I don't know, I'm supposed to be at work right now and I'm waiting for my partner to snap out of his angry state so we can go to work. We are supposed to be getting a blizzard monday which isn't good because his doctor appointment is on that day.... I'm beside myself with so much stress. I'm getting to the point that I really just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe you will get to visit your aunt in Oregon, I liked it there as I was in Seattle shortly.

Enough about that, I played for a about a half hour last night before I fell asleep. The wholoe layout of all the towns are totally different. You can get there much quicker. A lot of the boards are no more, guess they were destroyed. I really don't know what's going on there. I haven't really been fighting too much of anything really-- just mushrooms, snails, and slimes... not much else between Ellinia and Hennesey, I found like fifteen more skill points in my stats to add and another skill added on there. It was really cool my attacks look different and now my magic can sometimes do critical damage which I didn't know it should have in the first place. I have noticed that red and blue potions aren't worth didley squat anymore. They weren't dropped as frequently so that's why I guess, now wherever I went I saw nothing but blue and red potions being thrown about all over the place. A lot more has changed i will wager, but to what extent, I still don't know yet.

I'm sorry to hear about the stress you are going through. I haven't been to the doctors in a long time, not even for check ups. Which is bad, because i think there are alot of things wrong with me. I also think I have some kind of ear infection...But it could all be in my head. I stopped going because my doctor sucks, and doesn't do anything that helps me. It's just a waste of money.
I would only go to oregon to see the snow. :] Not my aunt, because she is awkward, and her family really pisses me off, especially her husband. I feel bad for her daughters though (my cousins), they have such a crappy dad.

Aww. I really want to play D: i was like 10% away from getting to level 59. My guild leader probably thinks I quit again or forgot about him. I feel bad about that...
Wow! Free pots everywhere?! That is awesome! The patch still isn't working. It gets stuck at "Creating Base 3/3" or something like that. SO i thought i should just wait it out. I left it , and went outside and did a bunch of stuff. So like 8 hours later, I came back to check on it, and it was the SAME. Still stuck at Creating base thing. D: This sucks...

Well, my partner ended up staying home today, but at least he called his boss and told her his mental state and she told him to stay home thank God! So he did not end up getting fired but I ended up being an hour and a half late... but luckily I have a cool boss too... It was a chill night at work and I did a lot of ranting to my co-workers about my issues with my partner, mental and relationship wise-- I feel a bit better tonight as when I got home we talked and spent a little time watching tv together. Finding a good doctor is hard to do. If your ear keeps bothering you maybe you should see a doctor, what is exactly wrong?

Try re loading the patch. Free potions will make it easier to save more gold for more expensive items though ...oh well.

That's good, he should be staying home instead of working. AW! COOL! You guys have awesome bosses! My dad is friends with his boss, which is cool, but creepy to me...I haven't seen him in a while, I hear his name alot, because my dad is always talking to him over the phone. That's nice! Watching TV together with someone is the best thing to me. I love doing that.
I know, good doctors are so rare. My doctor always says, If you are not in danger of dying from it, it's not a problem. You are fine!" >.>'' She is so stupid. Well..I keep hearing high pitched noises in my right ear sometimes. Also in my left ear, but not as much as in my right one. And the inside of it really hurts, people ask me if it's itchy, but it's not itchy....it hurts. :[
I have redownloaded the patch so many times. and reloaded it alot too. It's just not working.... D:
That is so true! I love free pots :] Even though I don't use the health pots, i would love the free mp Pots :]

Well he's not been drinking much liquor, but we are currently in a blizzard and its like 15F here. My partners other doctor appointment is tomorrow but he is supposed to work tomorrrow at the same time as well which is a conflict, going to see his doctor is crucial so we are going to have to tell his work place that this is really importnat which I'm sure they willl understand and the fact that we may not be able to get out of town to where we work at will be an issue for sure. The neighbor came over yesterday who has all kinds of dodgy folks over his apartment where the horrible incident that could have been tragic took place just days ago, was trying to get my partner to hang out with him again. My partner is a big dummy when it comes to being nice to people, and he often gets taken advantage of. I just want him back on his medicine, so we can have more peace of mind at the house without having to have him doped up on pills to keeep him from flipping out.

