I love poetry. Any form of poetry to be exact. They are a story in few words, twisted together to mean different aspects. If you want to post a poem, or song, or something, I'd love to read and discuss it. Here I'll post my own. If you have any critism, or ideas, or anything, here would be a great place to discuss it. :]



Soup Bowls and Rollercoasters
So I feel like I lost a part of me
That wasn't even there before
I feel like something is missing
Before I even knew what it was before
I feel like my life is twisting
Into some type of peculiar dream
That haunts your every waking moment
Like some kind of disease.

I feel like I'm walking in circles
Because I don't know which direction
The person I was chasing
Ran down long before I knew I was chasing them.
I feel like I'm in a nightmare
Of my own recollections.

I feel like I'm reaching for a star
That moved on twenty years ago
I feel like the light I'm touching
Is colder than the warmth of a freezer.
I feel what I'm feeling,
Because I forgot what's-his-name's face
In my heart I know he's there
In my eyes I see him where he stands
But my eyes are blind to him.

I feel insecure in my own understanding
Like I'm a blight in his direction
A blight that wasn't there before.
I feel like I'm begging for something
Before I even knew there was a something
Like the scraps given to me
Is the holy water to my dying spirit.

I feel detached and alone
Afraid and so very, very cold.

I miss feeling your smile
Beneath the pads of my fingertips
I miss feeling the warm breath
Of a ghosts long embrace.

I want something I didn't know I wanted before
Something I knew deep inside
Before I felt is long ago.
Like a long forgotten dream
Or a seclusive memory.
Always there, but never in sight.

I miss the way He felt to me
When he held me tight
I miss the way he'd talk to me
Then everything was alright.
I miss the way he spoke TO me
So I wouldn't feel this pain
Wrap me up just like a doll
And never push me away.

I think I wronged a perfect man.
I think I messed up a perfect night.
I think I know that he's long gone.
Forever out of sight.

I feel choked up
Like I can't breathe
My throat dry and suffocating
Whenever he's near
My heart does the tango
And my blood turns to ice.
I want to scream
"PLEASE FUCKING LOOK AT ME"
But it never spews from my lips
I want to run into his arms
And wail out this wounded heart of mine.
I want to stab this pain inside
Curled up like a broken child
Shriek into the night,
"LOVE ME BACK YOU HEARTLESS COW!"

But even with this love
That brings out this pain
Which turns into anger
And self mutilation
I know I could never say such things
Because even when I think them
I wind up hurting myself in many ways.

For him I'd cross the earth and back
And never finish college.
For him I'd spend eternity
In this forgotten palace.
For him I scratched into my hand
With a bloody razor
A message ever so clear,
That still remains there till tomorrow.

Because this night,
I'll chill my sobs
With my bloody blade.
I'll mark myself one more time
Before I call it a day.
I'll sing my songs
Volyumes one and two
with my shaky breaths
Then punch the wall
Till I bleed out
Every painful breath.

I'll lick away my wounds
Till they turn into scars.
Walk around with a broken heart
Becuase I'm missing something big.

They say she's the girl without love
The one missing an important emotion
Lust and favor never collide
Can I trust another?

So Let me be,
God, please,
Let me be. . .

Till I finish up my number.

I enjoy sharing my poetry, and this one was about a particular evening that I'm very fond of.


The Midnight Loft

dripping from creamy flesh
is venom like fire
Eliciting pain where pain should not go
Eyes light up like the Eiffel tower
so lively and wild
their gaze caresses skin
so perfect and mild.

When the dream becomes reality
All senses seem to fade
Animalistic nature
Burrows forth the way
Lips split with diced smacks
Eyes closed with ecstatic gasps
Hands whisper over alien clothing
Eyes going where they haven't gone before.

The heat rises to the noses
Flares as she approaches
Shadows and sounds are all she can see
Panting and groaning fill
the casual voided silence.

Neither one speaks a word
Everything is silent
As the seconds slow to nothing
Everything becomes violent
Bodies burn and begin to quake
Fingers itch and begin to snake
Minds are floating on a waterless wake.

But all is lost when the noise is heard
the two split apart like doves in a coma
Eyes wide with innocence
Heavy with unspoken guilt
Caught in the act
of getting burned by fire.

The moths wings were burnt
but their minds never forgot
the alluring disillusionment
the hunger and want
the hazy drugging feeling
in the midnight loft.

