My roof and walls are cracking which makes me upset. I'm afraid my house is going to die.

Everyone, I'm so sorry....for the lost jobs, the breaking houses, all of it. My life isn't so bad, even if I am alone at the moment. Rooting for all of you!

this christmas, my little brother is overseas in Iraq, my older brother went with his wife and kids to the in-laws, so it's just me and my parents for christmas. the worst thing about that is that when we go to our extended family christmas party, i have to endure everyone and their pettiness all by myself. if my bros were here, i'd at least have one of them to keep me from going crazy, but looks like i'm on my own again.

My Sister-in-Law mostly spending her time on the road and makes it worse she spending time with some guy my brother don't approve of.

My husband try's to ruin my holiday spirit every year, he always acts like a jerk, especially when we have the family over here. He took off somewhere a little bit ago and I have no idea where he went and, I'm not sure I care. I'm sick of the way he acts in general and really wish I could find a full time job.

So two years ago, two weeks before Christmas my uncle died of pancreatic cancer. Last year, his wife, who had MS, passed away in November. This year my Aunt Marilyn called to tell us my Uncle Rudy had passed away on Christmas day. My Dad's family is Christian and my Mom's is Jewish, so both holidays are officially ruined for me.

I have no real reason (no recent tragedies have occurred) not to enjoy Christmas, but it just seems like I can't get in the spirit of the event and I'm generally depressed and tired. So many good things have happened - I got to see my partly-estranged cousins from Kaapstad, we went on vacation to the beach, we finished renovations on the bathroom of our house, my boyfriend and I are still together happily and so on... so I feel stupid and fickle for not enjoying everything I have.

Happy Hollerdays to the rest of you, I hope things turn around by New Year's.

Aww, I can relate, my dad died over a month ago. My family is getting along well but we can't celebrate anything even if we wanted to because my mum's religion states we have to be in a state of mourning for 100 days.
Not to mentioned I've been stressed from other things u_u;;

Hm well i get to add to this now... aside from still being heartbroken and very confused, when i actually drove all the way to visit my mom for christmas I arrive to her and her boyfriend piss drunk, both just randomly bickering throughout the night, my mom ended up taking a nap leaving the tool boyfriend to cook, the steak tasted like salt and the crab was still frozen and he didnt care he was just yelling stuff like "if you dont like it go cook it yourself! i like it cold!" or "these are the best steaks i have ever eaten!" he would yell out everytime my mom tried to ask if he could heat up the crab a little longer... so i just sat back quietly barely ate anything and got out of there as soon as we all finished dinner at 7....

well i drove home and layed in bed for an hour and then my ex came home well i decided to give him the christmas present i bought him anyways and we talked and even though i was crying my freakin eyes out i had more fun sitting with him for christmas than i did at my moms.....

oh and to add to it my mom announced that her and her boyfriend are going to try to have a kid.... sooooo yea ~_~

I can understand how the holidays just never feel the same after a loved one passes though, my brother passed away 3 years ago and none of the holidays are the same since :( its just not fun without him around and this christmas was a total let down...

@Synthetica: *le gasp* you have an evil stepfather instead of an evil stepmother? It's cool of you not to argue with you mom's bf though.

Glad you and your ex aren't fighting at least =) I wish I could help somehow ="( I hope you feel better.

stuff partners! go and get yourself drunk. It always works for me!

I've lost the joy I used to have in Christmas.

Don't know when or how, but I do know it is gone.

I miss it when I was younger and I was blind to the commercialism of it all.

I found out my ex-boyfriend cheated on me a week before my birthday this month (Dec 4). Now we're on some strange trip to possibly fixing what we had. All-in-all, not a good way to get into Christmas spirit.

nothing happened to ruin my spirit :o

Having to work 12 hours shifts every day really ruins your holiday spirits. It's just work. So big deal. But I didnt' get much sleep all week and I was so grumpy! >.<

That's not as bad as having friends/family pass away or being dumped I'm sure.. But it still doesn't make things fun for the holidays x.x

As I said in a different thread, the year of my sixteenth birthday my Christmas was ruined by having had the stomach flu weeks before and still feeling ill the day of.

This Christmas, it's a bit miserable because I haven't spoken to my actual family in a year. The last time I spoke to them was January 2nd of this year, and I had dinner with them as usual last year for Christmas, so this is really the first year I've not spent with my family in some way.

But then I really don't like most of my family, so I'm feeling a bit annoyed with myself for finding a Christmas without them depressing. It's really confusing.

Yahhh~ boxing day. It way to hectic and people are asses

The Christmas spirits seem to have given up...

*hugs* I'm sorry, that sucks...