It sounds like you have some sort of disease of the ear that is chronic of some form of itas where people hear these high pitches sounds that don't stop. You definitely need to get that checked out-- could be an ear infection. Why is it creepy your dad has a friendly boss? Is there something about him you don't like?

Big Bang has caused the entire Maple world to be condensed for the most part and that kind of sucks, I did get an SP reset scroll which you should be able to get one too. It's pretty cool though, potions are so ubiquitous all over the board that people ignore them now. I just gained level 53 today!! Hurray My attacks are much stronger now.

I wish my dad would stop drinking. He drinks alot now, he didn't used to drink before. :p It's worrying me.
Sounds very crucial O_O'' Will he be needing to take pills his whole life? Or is it something else...?
My brother will always have to take his allergy medicine, I know it's a different problem, but still, my brother has a weird tongue thing going on. >.>'' He scratches his tongue against his throat...and it makes a weirdo noise. He has had that problem ever since he was born. My right eye gets really watery sometimes, and that is another birth problem.

It's most likely an ear infection. Or i'm slowly going deaf. Because my hearing sucks already. So i wouldn't be surprised if I ended up really deaf. It's creepy that my dad has a friendly boss, mainly because he talks to him like he is his best friend. they probably are best friends. But still...I don't really know...like you wouldn't even be able to tell that he was his boss. O-o''

I think there is an expiration date on the SP reset scrolls D: And i still can't get in to play! I don't think i will be able to use the scrolls V_V That's nice. I want alot of mp pots so I wouldn't have to leave my training place. Congrats on level 53! You will soon pass me, and i still won't be able to play! HAHAHAAHA!

Your computer will work soon, I feel it. How much does your dad drink? My partner has had seven 24 ounce beers and 3 shots of liquor at the bar... its really ridiculous. We were supposed to see his doctor today but the blizzard kept the doctor from getting to work so that really screwed us over. Tonight wasn't as bad as some other nights, the blizzard has really compounded him when he gets like this he hates being cramped up inside. It's like 4 degrees outside right now and he and I got into an argument and my car got stuck in some snow. Out frat neighbors helped us out but he got his hands frost bit. He's asleep for now so I'm really happy about that.
Well you should go see a doctor. Is your dad's boss--gay or bi? You never know... trust me, I have known a lot of closet cases in my life so far.
I gained two levels in two days... somehow it just doesn't seem right. I'm taking my time. I'm not so interested in leveling up all the time, sometimes I just like to hang out and meet new friends-- and help out some newbies.

I don't think it's my computer that isn't working, it's the patch. Many others are experiencing the same problem. Nexon doesn't fully support some computers. >.>" I'm not entirely sure how much he drinks, but he drinks up to the point where he isn't himself anymore. Wow. That blizzard is really messing things up D:
Aww...he is sleeping :]
I know, I haven't gone to the doctors in a long time. I will though, soon. I'm pretty sure he is not, he is married and everything...
I mean he is cool. I just think they don't have the boss and worker relationship that would seem fair to the other workers.
AWW man! I want to level super fast too D:

Nexon needs to get on the ball and do their damn homework, don't they realize they are losing business? Drinking to where someone has a personality change is not a good thing. A sign of being an alcoholic... where is your mom if you don't mind me asking. Blizzards suck... especially if you have someone who is bi-polar and off their meds. I haven't been to the doctor either so I have no room to speak about that. Well, there are lots of bisexual people out there and my partner is one of them, I have met married men who wanted to have relations with me which I thought was horrible of them, if only their wives knew... Well its helping out your situation for your father to be able to keep his job which is good. Its gotten much easier to level up as you don't need as much experience.

You will like that aspect of it, but it seems the world has shrank, because a lot of places seems to have been condensed. Another aspect about Big Bang I do not like.