As you can see, I write TONS of poetry. Plenty. I enjoy sharing everything I write with the world. I know It's like "WHOA!! SPAM!" But it's not. I want to compile all of my art up and place it in a corner for the world to see! Inside my heart, my mind, my love, my life, is what I write, what I see, what I feel, what I know. Sometimes I think there's a bit of the world that will never understand what I'm saying. That's alright! I don't wish for anyone to TRULY understand what I'm saying. The depth, and the lengths I go to, to try and describe that I feel, what I see, and what I know are hard to comprehend. I have gone through alot as a person, and I tend to know things, tend to write things, people find most offensive.

I'm not trying to be offensive. I'm trying to find truth in a world that only speaks lies.

Empty
cycles upon cycles of useless emotion
wasted upon you with lavish devotion
eyes full of fucking empty tears
heart full of unyeilding fears
I hate you, I hate you
Fuck you, Fuck you

Over and over the thoughts swirl
danc with my mind they twirl
sickness curls in my abdomen
like the fear of hating men
Thought you were sent
to make me repent
I hate you, I hate you
fuck you, fuck you

Empty voices play in my mind
Sterilyzed needles reply in kind
through the vein and into the bone
Numb the brain, heart becomes stone
Shock runs through the spirit
Empty like a desolate fit
I hate you, I hate you
Fuck you, Fuck you

always watching you from outside
always talking to you with pride
wasting emotions on you
till you decide you're through
well, I hate you, I HATE YOU!!
SO FUCK YOU!

I'm done being looked through
I'm done trying to remain true
I'm donw with feeling empty

SO FUCK YOU!


Don't want to go
I feel like i'm addicted
to the same old drug
I feel like i'm inflicted
with the same old bug
like I can't escape the madness
overwhelmed with sadness
that only this can cause.

I must be crazy because I'm still here
Even though it's you i fear
I don't want to go home alone

I feel like I'm stuck dancing
To the same old tune
I feel like my hears fancing
with the same old wound
Like it's addicted to a drug
that's the base of the plug
stopping my overflow of feelinfs
for you.

I must be insane because i didn't walk away
Even though it's you who makes me afraid
I can't explain to you why i'm this way
except i just don't want to go home alone.

This is a song I wrote for my band. It was one of the few things I managed to write about that had no relation what-so-ever to me. Infact, the only thing that related to me in anyways was that it showed I was a story teller! I love writing stories, and I may post a few short stories on here as well! But here, is a song about a woman who was in love with a man. Her best bud told her he loked her as well, just to get 50 dollers from her. She tried to meet her crush one night, but found her sister kissing him. In anger, she killed her sister with a fire hydrent. Four days later, she was found dead. She killed herself by drowning herself in a pool of her own blood and water in her upstairs bathroom.

This is the song about her,

And how love can affect us all.




Sight [[Death of aSongbird]] -- 10 Days Earlier

The fighting pain is horrible,
Scales building up over eyes,
Metal scraping against the heart,
Can't see the hands anymore.

Thought there was feeling,
Thought there was life,
Thought there was love,
Thought there was Sight.

He would have led you;
Believed in false assumptions,
Songbird was in the way...

Chorus:
Now you can't see,
The scales, They blind you;
Now you can't feel,
The numbness, It binds you;
Reach out in anger,
To the Songbirds voice...
[JUST MAKE IT GO AWAY!!]
[[NOW! NOW!]]

Exorcism was the excuse,
To corver up the demons inside you;
But you can't hide those lies,
In the end comes the surprise.

Thought there was hope,
Thought there was redemption,
Thought there was forgiveness,
Thought there was Sight.

But you belived in false assumptions,
Put yourself on the block for destruction,
Now you've lost your only ledge.

[CHORUS]

Bridge:
Song Bird sings ever so sweetly...
[MAKE IT GO AWAY!!!]
[[NOW! NOW!]
(all while background is
"Thought there was.... feeling, life, love, sight, hope, redemption, forgiveness, sight")

[Bridge, 3 more times]

[CHORUS 2X]

Laying in a tub full of blood,
Your eyes see unto your soul;
Beyond the reaches of death,
And into a long forgotten tale.

And in the middle of the night....
-- I know you'll be alright....

A few more poems that I actually have NO way to describe. Just, at the time I wrote them, I was feeling something intense.

