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The Magician: The male power of creation; creation through willpower and desire.

if one had power
if one could create
all that he wanted
then thee would be no need for us
for the women
for a guy can dream what he wants
and so therefore have a girl of his dreams
this is why i feel unnecessary.
it is their willpower
for women
that causes the sight of blind love
that causes people
to think i am great
and to never see the monster inside me
if one could
create the world
would they live here
on this plane
or fly away
with wings
to the one they liked
that they created.
live in fantasy
or understand reality
that is the true nature of a wizard
a dreamer
a imaginary person
who does not see logically.

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a bird

a bird
that can not fly
that is what it is
but what happens
when wants to try to
after watching all of it's friends
but it fails
for it has no wings
what should it do
it looks up
longing
they fly back to it
encouraging it
to try
but what they don't see
is the blood for the hands
and the bird know it can't
fly
will it earn it's wings
or sit there
wanting to be picked up
will it suicide
when all else have gone
and he is stuck
without the wings

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one can not always reach there goal
if one could always shoot for the moon
and hit it
why don't they shoot for the stars
but when they do shoot for the stars
and assume
since they have always hit their target
that they hit them
it is a huge disappointment
but if you shoot for the stars
but are fine with the moon
then it is fine
your mentality is different
when you want more
but know you don't need it
rather than getting always what you want
and suddenly not when your stakes change.

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advice not taken

I tell you it is a good idea
since you asked
but it is weird
I don't understand
you don't seem to listen
you do your own thing
and then wonder
why you have low grades
you don't care
and then
you end up
listening to no one
no one likes it
you don't see it
so now
why do you not
open your doors.

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eating
I must eat
in order to stay
awake
can I
I don't know
my vision fading
into the dark
i nod off
like normal
one hour
one hour of pain
one hour
my mind
to dead to think
one hour
and i can not make it
like the run
the run to the end
it cannot be made
so it ends up happening again
this sleep

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the dancer

the cello plays
the never ending song
the bow
dragging across the strings
releasing rosin
at all times
the piano
then comes in
the rosin forms
twirling
a muse
an elegant girl
dancing
playing with all her might
her dress light
light as powder
swirling
around her
dancing to the cello
it's beat, it's rhythm
the vibrations echoing
The dust
from the piano
move
forming a boy
he appears
standing watching the girl
his foot tapping to the beat
the girl stops and stares at the guy
letting the pause be short.

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the dancer part 2

the piano takes over
lettign the cellist rest
in shock
she moves
staring into the boys
deep everlasting eyes
two muses
together
he bows
with elegance
the solo of the piano
moving though
then the cellist repeats it
she bows back
takign the boys hand
he holds her dear
and the rosin
and the dust
combined
creating the couple
as they move
move through it all
dancing
together
playing in harmony
not the same part
but together
to create a more beautiful song
than either could create alone.

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the game part 1

Do you understand?
That once
A few hours ago
I was willing to play white
Actually always have been
I just need to be told
I am willing to
If I put my mind to it
The mind
Letting it try.
I am sorry though
Sorry you had to see
What happens?
I had played white before the hour
Before the barrier failed
Moving one pawn out
But this pawn
I am not sure
If it was the right one or not
I thought about it
And chose
That while I could sit on this side
I should
And before the gate closes
To play

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the game part 2

This playing seemed silly
I am not sure if you saw it
But later
When I knew what would happen
I wanted to see
I wanted to see what happens
When I tempt everything
When I make a move
That seems stupid
Do you take the piece?
Snatch it all away, and possibly win
Or do you sit
Thinking it is a trap
Or knowing better

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the game part 3

Did you see?
What I wanted earlier
What I wanted at the time
You chose to not give it to me, but instead sit
Patiently, waiting
Like a person
I know it is not uncaring, I knew at the time
But I feel I did give you warning
As to what would happen
I did, semi joke
What would happen?
Even if I am playing white
With you
If someone plays black
With me

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the game part 4

This is why I find myself twisted
A mutilation to all that I have been
My guardian, despite everything
Knows better, but also can see the other side
Like you said, but where is your confusion?
I wish to know
I wish to make it clear to you
So we may continue

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Mnemosyne

can we?
can we show it
it is insane
creepy
but good
it is odd
but amusing
and now
can i watch something else
i am high
high I can feel my blood
my erosion
from it all
and in general
I wish it could all be amusing
amusing to no end
for you see
I would have fun
but would you
would I win
living with it all.

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can we get together
for old times
you did notice
that I did change
that it came towards you
that I seem to find it all normal
I do go after people
you would notice I guess
it is then
that I wish you were there
and then you left
you left on me
and i wanted you more
and suddenly
it seems that
I understand
you realize it took me forever
and sometimes other notice before me
that i am this way
that i want to go out
that I want to be around you
but you are slow
you saw it all go fast
it was weird I must admit
I didn't care
that was the drug
then we all saw
saw what happened
with it all
and so
lets never
have that happen again.

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the game part 5

If you wish to think the night away
To make it seem all odd
I know you watched, but if that data doesn’t make sense
As mine at some point did not
Then erase it
For it, I do not regret
For I regret none
But with you, if I ended up continuing our game
Wishes it wasn’t a factor, to how you play.