Indeed. Nexon customer service is VERY poor. Where in Korea, they have excellent customer service, (i've heard).
It's scary having to see my dad do that. My mom. Well, I believe she is part of the problem, you see they are divorced. But because my dad and brothers decided it would be best to move away (far away) my mom heard about this. So, being the evil leecher of happiness that she is, she wants to make things "right" with my dad. So now that they are dating, which is so not cool...but I don't want my dad to know that, because then it will all come down to me, and everyone will blame me for everything. I see past my mom, and her evil plans, she wants to get on my dad's good side, so she could move with us. But because I don't want her to come with us, I know my dad will drink A LOT. When he was married to my mom, i thought of him as a stranger, a guy who drinks all the time. When he divorced her, however, i spent time at his house, with out my mom for like 7 years. He didn't drink at all. or at the very least NON alcoholic beers. We became so close, like BEST friends. Even closer than my real friends. In my heart, I believe my dad is drinking because my mother is around us again. I'm really sorry to say that she is the source of alot of bad things that happen. I love her, but only when she has nothing to do with my dad.
I'm pretty sure his boss likes women, they talk about girls on the phone xD Creepy that they are pretty old, (in my eyes) and I just want my dad to be more mature. Because if he isn't ...then who will be? O_o'' ....Mostly I would have to rely on my grandma. If I had to choose who to live with , it would have to be her. Which is really sad to say.

Aww. Mapleword got smaller?! That is poo! I'm missing out of the awesome leveling experience I could be having! >:[

That's sad to hear, its hard for people to confront their psychological issues and affect permanent change because of pride which is a lot of people's downfall, including my own to a certain extent. I wonder if your dad sees this? Maybe its best they go their separate ways, sometimes its for the best. Sometimes its not easy though... Your dad sounds like he could use some counseling. How does your brother feel about it? Well, thats cool, but trust me, most bisexuals can fool a lot of people, just be aware of that. A lot of people live two lives out there.

Yea, it seems to have gotten much smaller, things aren;t in the same place they used to be, everythinig is moved around and you got to hunt all over again. Well hopefully you will be able to get on soon.

I think my dad knows. I basically told him that, that was what I though my mom is planning to do. But I guess he doesn't care. Because I know that he just wants her around to take care of us. Which, she does. But then...my grandma isn't too happy about my mom staying in our house again. That's a whole other story though.
I know that my parents need to get away from eachother, they are exacty like my brother and I. We used to fight all the time, but now we are coolio. I just needed to change things about myself :p
My mom said she is going to counseling with my dad. And in my head i'm just like "Really?! You are going to try and make this work aren't you? You will force this, any way possible to stay in our lives?" She is a very stubborn woman. She just doesn't get it. My older- OLDER brother doesn't care, because he is old enough to live on his own, so family stuff doesn't really mess with his plans or effects him like it does to me and my other brother. and my Other brother, just doesn't care at all, as long as he isn't getting yelled at. While i'm the only one who cares, and stresses about everyones happiness.
Two different lives, huh? Sounds wrong, sounds like liars....
I really hope I could play again, I need an escape from home right now. >.>''

It sounds like you know that it won't work, but if they are both going to counseling then perhaps maybe it would be helpful to let you and your brother go and voice what it is you got to say as well and why you think it wouldn't work. Is this the first time they have separated? It sounds really complicated, I'm sure you have some really personal issues about the whole thing. It almost sounds as if your mom comes in between you and your relationship with your father which is not good. My parents divorced when I was 10 and My dad took me back to England for almost 2 years. It was really hard on me.
Living 2 different lives is deceptive and wrong, but it happens a lot more than people like to admit, not saying your dad and his boss are now...
I need an escape nowbut unfortunately, my partner burned another bridge last night with our neighbor, he's half black and white and was talking about the Moors on how they built just about every civilization, he got tired of it of course but he is always talking about the ultimate aryan race around him which sets my neighbor off to this shit. Then he gets aggressive saying my neighbor doesnt like white people when he and I are both white in this dude's house. It was so disrespectful and the only way shit didn't go down was because I was their playing mother hen. I'm so beside myself right now. If he isn't able to get medicine soon, I will need it as well.

I truly need to escape, but I can't just throw him out in the cold... I still love him, but he acts so stupid when he's drunk and off his meds.
A lot of other shit happened earlier that night but its just too shameful to even bring up and pathetic.