Wake Up
as my eyes look around
everything is serene and sound
the quiet of the night
calls with all it's might
telling me, begging me,
wake up and flee
for the dream is now over.

but the dream had not fled
and the nightmares did not leave it dead
instead it laid in wait
it's wild imaginations were abate
until the holy light beckoned.

seconds turned into the minutes.

minutes became the hours.

hours became the days.

still no calling.

days turned to weeks.

and weeks into years.

Alas, amongst a silver lining,
waving, waving, calling, with perfect timing
came the holy light, quick with flight
it told me to come, told me to wash ashore
no sooner then before
i was upon that shore with not a second to lose.

and there the dream awaited.
the light brought two who were fated.

forevermore.

forevermore.



I Will Come To You
When you have know light to guide you
and no one to walk beside you
I will come to you
when the night is dark and stormy
you won't have to search for me
when you don't know how or why
but you have lost you way
have no fear when your dreams are falling
I will hear your spirit calling
and I swear I will be there
see even if we can not be together now and forever
and I swear that I will be there
we all need somebody we can turn to
someone who will always understand
so even if your soul is dieing
and you need the strength to keep trying
I'll reach out and take your hand
for I will come to you

Here's a little peice of some of my roleplaying responses. This is about Drake, my Durrian/Human character. Durrians are an alien race I came up with, about four years back. They are lean, long, slightly bird like phantoms. Also known as the "perfect race." They are pretty much the children of "THE" gods, and are considered powerful. But in the end, one creature, a Terrsian/Durrian halfbreed destroyed their world in anger because they thought themselves too high, too proud, too arrogent. The Durria today is a very technological world where humans and other races all over the galexy reside.


the lights were dimmed, and dank.
The smell brought a foul odor to his nostrils.
As he curled his upper lip back in distaste, he growled.
What am I doing here? He thought dryly.
One foot stepped infront of the other.
The sound resounded amongst the empty bar.
As he stretched out copper wings, his sharp eyes glared.
There was no reason to be here.
But childhood dreams refused to leave him.
A tan hand placed itself gently on the dusty counter.
Drifts of dust floated away.
The air was filled with old particles.
He felt the rising need to sneeze.
But held it in, for fear of the cloud.
Heavy footsteps made their way around the dank, dark room.
Like footfalls of resounding doom.
Slowly he stopped, near a sign.
Which read an impending proclamation.
That soon, this place would be no more.
Gold eyes, glowed brightly in the darkness.
Flashing to the hopeless stage.
Dread, remorse, and the like filled the atmosphere.
Choking throats of the living.
He blinked, once, twice, before walking over.
As bright images flashed in front of him.
Sensual dancing, beautiful aliens of all races.
Pumping their bodies to the pounding beat.
His old life called back to him.

No more. Never again.
His mind told him to leave.
Respect, and moral now imbedded into his mind.
Would the two worlds never collide?
He could no longer say he belonged to one.
He never belonged to the other.
But now, with one foot in both worlds.
The head shook, as copper hair flailed.
Feathers rutled, and the body turned.
As the room became silent once more.
With the heavy footfalls leading back to the outside world.
Alas, closed, was another chapter to his life.

His eyes blinked remorsefully, to the bright blue sky.
One thing, he'd never get enough of.
The sapphier colors winking brightly.
He licked cracking dry lips, while he stood infront of the abandoned byway.
A looming lone figure.
In a crowded busy street.
Where no noise reached the ears of the lost.




Here's from when I was extremly depressed and feeling alone, caught up by myself. I tend to write things when I feel alone! Haha, well this is another depressing one!

Forgotten
I sat by the banks by my lonesome
Not really caring to remember where i came from
Staring into the long ago missing sun
just like the long since missing childhood fun
The leaves rattle in the wind with the call of doom
The branches are bent down, leaving little room
For those friendly thoughts come to call upon me
Come to call, Come to set me free.

My pale, glassy green eyes
Watch as the star to the north slowly dies
and the sun bringing cold hope resurrects
Bringing to like all that the world perfects
Only letting it live just one more day
So they can bow to their knees one more time to pray.

As the thoughts filling my head agree with the black night
and the wind whips around me like vicious dogs waiting to bite
All I can do is sit still while my mind is taken over entirely
God, I need your help Direly.