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the series - 1

post reality

That was odd
so odd
that was weird
but amusing
I will never regret it
I wish i could more
I wish I could have saved you both
for you see
the one I want
is the one that sits there
he always asks
how much was it
in it
hoping to get a girl
but it is also a case
you are much older than me
and so I know better, for that is what i hear
I wish I could be the girl for you, but if I did that
I would be breaking quite a few other people
you never told me
and as such
I never knew
but when you spilled it all
I suddenly knew, I do understand
I know this feeling
when everything
that is everything you have lived for
for six months
has been taken away

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the series - 2

restore

whatever it took
i made sure of it
i made sure
everything ended well
I refuse to kill characters
to watch them die
while I
come out
barely standing
I res them too
I recover them
making sure we are a team
so that nothing awkward happens
so that
if we want to start something again
if a break up happens
there isn't the awkward silence of it all.

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the series - 3

and here we thought
we could take the risk
without knowing
my fail safe is very hard
without seeing
that it was hard
it was hard to pay attention to the one i love
the one i want to be with
when you see a guy
fully on you
fully able to do what they want.
so then
when it boiled to nothing
I knew
knew what happened
knew
but we were all there
standing
on orn own.

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the series - 4

the chain of events
nothing could prepare us
we never thought it would go that far
for you see
it was an original problem
and for that
it was weird
cause everything
my interest
your interest
his interest
all switched
by the end of it
i didn't understand
I knew what had happened
I knew at the time it didn't matter
that this was going o be soemthing I regretted
something that
i wondered
I saw his technique
just hints of it
but it was odd
he pushed it all
and I let him
though the guardian code was insane
with all of us
we should have known.

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the series - 5

can you imagine
that one day
if you had not stayed
I would have been there with him
either collapsed
unable to move
helpless to his form
his effort
and then
to his ability
it dawns on me
I would wake up wither her there
and she would be passed out
not dead
just not all right either
that is what could have happened
it crossed my mind when we were drinking
when we knew
that nothing else mattered
that although in mind
I was trying
I was failing
and that
his movement
to my head
to it all
and then I felt it
it was bad
although you never knew
nor will you
how much worse he could have done
as my pile I was
when he got up, I was enough to be able to stand
but it was weird
for you think it was bad
but I can imagine worse
he just needed the movement
and it all would have been fine.

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the series - 6

had you lost me
I held your hand
I wanted it
so badly
it was fine
but you should realize
that shouldn't happen again
in my mind
it kind of was weird
i wanted it
you didn't realize it
you could have petted me
I would have liked it
I needed it
and for a while
I needed much more
play with me
like a kitty
I will be fine
fine in a way
that is healthy
it is fine
I pushed it
but would it be worse
if we were actually there
I know it is odd when I lean
but it is sad
for I need to
so please
play with me
for all of time
you play black
and I'll play white.

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the series - 7

it is the movement
I saw it
i felt it
when he moved
it was fine
when I was on you
when I was with you enough for it to matter
but like everything
you saw it
when he turned my head
and when I was kissed
it did work
when it all dragged into it
it wasn't un smooth
and in general
it was fun
I watched it
as we each had our fun
it was interesting
when I lost it
I grabbed you hand
I knew how badly I needed it
and yet
since it was never given
and when it all of a sudden came
that you knew what had to be done
but when I finally lost your hand
it was weird
I lost it
the strength
overwhelming to me
and so
the hand
finally let go
over the string
that held me to him.

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the series - 8

it seems
that we all understand
that is the hope
so why was th look so weird
it is annoying
it wasn't from me
I never saw him
i could confront him if I could
and so
in the end
I did
it was interesting
that because of it
I did lots of things
and I never again
will have tat happen
supposidly it is amusing
amongst the drinkers. So then
let us tip glasses up
and celebrate for it was amazing
for it all.
And we all
know how to wake up
and let it all go away
and that nothing will matter again
and we can keep the relationship that we had.
I worry too
about that habit of yours
I have no right to keep it
but please
be careful
for we can not deal with it
and so
with it
I will look through
and see the you
that I knew existed
but had no reason as to why.

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the series - 9

When it all broils down to it
you should not have done that
it was unnecessary
uncalled for
for you wanted to know if I had talked
i would get around to it
you had no need to stare
but it is also
that everything
I would fix
it was my responsibility to
and I knew it
I knew it when I went to bed
and I knew it later
for it seems
that through the end
the guardian will prevail
if he trips
he fixes all the mess
cleaning up after himself
he cleans for others
and holds them
so that it won't happen again

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the series - 10

did we ever understand
the awkward silence in the group
the awkward silence in the phone
it is fine
i knew you feel you should say something
and that it should all work out later
but you see
I needed
it get the ball rolling
to have all unsolved things solved
I plan an attack
and take it
that is how a guardian works
that is why, through it all
I knew you would understand
understand that in the end
I am this bad with girls
and worse with guys
I feel nothing
to either
and with that
it seems that people find me odd
or find me queer
for i will attack and get stuff started within 24 hours
so that it can all start to be spun
within that time
that is to say
if I could control everyone
I would stop what they are doing
and changing them for the better
within a day.

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the series - 11

if I could see it all
i would understnad
that everything
everything
in the time frame
of a few hours
turned forthe worst
and it turned
and it turned
i watched as I tramatized everyone
and made it hard for me
made it hard when all of a sudden
you are holding hands with the one you love
and the one who will later
turn you
and make it interesting
and make you all there
but only in the emotions
it was scary
the one I loved
at some point left
at some point gave up
for it was hard
whe nhe got up
and I saw it to the end
I knew
I had heard
but it was then
that I felt
that I was more than alone
for it was stupid
I wanted someone
but would feel ghost like
as if unable to do anything
anything till I once again
saw the light,