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the series - 12

if everything happened
if there was anyone else
I think this would have changed
you had lost everyone
I had lost the one who is like me
and then it worked
and we were there
playing
moving everywhere
it was interesting to say the least
unable to comprehend it all
for you see
it was something I was scared of
but not sure what would happen if I was there
you took him away
gave me nothing but fun to play with
I never let go
never
of the one thing that if I was stronger
if I was alone
would have done.
The fail safe has not worked
and now we know
so can we all disappear
into the death that awaits us all
when I fear
for i am lust
covered in a envy body
and then, sadly to say
a skin of a person
who believes in a guardian help feeling

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the series - 13

I have not had a chance
a chance to sit down
to do nothing
do just spill
for the hours that I am doing now
it is relaxing
no one on
no one here to annoy me
in this way
I can't wait
wait till I fix it all
does everyone not understand
that it is a secret
what was done was done
i would prefer the only ones knowing
are the ones
who were there
some i fell
had a right
some I feel
I am not sure why
but also have a right
the many many
who ask but we won't tell
are the ones
that I feel
should also know,
but there is one person each
who told one other person
someone to say soemthing
and that something was fine
for now
at max that it is
we will deal with it all.

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the series - 14

in the end
I feel myself crying
I want the cat
the cat who lives
the cat who does what he wants
and comes back when he wants to be petted
I
and I alone
feel like a keeper
a keeper of pets
the ones
The puppy dog who chases me
the puppy who does not understand
the kitty who likes me more
and with us we have an understanding.
But who is this third
this pet
who seems to know that i can help
he understands
though it took a lot for him to spill
we got in a situation much worse than before
so it takes everything else out
and in my defense
I am not sure what this creature is now
so will I meet him
and see the person inside
or not?

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the series - 15

do we all understand?
that through it all
i will not just leave a mess and run away
that a direct confrontation is necessary
that we should all just be back on track, ignoring what happened
but be wary
when we all get there again
when all in my head
are not straight
but it is bad
when I show off
that i do know soemthing
that I understand it all
that it is bad when I can just close it all up
that I can realyl do that
and in this sense
should it all happen again?
no, probably not
but now what
since we all sit here
very confused on what our reaction is.

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the series - 16

you had asked
you hand asked it to all go away
that I actually be social
that was nothing
I knew better than to be
but when you start caring
and I am trashed
we are both not fully here
but it was funny
for your caring
was obviously past your limit
on it.
I don't understand
but when we all suddenly got weird
it was bad
when it reached the hour
we talk mysteriously
ask if all gone
so then why
why when i can show it all
do we all hide it away?

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the series - 17

with everything resolved
i still feel guilty
I still did stuff
even while sober
it is sad
but not bad
I did warn him
he did what he was suppose to
it takes skill on both our parts
It is hard to suppress it all
but in the end
it was the case
I would have fun
I did mention what would have happened
if that had all gone up earlier
but it is weird
that what I give
is their fantasy
to many
but it is fine in my mind
for it is learning
never ending learning
i learn about them
they get what they want
it was all making sense then
so it was sad
I wanted Eric back
not really
but my relationship with him is vital
Mark unfortunately
is good enough
that like me
keeps it all hidden
in a compartment
inside.

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the series - 18

it was all insane
the issues
the guardians
Mark's confusion
can he see it
the issue being
that I was sober for part of it
I understood it all
and yes
i lack the feeling
the touching
so much it is sad
like all of us
but it is also
that in that moment
I understood
understood that he does have the issues
that he does know it all
it was sad
I like those who do know
but it is the same
the ability to walk away
and know it is fine
is too hard here
with everyone to know
it would be impossible
and with it all
it would be very very odd
so why is it all worked up
for you see
with it all
i think of environment a bit too
so I choose wisely form there

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the series - 19

like it all
i was anxious
wanting it all to be solved
i had to take actions
for what I am sorry for
for what happened
I like those who know me little
for those
with no understanding
but respect what they do know
but with it all a gap
and with it all
I think you of all people
if it had been different
than maybe
then maybe it would have been better
for it the end
it was bad
for if it was different
I would have had no one
and let it all go through me
and for me to stay.

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the series - 20

had did it all happen
it was sad
it was sad
when he said dammit
i knew exactly what I had told him
exactly what he knew
what it had meant
i am what people wish for
just the ones i find
are the ones who can't use that
who can't play with my piece
who chose to not
that should
just a bit
let it exist
and help
but in the end
I would not be able to hold it
but in between
i wondered
when I saw his sad eyes
especially now
that it was all very odd
that it was weirder
because i watched him
the injured one
like all of us
and like everyone else
see only one person
that it hurts them both
but sadly to say
he hopefully will give what I want
and not a slow effect of it all
for I want more
and in that state
don't worry
I will be there
holding you.