I've forgotten how to live life
I've forgotten how to breath without strife
I've forgotten how to love everything
I've forgotten how to be something.

My words go unheard
Like they were never ushured
And I lie back, while red drips from my eyes
Calling with it's sweet scent to the crowding flies
Pecking my empty, cold eyes
Where behind the mind quickly dies
Skin so clammy and cold to the touch
Breathso shallow it's not that much
Till the lungs stop giving support
and the blood stops giving effort.

And out from under those wide eyelids
Fell tears as red as the blood of innocent kids
Marking the staining of an innocent soul
Whom the world had long ago taken it's toll.

As the sun began to set one last time
And the birds sang their very last chime
Lies by the bay the body of a girl
Grey and cold, eyes as smooth as a pearl
Eagle spread and mortally lifeless.

Her words she ushered that day
The birds now sing to the words she used to pray.

I've forgotten how to live life
I've forgotten how to breathe without strife
I've forgotten how to love something
I've forgotten how to be something.

This one is a nameless one, but one where I was intensely depressed. GUH.

I feel myself sink under the dark waters
Like a broken pot from old hands of the potters
It's amazing the view, So clouded and Dim
I can't seem to climb over the rim
Suffocating with this depression
In my heart it's made the deep impression
Dentin the soul, Inking the mind
Shoving in the bad, taking out the kind
Till my tounge is knotted up like a rope
This is killing me, I don't know how to cope.

Gone from simpleton to Complicator
To your every need I wish to cater
My desires were tossed out the window.

Locked in this invisible prison.

I want out.
I need out.

Help me,
Please help me.

The depression is killing me inside
I fear all I have done is hide
My eyes are dry, my lips cracked
Into my heart all good times are packed
M heart is thumping
My blood is pumping
I'm racing to the door
Into the rain it does pour
Trying to find the door with no lock
The key was taken, because it's me they mock

I'm trapped,
Cannot breath
Help me
Help me

I'm dieing in this self made prison.

Where the walls are glass
And the ground is a cask.




ON THE UPSIDE!!!

