How do I tell you how I feel?
How can I say I Love You?
How can I sleep at night without hearing you say goodnight?
How can I forget my worries without you saying every things gonna be alright?
How do I tell you how I feel?
How the mere thought of your warm smile makes me yearn for you.
How you make me tremble inside with just one glance.

Or.....How bad I wanna feel those beautiful soft lips press against mine.

And your touch. The slightest feel of your touch and I wanna throw my arms around you and never let go.

But how do I tell you how i feel?
How I hope and pray for your happiness, but wanna be a part of it.
How can I express my deep desire and longing for someone as sincere and honest as you?

How do I explain how grateful I am to have you in my life, yet at the same time, unhappily regret the very day I met you.

To love a friend is eternal damnation
A blessing from the gods.
An inferno of burning passion never to be released or known.

How do I tell you how I feel dear friend?
I want to! But i wont.
I need to! But I cant.
So once again i ask you.
How do I tell you how I feel?
I dont! I just dont.

Worlds interchangeable, Collide in a whirlwind of emotions
Feelings unexplainable, Emanate radiant
Differences bind our hands and fear our hearts
Longing awakens us, Wrapping us in a sea of billowing sheets of salt
Harsh to the touch, But gentle as a caress
This twine that intercedes us, So strong yet so thin
Will you catch me when I fall? Or will you withdraw
Dreams of a life left lived best by fantasy
Made true by you and me?
Desires of the heart spoken without a whisper
Love beset with obstacles is everlasting
Made to stand strong, Yet so fragile
Careful is the way, Love is made to stay
Dreams of a love left felt by the purest of hearts
Unscathing, Judgment free, and Wild
Pains without it, Happiness with it
Moments never missed a chance
Every moment cherished, Erasing the past
Dreams drowned in tears of afflicted emotions
Dreams never more
I have found my world to which I belong
I have shed the bindings
I have felt the scratch and wallowed in the embrace
I have held fast, and the twine did not break
Your heart has answered my dreams
We have ran free, We have stumbled and crashed
I have chosen you, In my dreams you have chosen me
And when I awake, Your love is what I need
Will you be my wind? Blow strong and free
Or will you be my tears? Gently caress my face
My Dream came true, My heart made whole
My eyes hold you dear, My arms are never bare
Dreams never more
For you are now here

When theres nothing else to share, when theres no more tears to shed
One must disappear as if never born, As if one is dead
All that remains is a heart torn
All that remains is just you but not I
For the wish of my disappearance has come true
Now I must say goodbye
Tomorrow they will mourn
But today they will live another day to remember
The pains that Ive caused that wont go away

The return of innocence, the death of feelings
The commitment of will, the release of torments
The realization that all you knew is no more
The discovery of ones true self
The discovery of Love...Dead or Alive

Is this where it all ends?
What is it that you are keeping from yourself?
Why can’t I turn away from your pain?
How come when you tell me the one thing; the many things I don’t want to hear, I stay?
When will I see?
Where are we headed?
I think I finally understand that I have no idea what I’m doing.
I’m pretty sure that I cannot take much more of this.
I know that I am way in over my head with you
I feel my insecurities strengthen
I believe nothing you say and yet I stay
I know for a fact that I love you
I can affirm that
And now figuring out all that I have, Will I stay?

My Desires are
To be loved not wanted
To be wanted not needed
To be needed not desired
To be desired not liked
To be liked not despised
To be despised not loathed
To be loathed not hated
To be hated not loved

Loved is restless, loud, unrested nights
Loved is painful, fearless unamiable memories

Loved was you, Loved by me

I still love her, even though she doesnt want me to.

The wind in my hair that gorgeous summer afternoon.
I can see you sitting here beside me, to the left of me. Your right leg bent beneath you as you gaze at me writing this to you.

"You look so beautiful in the sunlight."
Thats what you said to me one day, a while ago. But these words were repeated to me this afternoon. Brought to my ears on a gentle soft breeze I'm sure carried by wings of an angel.

You brush the hair behind my ear, revealing the pulse of my love for you. Kisses that melt the coldest hearts, make me blush a young pink.
I turn to return the kiss but the sun is blinding.

And Alas you are not really here with me.
You are not really here...
You are not.
........And I guess you never were.