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the series - 21

sop what happens
when you feel his sadness
when I want it fixed
when I want to be there
and to watch him
in his despair
but then I know
part of me
is hard
and the one
with every movement
i could not control it all
And even then
I was playing with the stuffed animal
for a reason
and slowly he did too
it was to keep each other off of one another
in my state
i must regain it all
but it is fine
for you see
I am actually feeling that I am going no where
can I be around him more?
can I see him once again?
or should i give it all up?
but I know I won't
and if I did take mark later
it would have to be soon
for you see
either that
or hold it still
I could see myself
one day
knocking at that door
and standing
my clothes
in shatters
standing there
confused
wondering why I am there
he if he wants
could pull me down
pin me but till then
I will hide it all
wanting nothing

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the series - 22

can we all see
I fail at faking
you turned me away
it was good
I get drunk easily
it takes almost nothing
but you did push me away
with just a finger
i watched
as you rolled it away
my fine
wrist, but it was sad
i knew i should be
i watched
but I did forget
i was glad you did
it hurt so much
but it was interesting
to watch as felt it
I felt the heat
evey movement
and I remember
remember it all
it was amazing
that I didn't let it go
and you have more control than me
so it was sad
when I watched
i did warn you
it might have been a surprise
but insane
when I did everything
that I could
to keep self away
so we will learn
but now he knows
what can happen
and why we are all so bad
and why we fail
when it all turns out to be hard

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the series - 23

if I could control
fully
it was before it all
we learned
that w should stay off
you should not need to be that way
as for me
we shouldn't do such damage
it was insane
but interesting
i think
even for you
you remember
it was odd
i wanted it all gone
and with it
I wanted it all to disappear
but if that is true
do I want it regretted
but it is in my nature
but we
we all know
well at least now he does
that I am beyond salvation
for it hurts a lot
but we are all willing to give it up
for the academics of it all
and so
to control self
i wear a collar.

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the series - 24

it was all
for fun and games
we miss her a lot
and I do too
but she needs to be left out
but she will instantly pin another
and in the end
I will lose these feelings
take advantage
you will soon lose me
to the void of my actual emotions
and i will ignore us all then
and think it means nothing
that is how I am
take this time
and see the opportunity
see it all again
butt if I was with him
i would break him
for staying here
it would be interesting
for you see
i want them so badly
but I will instantly
be taken away
and dragged
chained away
so that I won't be anything but myself again

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the series - 25

if I could control self
what would I do
could i please
but it hurts
it goes against my nature
like I made you do
it was nice
sitting there
leaning on you
that is what i want
it is hard
especially when we all hurt
when I saw it all
I turn
in cycles
that I feel I shouldn't be around
i should lock self
into a cage
so that I can once again see
so that through it all
I can have my fun
but not be disappointed
not sure what would happen
when it all happens
for hte final time.

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the series - 26

it is interesting
when I broke it all
I watched
as i held your hand
you did nothing
it isn't that you don't know
it is like you feel each time one should move
I am use to interesting
both fast and slow
but it is weird
when it is all said and done
that i am a player
that I held both hands
that I wanted you both to be happy
but it was fine
I could not deal with both
and so
at some point
i saw her
she failed
just a bit
for it seems
when one pursued
and the other did nothing
he lost one
and later
would gain three
so I won;'t go back. Just keep me away from you. Just for a little bit.

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the series - 27

it is hard
to know
that you liek it all in person
that it would be nice
if it was all only there
but it was sad
and I am sorry
to put you though it all
but I wanted it done
I wanted it figured out
i know I say one thing
and slightly act another
but I miss it soo much
I need the barrier down
but I see it not there
and I watch as everything flows
it hurts more than normal
i see it all hurt
but it is soemthing
that soon I can suppress
so let me run
let me sit in my room and stay away
I am banned from them all
all those with chemistry similar to me
for it scares me
to be around
for even watching movie
I can;t control self.