There are a whole bunch of other problems revolving around that one, that include other family members and such.
My brother and gave up on the whole mom and dad thing. We made a promise to each other that the only person we can count on to be ourselves with and be happy is each other. So over the years, my brother and I have become closer, and my dad and mom, are becoming unknown figures. My parents tried getting back together before, because honestly, I know for a fact my dad wants someone helping to take care of us. And for years, that person has been my grandma (his mom) She did everything for us, she was like my MOM. I even called her "mom" by accident a few times. and called my mom.."grandma" ....Which is pretty twisted. My dad appreciates everything my grandma has done, but like every human being, he got to the point where he became lonely. So my conclusion is, that my dad wants someone to love, and love him back, WHILE taking care of us. SO....i guess that is where he let my mom back in. I have moved from school to school, house to house, but still in the same area/ state. I've lost alot of friends along the way.
I hope you are able to get to the hospital/ doctors. Seems he is way over due in taking his medicine.
At least you were there to stop it from getting too ugly, right? :0 he needs you. (your partner) In a big way, you are the only person who can take care of him, in the crappy state that he is in.
He may be acting very foolish, but I'm sure that's not the real him acting up? I'm sure he is grateful for you and all you are trying to do for him. <3

Well that's great that you and your brother have that kind of bond. It's really sad when kids have to grow up faster than they should. I definitely understand where your coming from, been there. Your dad should realize that there are many other women out there. I hate to see people unhappy, it seems to simple, just to be happy but yet for some people it seems so terribly far out of reach. I like to try to be a ray of hope in all of my friends life if I can, just to be that ray of sunshine that makes them want to see tomorrow, then I feel like I have accomplished something good. My neighbor is so protective over even talking about his grandmother, my partner just doesn't realize how close he came to getting into a horrible fight-- which I don't know what the outcome would have been, but it could not have been good. My partner when he drinks gets that mentality that he's such a badass.... but he's really not invincible like he thinks he is. Talking about how he might kill his dad when he gets that drunk... its really sick. I got him an appointment tomorrow thank God!!

Be strong, you can do it, you sound like a very strong woman and you and your brother will come out much stronger individuals.

As for Maple, I hope you can play soon. I haven't been playing because I haven't been emotionally available for reasons known. Anyways getting him out of town for the day, and no liquor for him.

I know. My dad told me that he has been trying to look for some other woman that are "worthy" or being are me and my brothers. But he told me, that all the women he has seen/ talked with/ tried to get to know/ are not the kind of women he wants or sees being with. So I guess he kind of gave up on other women. I'm kind of like the safety blanket to my friends. They tell me their problems and i cheer them up, and make them forget about their problems when they are with me. They feel good again. But I don't really tell them my problems, they have no idea what's going on with my. So i just carry on like everything is okay. Because I want to be a stable friend. I'm being the friend that I have always wanted, but never had.
Yay for appointments! :] You guys better not have to wait long. I really hate the waiting rooms. The doctors always make me wait like 2-4 hours. D:
Thank you! In a way, i'm kind of like his parent, and he is kind of like mine. We take care of each other because we are alone most of the time. My parents almost all day. So i don't really spend alot of time with them, just on weekends, and winter/summer vacation.
i don't think I will be able to play anytime soon. I sent them a ticket with this problem, but they still haven't responded, and it's been a week and a half already.

Maybe your dad is looking in all the wrong places. He will find someone when he isn't even looking. Well, if you are sad or upset, it isn't healthy to bottle up your feelings. You got to be authenthic, sooner or later your friends, if they are good friends, will pick up on it and realize that something is going on with you. If they are good friends then they will want to know what's going on with you. Being a friend is not a one sided coin of me me me, its about sharing and that means problems too. Friends are for the good and the bad times. Well, just continue to be there for each other and things will be fine it seems but at the same time, if you need counseling, I would strongly suggest talking to a school counselor.