Here's what I think my perfect man would be like!

~~~<3

My Perfect Man

My perfect guy
would make me sigh
he'd be sweeping me off my feet
he'd be my special treat
safe sanctuary from the world.

my perfect guy would
read all the books he could
write till his hand go sore
helped heal my heart the world tore
let me speak my mind
his voice would always be kind
slow and gentle wins the race
i could easily match his pace.

he'd appreciate my dream of a coffee shop
and he'd love to stop by for a pop
he'd tell me all the stories he'd write
and hold me after a fight.

we could stay up all night and chat
about the world, meaning of life, this and that,
he wouldn't expect too much
and his hands would be gentle to the touch
his eyes would be a soft blue
and his love would be oh so true.

he wouldn't care if i was dressed up
or dressed in sweats, and my hair messed up
he'd still call me his lovely lady.

he'd let me play with his hair
and play with mine, just to be fair
into his eyes, forever i could stare
and find poetic meaning.

his words would make my heart beat fast
and he'd be the person i talked to last
on the phone for hours at a time
until i heard the bedtime chime
to me he'd be forever true.

this i my perfect guy.
to find him i must try.

to my perfect guy.

I already love you so.

Here I'm just going to list off my older poetry in the next few boxes. I have TONS!!! :]



would you
if the blood from my neck
stained all my clothing
would you even fucking notice?

and if i tell you i'm not a woman,
i still need to grow up
would you still push that little boy
in my arms and tell me he's my problem?

and if i tell you i'm not a whore
would yo still push me against the wall
and fuck me over and over
till you had your fill?
then pay me for something i never gave you?

and if i fall on my knees
and beg god for mercy
would you see me as weak?

please tell me i'm fucking okay
please tell me these people in my head
were never there to begin with
oh fuck, i think i just lost it

and if i sit in a graveyard
hugging the graves, singing to the corpses
would you think of me as a nutcase?

and if i'm crying out my heart tonight
if i'm screaming out gods name
if i'm begging for one more day
while all the same beging for my life to end
would you think of me as melodramatic?

if the blood ran down my neck
like a red river of sin and pain
would you wash it away?

tell me, that i'm fucking okay.
tell me, that everythings fine
damn you, lie if you have to
but please, i'm begging for someone
fucking tell me i'm okay!

and if the blood from my neck
stained all my clothing in sin
would you even fucking notice?



rain

wasn't supposed to end like this
you weren't supposed to walk out that door
it wasn't supposed to end like this
you weren't supposed to hurt me to the core
shouldn't have ended like this.

had i known
had i just known it'd become this
i could've done something
had i just known it's come to this
that our love would fade to nothing

and i can only fall to my knees
and watch you as you walk away
one last time, begging you please
please, don't leave, don't go away

and now even the sun seems like a dreary grey
the sky never looked sadder
and my hopes never seemed dimmer
i've never felt this before, i've never been madder
now i know what the rain feels like

and it shouldn't have ended like this
i'm standing here in the rain
i came all this way...
to tell you i love you.

and i'm standing in the rain
crystals flowing dow my face
it should never have come to this
my hearts breaking can't you see?

i'm smiling for everyone else
i love you

and now i know how the rain feels
when the sun disappears behind a grey cloud
and now i know what it's like
to fall from the sky
land on the ground.

splattered, shattered, broken, unspoken.

and now i know what it feels like
to fal form a cloud,
onto the far away ground.




broken hand

can you accept,
this empty hand of mine
make me whole
and then watch me die?

can you hold me
while i wither
while i cry
while i die?

can you brush away these damn tears
tell me i'm okay,
and then bury me alive?

can you accept
this empty hand of mine?



i now know what they mean

i now know what they meant
by a broken heart
mines still bleeding
in all the right places

feeling like i'm in pain
stunned by the shock
ripping arrows from this heart of mine.

and all i can say is
i love you still
and all i can do is
watch you walk away
and all i can see is
my heart bleeding out of my mouth.

so i put on a smile
no one need to know i'm wounded
and no one will know.

i see through eyes so unlike my own
filled with a pained happiness
flowing like water
words of joy seep out

is anyone fooled?

now i know what they mean,
by a bleeding heart
mines feeling torn into peices
and hammered down by an iron fist.

and now i know what they mean
by puttign a smile on
though you're breaking inside

and i can see what they mean
when everyone lies.

because i can see you dieing
in your own blue eyes

and i almost drown in them
but your voice is something different

distant... cold.

i don't recognize it.

and so, now i know what they mean...
by your story and mine.

both sides are dramatic and painful.

but only one side is truly dieing
on the inside.

Sorry if I broke your flow, but I just wanted to comment and say that your poetry is amazing ^__^ I'd love to sing some of this :3

Keep it up =]

And if you wanted to keep a flow of just your posts, my bad D:! Just say the word and I'll remove this post :c