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the series - 28

it seems stupid
but I have so little control
I am weak
to touch
even just a little
it hurts
i am aggressive
to it all
but it is funny
cause you understand
when you do
i feel better
the feelings
the touching as we hold each other
even if I am just dear
lying near you
on you
just for fun
no different that at home
with girls
it is nice
but in the end
I watch as you put your arm thee
even under my coat
i understood
and I felt you
wanting me
I am glad though
you didn't feel the reaction
i was for once warm
but I love the blind
and love who I actually would love
and that is why.
I go not off chemistry
but my favorite personality
maybe you are for me
there is stuff you would find odd
but I suspect
i will be the one
who will be there
be there for you
and you for me
when we all fail badly.

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the series - 29

why does it seem
that I end up able to control all
i watched
as I left
that you wanted me there
you wanted me sitting with you
i wanted to give you a hug
but it hurts
to just wave
it was fine
but fine
for if not that
i would be doomed
I am frail
frail as I am when touched
but a hug does nothing
and as such
it is hard
to get what I feel
to get the abnormal
but i did sleep on top a friend
but it was hard
they moved with me there
i never woke up
i just died
and relaxing the feeling
it was hard to see it all
so that is why I quit it all
for it hurts too much
so what happens
if we were required to dance
would you take advantage of me
if i said it was ok
or do nothing?

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the series - 30

iot seems insane
I want it all out
all regret
though I dare not call it that
for you see
I think that there is a better word
but I can not find it
my limited self
it loves it all
it loved that happiness
that required the tensing afterward
it would be great
I respect you
but you
like me have flaws
I respect us all
and so
when it boils down to it
I feel that there is something odd
when all I have left is me
and very little of it
so please
can I be around
if it all falls.

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the series - 31

does it seem
that I am indecisive
I am so
I want to choose the other
but it is a case
i could go for you
it isn't too hard for me
but it seems
that you also know
i am glad you are a man of your word
I put you in a dangerous position
gave you a chance to be tested
but it is silly
I gave you a chance
and thankfully
you turned it all down
I am glad you did
i tested you
but it seems
when I went up
I knew the whole thing would be an issue
for you see
I hurt a lot
I miss it all dearly
the simple part
the getting together
the simple stuff
for you see
that is all I need
to be fully there

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the series - 32

it seems
that it hurt a lot
that I know I saw it in you
i am glad you are a man of your word
I saw what you wanted
and wishes
it all again
I saw that
in those eyes of yours
but it was sad
for i need just wave
goodbye I said
did you see my knowledge
the effort I made
to keep me from doing anything
if that is what got out
then what do you think is inside
broiling
though if that was one date
I would be happy
so happy
it is better in that sense than the other.
so then it seems
that though it all
i hold a secret
i wish the secret was easier to keep
but I want it so
you know what to do
it is a case
I leave part of myself with you
but I will try
to not give you a key
for you already have a part
or at least
can see it forming
if not that
then you can see the other effect
the lock there
so what will you do now?
please stay
with your word
and wait for me.

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the series -33

I wonder
when I feel regular
when will that be
for you see
it hurts
it hurts a lot
because unlike everything else
I see just me in the mirror
the effects of it all
the parts that I see
the part effected sonly by chemistry
for you see
I know I wouldn't keep you
but it is silly
for you and I want it all
want every small part
and want if farther and farther
it is too hard on me though
for you see
it hurts me to see the effective self
that it hurts to see it there
so in the end
i will slowly leave
like you and I know I will.

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the series - 34

in it all
did you see it
did you see what happened to me
I became a flip
it showed to me
like you showed me
I show you
it hurts to see
that we are similar
i know what I do to you
and what has happened to you
all this time
i have felt the sorrows of the pain
the sorrows as I start to wail
for you see, it hurts, but I can not change anyhting
because in the end
it hurts beyond what I have left to keep.

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the series - 35

you and I hold conversations differently
i can do one on the phone
i don't like to
to do one in person is easier
i walk in
holding my life at your hands
it is funny though
cause you like me figit
we tangent
like nothing else
I watch as you, like me sit there
while i sit on the phone
it is stupid you see
but there is much to be said
I felt
and i forgot
even now
when I spill
It is all nothing
nothing unfinished
nothing I did not know
I wanted to inform you
but it is something that i fell is stupid
and that is deserve being burned for
but I trust myself
to keep myself in line
that we need not drinking
for me to be high
it is the case
but it hurts
to drink it all
for until then
I will get depressant.

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the series - 36

why do you worry
ok fine I do stupid things on occasion
it is silly
but it is also a case
that no matter what
in the end
I will still be there
standing
so why do you worry
when five hours pass by
you obviously lack the knowledge
that i love hearing him
that it was amazing
but I love his stories
and his storied are those
at which I start to understand
just who he is