My partner and I went to visit my friend whose parrot just died. She was distraught, she and her son. I think I cheered them up, my partner hung out with her husband, his mom, and his cousin and her husband. I definitely think it was good that we got out today, my partner and I talked on the way there about last night. I told him I wasn't going to buy him anymore liquor. He had about six twenty-four ounce beers today which was like a 12 pack. He's definitely giddy right now, but it will wear off hopefully so he can go to sleep. He told me I had the patience of a saint which made me feel good, but I just hope and pray that they give him some good meds. Otherwise, its going to be pretty rough. My friend gave me some relaxer pills to help calm him so hopefully he won't get manic and in a state of hyper tension tomorrow, it will be a ten hour shift for us both.
Both my friend's son's are on Maple too. One is a level 40 dual blader the other is a level 35 explorere warrior.
I hope they fix it for you soon, because that just sucks!!

Probably. But i don't blame him, the people here suck. No one is really nice anyways.
Well they sense it, but I don't really want to tell them, they never know what to say anyways.
And I don't want to make them feel awkward around me. Then they kind of feel useless if they can't help.
I've had a therapist before. But I don't really like those, because they tell your parents everything you said, and what you MAYBE thinking. Which is a bunch of crap.
That's nice that you guys got to hang out with them, outside of your house and stuff. Indeed, I also hope he gets good meds, the doctors always give me the same meds, but they never work :[ So it's just like a waste of money. Good luck with the ten hour shift o_o
That's cool! i think my brother's friend plays too! I will ask him today. But I still can't play. They finally replied to my ticket, and they just suggested doing what I'VE BEEN DOING THIS WHOLE TIME. Reinstall maple. :[

Yea, some people just aren't very friendly, finding someone that is right for someone is never an easy task. Yea once you turn 18 they cannot tell your parents anything unless you are a threat to someone else or yourself. How old are you? Tonight ended up being a seven hour shift and not a whole lot going on really. One party cancelled so I didn't have to be there until 2 am. which was kind of cool but bad at the same time because we aren't getting any hours next week which isn't good. He got his medicine today and thankfully he didn't punk out of work today. We were both late, but hopefully this next week will be sufficient enough for him to get back on his meds and adjust to being on them. I'm kind of glad the next door neighbor isn't having anything else to do with my partner because he was kind of a bad influence, even though my partner is 31 and the neighbor is 24... yea I know... go figure. I just had a bday myself a couple weeks ago and turned-- yes 33! Yea I'm old-- but don't look over 25 hehehehhehe!
Well hopefully it will work for you so we can hang out online and go train together. I reached level 54 today! They are coming out with the new classes pretty soon.

My dad is pretty hard to get along with sometimes. You have to kind of change yourself inorder to make him happy. :[
I'm seventeen xD~ That's nice. I hope things will be better for you guys. Work-wise and spending more time together.
How is the neighbor a bad influence? Is he an alcoholic? Or does drugs...or something? Neighbors are pretty scary!
Happy Late Birthday! :] You're not that old :0
Hmm...I think it has something to do with the population increase in the game? That usually slows me down.
But Maybe i'll just have to wait for ANOTHER patch to come out inorder for it to work.
But I highly doubt it WOULD fix the problem. All I can do is wait. Sadly, it's not working out so far. I've waiting for about a week and a half already! WOAH you are leveling fast! I want to lvl too T_T

Well, I do believe that there is someone for everyone.
Well, the whole issue of he and I is a tough one, just because he truly believes most of the time that he isn't gay even though its clear to see the tendencies come out and other people observe how he does things that truly straight men do not do. It's his mind and up bringing from his dad which was hard super alpha male style that really messed him up in that regard. I'm just hoping that maybe being on medicine and seeing how I have stuck by his side that hopefully he will come around, if not, then I may have to move on which will be very hard for me. Not because "he's not gay" he is bi, but because he can't be comfortable with himself. It's all in his head.
The neighbor smokes crack and I'm pretty sure does meth-- along with drinking and pills along with other drugs, but he really isn't a bad person, but thats his way and sooner or later its going to fall apart for him. Not saying that my partner does any of that, but all the dodgy individuals that come over that do hallucinogens. I'm against all of that stuff, I have two brothers who let drugs ruin their lives.

Well, just keep trying and send them another ticket and tell them that you have already reinstalled the program. Have you actually erased the program you have and then reinstalled it? I hope you can get on soon. I have been playing my level 30 Evan lately.