Hm? Oh, no no no, I encourage people to reply!

Infact, it helps me. :] I love to listen to peoples resonses to my art.

Tell me, which is your favorite so far and why?

Cut me deep, Cut me hard, Cut me till I sleep

Take this blade from my hand,
Cut my flesh deep, It's grand,
Watch the blood flow to the cup,
Take your fill till you wish to trow up,
As I'm searching your body for life,
Take to heart all my strife.

I won't open for no one tonight,
Please go away, I don't wanna fight,
Maybe tomorrow you can show me,
But tonight I want to feel free.

Take this blade from my hand,
Fill the wound with the sand,
From your shattered glass heart.
Make us seem not so apart,
Open my eyes to the dark light,
Take my hand, So I won't take fright.

I've risen from my grave,
No one but myself to save,
I float across the earth for love,
But lust caught that damn dove.

Take this dagger from my hand,
Cut me till I can't stand,
Drink up the blood from my wounds.

I'm awake to your need,
I'm listening to your plead.

Take this blade from my bloody wrist,
Kiss this fluid, Taste the cracked fist,
Show me life before I die,
Then lick away the tears as I cry,
See me close my eyes in weakness,
See my shallows breaths from meekness,
Listen to my dead hearts empt beat,
And smell my scent one last time you creep!

Take this blade from my hand love,
Wipe the blood from my brow love,
See me mutilated love?

Taken by another,
Two empty souls clashed together,
My blood filled the other,
Now he rests forever.

See me dead my love?
See me used by another, my love?
I did this for you,
So you can leave me too,
Go find another lover,
Make love to one another,
She's worthy of you,
I was nothing, Unlike you.

So take this blade from my dead hand love,
Feel the cold flesh love,
Cut the icy flesh my love,
And watch the blood flow my love.

Cut me deep,
Cut me hard,
Please, cut me till I sleep.


Cry
I swear I won't cry,
Not even if you die,
I won't let the tears fall,
Just because I don't have it all.

And even if tonight,
My parents get in a fight,
I won't shed the diamond drops,
No, I'll cover my ears till it stops,
Yes I will.

No, I won't cry,
I'll be brave, I promise I'll try,
No, I'll never make a sound,
Nor let my voice be muffled by the ground,
When I fall, I won't scream,
You won't see the tears stream,
I'm going to be brave for you,
even if you don't believe me, It's true.

I won't make a snuffle,
Even if I get in a tuffle,
I won't sob from the pain,
No, The tears won't come like rain.

But if you're far away from me,
I know I won't be free,
I still won't cry,
I promise I'll try.

I won't cry.



Poem of a Broken Soul, and a Hurt Spirit

I can't get your face,
Out of my mind,
The memory of your lips and eyes,
Every smile, frown, and smirk,
Haunt my every waking minute,
I cannot sleep, I only remember,
Nither Nightmares, Nor Dreams, But haunting memories,
Just as you said you wouldn't hurt me,
Were you expecting this, My love?

Now I'm haunted by two,
My dreams are rellolections twisted together,
So I cannot see which is true,
And which wasn't you...

My heart aches in fear,
That I've been used again,
Now I can't even seem to think of you,
Without tears of regret forming in my eyes,
Like liquid pools of diamond and crystal.

Now my soul is cracked again, And,
I feel like I've been cornered again,
No escape for me again,
Except to run from you,
WIPE THAT SMILE OFF YOUR FACE!

I held the roses from my dresser,
They reperesent two halves of my dying heart,
I'll crush one and protect the other,
Hopefully someone will care someday.

But right now I'm building,
A fortress around my weak heart,
I'll turn it into a jaded heart,
So no one will hurt me again.
Yes, a jaded heart is hard to peirce.

I am safe from everyone right now.




Mature Vrs. Growing up

Sorry I'm not the person you expect,
The person you want me to be,
I'm just a kid tryin to fit in,
In the adult world of lies and pain,
Of work, not play, how can I keep sane,
I want my kittie, my puppys too,
You say I'm grown, Is it really true?
Sure my body is mature, My minds not,
Think of all the battles my body has fought,
Deciding between two different worlds,
One safe in your arms, Another strange alone,
I don't wanna stay, I wanna see,
My body wants to grow up for me,
I don't wanna leave, I wanna stay,
My mind still thinks of childish play,
I'm at war with myself,
A battle inside of me,
Growing is the easy part,
It's maturing that's hard.

Reflecting Emotions...
I'm so sick of being this way
Having to dish out and pay
for all the mistakes I made that day
I'm so sick of having to suffer
For all that I can barely control
So the only protection is to be tougher...

I'm on the other side of the mirror
Saring into your own eyes, showing what you show
Hiding what you hide,
Trust me, These are only skin deep,
Because the real emotion is so sickening,
I'm sure you would shreik, your skin would creep...

I'm the girl who delivers a laugh with a frown,
I'm the bitch you can't get enough of, (yeah, to beat up on!)
I'm just the girl, reflecting all the emotions I see...
Because I have none inside me.

Pain, Is something I love to feel,
Lets me know I'm still breathing in this world.
Love, Is an overused word,
On a fictionously painful emotion,
Hate, Is the only way to live,
Is the sheild I use for the enemies of mine and my own...

I'm tired of being your tool,
