately. I do like feedback, so tell me what you love or hate about them.

*{{Breathing Deeply}}*

Smiles replace Sadness
Laughs kill the Tears
You have to Know
You've killed my Fears

Lips like soft Rainfall
Eyes like Starlight
The only thing that scares Me...
Is I KNOW this is Right.

This is my Haven.
Your warm Embrace.
Every single Kiss.
Causes my heart to Race.

Words that I Fumble.
That cause you to Smile.
Nights that we've Spent.
Just talking for a While.

I told myself No
I begged to stay Away
But when one Knows
It can be no other Way

Breathing Deeply I Sigh
I don't need to promise - its True
The only words Tonight:
I simply love you

*{{/Breathing Deeply}}*

This style is called a Villanelle. It's a bit different, but it was for a college class I took.

I don't want to close my eyes.
What if I start to disbelieve?
I fear when I wake it will all be lies.

The worst part of this is all the goodbyes.
The tears I wipe on my sleeve.
I don't want to close my eyes.

Through the distance this feeling flies.
And they'll reach you at the end of this eve.
I fear when I wake it will all be lies.

And here as I look to the starry skies.
I know that you have to leave.
I don't want to close my eyes.

I bet you can imagine my surprise.
When a tangle in my heart you could weave.
I fear when I wake it will all be lies.

And before I know it I realize.
That this from you I receive.
I don't want to close my eyes.
I fear when I wake it will all be lies.

I'm Allowed to be Emo Sometimes...

And are we even living?
Denying ourselves the right to breathe
And stuttering under the consequences of an emphatic chaos.

Are we even thinking?
You ask me these questions
Mumbling your sweet incoherences
Preventing me from taking that fabled second-breath
And I die slowly from the pain of asphyxiation
Caused by the words you utter from those pale soft lips that I long to touch again

Can we keep a secret?
Hiding fables in shadows and cutting them off from the world
Living in the lies we surround ourselves with
Hoping they fall true all those tomorrows
But when we think about it
Just a pensieve moment of reprieve
We find that none of our dreams will become the reality we forsook

Are we a little jaded?
Dissipated and overwraught with sorrow.
Marking the words that we so long took to heart
the heart that you stabbed with your falsehoods
Causing me to break when I needed your touch the most.

This was after my mother passed away




Hello Again
I've written.
And erased.
I've erased.
And I've written.
I can't seem to get the words right.
To fit the tempo like a mitten.

I've thought.
And I've gave in.
I've gave in.
And I've thought.
I don't know anymore.
Whats worth the battle I've fought?

I've cried.
And I've pleaded.
I've pleaded.
And I've cried.
Why isn't God forgiving?
Why has everyone lied?

I've tore.
And I've bit.
I've bit.
And I've tore.
Why isn't the world as simple...?
And the books I have on lore?

I Knew.
And I raged.
I raged.
And I knew.
Some day some how
That I was gonna lose you

But dammit.
Why so soon?
Why didn't I have a chance?
Why didn't I get to say my goodbyes?
Why didn't I get to dance?
Why don't you get to see me.
And Why can't I see you?
Why would God take you?
Why would your absence be true?
Why can't I go back and save you?
Why do I dream so much?
Why is living a nightmare?
Why can't I feel your touch?
Why won't your voice reach me?
And who is there to blame?
Why is the sky crying with me?
Why don't I feel ashamed?
Why can't I remember?
The things of long ago?
How come you won't call me?
Even when I look at the phone?
Why am I here alone?
And why won't I let anyone close?
Oh why did they take you?
When I miss you the most?
What did you do to deserve it?
You were giving.
You were kind.
What kind of God would steal you?
What was running though his mind.
I was a loving daughter.
I just want to have a mom.
Someone to tell me stories.
Someone to hear my songs.
All I can do is lament.
The tears --
They just won't end.
Why can't I sleep at night?
And why can't I pretend?
The world is dark without you.
I just need a light.
I can't help feeling this way
Yet I can't bring myself to fight
Why is the dark surrounding?
Why am, I so afraid?
Why is the sky crying with me!!!!
I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO BLAME.
DAMMIT I CAN'T STOP THINKING.
I really want it to end.
I can't
I just can't.
Seem to grasp this.
Let it ascend....
To my head
because it keeps racing.
My heart can't believe its real.
But it is
and it hurts
I don't want to believe you're dead.

A puzzle here before me.
None of the pieces seem to fit.
But the edges are clear to me.
I have to grasp this.
My mind is making circles.
My heart keeps skipping beats.
I’ve ran out of numbers.
I’ve ran out of feats.
But worries get me nowhere.
And woes will not relent.
I just need a savior.
Before my last life’s spent.
Just send me an angel.
Even in mundane.
Send me a heart worth confiding.
With strength that will not wane.
Eyes close here on sparkles.
A light from deep within.
What will it take to save me?
What will it take to win?
As street lights fade to silence.
As views become so bright.
Who will I be walking to...
In the middle of the night?

My choices are as follows.
My track is almost set.
And nothing can deter me.
My destiny is worth a bet.
I can laze and falter.
Or I can try to be true.
But the only thing that keeps me going...

Is the thought of you.

Your pain rings out.
It cuts through your words.
What's this all about?
It's something I've not heard...
Love and pain,
Two separate worlds!
Must I ask again?
What are you going through, girl?

I wanted to scream
Just so that you could hear,
"I am here!
I am still here!"

What do I lack,
that you hold so dear?
"I am here!
I am still here!"

Apart are we falling,
to truths are my fears?
I am here...
I am... Still here.

But how far are you
to forsake this whole year?
I am here...
I am still near...

Don't push me away!
Don't laugh at my tears...
I am not here...
I am not near...