He better appreciate everything you are doing for him! You are being very supportive and nice. Not like anyone else would would just abandon someone when things get tough. You are a very good person! And if he doesn't see that, then he is blind!
He also needs to be comfortable with himself. We all need to be, that is like a major MUST. You need to accept yourself for what you truly are, or you will never be happy.
That neighbor is going to die at a young age. All that stuff is BAD! Drugs are horrible. Except...maybe. of course Medicine. Medical drugs are necessary for the ill. But those people are using drugs in the most horrible way. I don't understand why people do drugs/ and drink themselves to the death.
The first ticket i sent them, I already told them that I reinstalled the game (and completely removed it). None of it is actually working D:

Wow, it has been a relaxing day, I haven't called anyone talked to anyone, its been great. My partner and I have hardly spoken all day, he sleeps in the living room on the couch and watches tv while I stay warm in my room on the computer. Just in passing he tells me whats on tv or if someone came to the door or if my other roommate, a 66 year old man who is annoying as shit, he dropped off 15$ which he was supposed to bring 25$ for power and cable. That's a whole other story. The drama never stops LOL!!
The neighbor is half black and half white and trys to tell me that the Moors, who were a group of north Africans had basically conquered the world way before whites or any other race did, that blacks had came from Africa to the Americas long before whites ever did. I doubt that's true, but I wasn't there... that's and my partner got tired of listening to my neighbor's rant on trying to assert black superiority. I'm not racist, but repeating something like that is bothersome. Well his friends are just as shady as he is when he does deals. It's just a matter of time before all hell breaks loose over there. I keep to myself and hopefully now my partner will stay over on our side. He hasn't wanted a beer all day even though he had two 24 ounce.
I got to enjoy my MS all day today I leveled up my Evan(Methusula) from 30 to level 32 and my Dawn Warrior(Zechariiah) from level 40 to level 42. The characters are definitely more powerful after this whole big bang thing. Oh well guess I will get used to it.
I really hope you can get on soon, can't wait to go adventuring with you again. My best friends kids are on there hard core, they can't wait until Jan 20th for the Mechanic class to come available from the Resistance Group. My friend's quaker parrot passed away and her son who is 13 cried all day, he has a level 53 swordsman. A truly emotional boy, a good kid with a great heart. Her other son is 19 he has a level 43 dual blade.
Well I guess it's Jasterion's turn again...

That's nice! I wish I could do that, just lay in bed on my laptop. But someone is always bothering me, and telling me to do something, like chores or make them food, or something.
That's good. As long as things are getting good for you. Hope things get even better though!
I can't wait for christmas! I would actually go to the movies with all my family (well...just my brotherS and parentS and me.)
But that is basically everyone that we usually spend the holidays with now-a-days.
I don't remember that last time we all did that. I mean, I always go to the movies with just me, my brother (only one) and my dad. My mom and OTHER brother aren't there usually.. We all don't go at the same time xD
But this christmas is different, I CAN FEEL IT!
Congrats on the awesome leveling! I think they are releasing a new patch? YES! MAYBE it will fix my problem!
I truly hope so...or else...i will never be able to play T_T
Wow, they sound like nice kids. I really want to play. Congrats on leveling again, and hope you have fun!

Yea, white skies today, my partner is still sleeping on the coach, it would be nice for once if he would come keep me warm, but I can't make him feel comfortable, that is something he will have to deal with. At least the medicine seems to be working for him, he's not as wild as he has been and seems much much calmer than before. I'm getting ready to call the movie theatre up and go see the part one of the last Harry Potter movie just because, I feel like I deserve to do something for myself. Enjoy family times, the older you get the harder it seems to get everyone in the same location.
I fell asleep last night while I finished three quest in the ninja castle in Japan. I got three dark scrolls, one was for a face accessory the others were for other equipment pieces. Yes, they are supposed to release another patch very soon, so hopefully you will get to play. I'm halfway to level fifty-five, ehheheheheh. I don't have a facemask yet, I have seen racoon face mask, but don't know where to get them. Oh well, I will find them eventually once I run out of quests to do that give you much more minimal experience, but of course it takes less to level up now.