I'm tired of theing the brunt of jokes so cruel,
I don't want your mercy bastard
The art of fooling you is one I mastered
So in the end you are the one at my mercy...

I'm the girl who delivers laughs with a frown
I'm the bitch you can't get enough of (yeah to beat up on)
I'm the kid you kick into the dust and spit on
I'm just the person who you passed by without a second glance
I'm just the shadow, Reflecting all the emotions I see,
Because there's nothing inside of me

I'm just the girl who delives laughs with a frown
Im the bitch you can't get enough of (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Nothing inside of me....

I'm just the girl who delivers laughs with frowns
I'm the bitch you can't stop punching into the wall
The kid you kicked into the dust and spit on
I'm the person you passed by without a second glance
I'm the shadow, Reflecting all the emotions I see
Because there's nothing
Because theres nothing,
Nothing
Nothing inside me...


"ZH4773R37 GL4ZZ H34R7" (shattered glass heart)

I thought to myself as the sun set beyond the hills...
Why were you here with me?
Why did you hold me so? Why did you love me?
What was I to you?
When you can have others...

But you kept holding me,
Your breath tickling my ear ans you leaned in to say...
Those dreaded words I hoped you never say...
"I love you"

{Chorus}
SO NOW HERE WE ARE AGAIN
STANDING AT THE SCENE OF THE CRIME
OVER THE REMAINS
OF MY SHATTERED GLASS HEART

You know what makes me melt,
You're the only one whoese seen my inside and out...
I tried to keep you out of my life
I tried to keep this from happening...

{Chorus}

I believed in you!
I trusted you!
And you know you're playing me like a puppet
around your little finger...
Making me melt like butter in your arms...

Arms of love

Arms of pain...

Arms of a blissful heaven

Arms of a torturous hell...

{Guitar solo 17 sec}

SO NOW HERE WE ARE AGAIN
AT THE SCENE OF THE CRIME
SO NOW HERE WE ARE AGAIN
STANDING OVER THE VICTIM
SO NOW HERE WE ARE AGAIN
Picking up the peices...
Picking up the peices...
Picking up the peices of my shattered glass heart...

love me
love me,
my razor blade.

peel my skin,
make me scream.

sink so deep,
make me weep.

cut my flesh,
make me bleed.

take my life,
set me free.


epitaph
under the sweetest flower
in the garden of bones
in deep, here i sleep.

on my ground, tears shower
sorrow, bathing my tombstones
for me, do not weep.


decision
with a nice little twist
i slit my wrist...

not waiting life to kill
rather my ow blood i spill...

it's my own choice, i have no fears,
only pain, in eyes some unshed tears...

on the floor, blood making stains,
slowly releasing me from my pains...

bloody stains, stains like in my soul,
caused by all the pain, this life so foul...

vision finally fading away, soon it's all done,
staring darkness, oh so black, soon it's all gone...

soon i'm released, free from this pain,
suffering an life, it was all just in vain...

thought, funny how blood makes the difference,
between life and death,
farewell life, so useless, so painful,
gonna take my last breath...


dead tears
i see doom ahead, my love,
soon it's all dead...

I can't anymore stop and turn,
my heart- my love,
soon they will burn...

moist fills my eyes- dead soul without fears,
my burnt heart,
I buried it in the sea of dead tears.

strong
here i sit,
stareing at nothingness through my tears,
seeing nothing but pain,
feeling how life just fell through my fingers,
like ashes, without meaning,
tears buring my soul, cutting my eyes,
fillinf me with numbness...

here i live when others are hunted,
and it hurts me, hurt because of the life,
why i am the lucky one,
why i manage to get through the pain,
through the sorrow,
it all hurts me, life is so unfair,
hurting just like random,
hurting innocent...

here i wonder what has granted me,
this special favor, power over the pain,
favor to avoid most pain,
favor to be as i am,
be as strong as i am,
it hurts me because of the weak,
it hurts but i'll survive,

because i am strong...


To James: Love ya lotes!

To day I had a good day
Today I was thinking of you
Today was was a good day
Even without you...
I walked down the halls
And thought about your hugs
I Sang your name outloud
While dancing in the rain
I spun in circles and cried with the sky
Sad that your not here
To share the joy I have inside
Today as a good day
Because I thought about you.


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i look in the mirror,
and what do i see,
a ugly reflection,
looking back at me,
her eyes are dim,
her skin pail,
every time she trys,
its just another fail,

i look into the mirror,
and notice some more,
what is this poor girl,
now living for,
her face is scarred,
her hair like hay,
the only thing beautiful,
is what she does say,

her personality's dampened,
by lack of will,
she is a duncer,
she has no skill,
she only makes them laugh,
because they pitty to her,
for this ugliness,
there is no cure,

how does she get up,
day after day,
knowing to her own self,
how much she does weigh,
and how can she not,
just lie down and cry,
she moves away from the mirror,
with a single sigh,

that girl who has nothing,
happens to be me,
i don't know what any guy sees,
but i guess i will continue,
running on by,
i guess the only thing,
i can do is try.



Promise
The promise I must keep,
For me, please don't weep,
I'm going to be okay.
Bang, bang!
White eyes,
Blood flows,
Only I know.