They will be lonely if you don't love them!

Aw cute title <33
Just the pick me up I needed after a rather gushless, loveless valentines day. Though it wasn't so bad cause my crush and I chilled for while.

I will putter when I have an avi inspiration moment. u-u Presently.. I am tired and lazy. :snugs: Thank you for the little pick-me ups.

say-i-love-you: I'm glad I could offer a pick-me-up. :3 That was my goal. :heart: I was really inspired by the 'tell her she's beautiful' event/movement on facebook, so I've been making it my duty to make as many women as I can find feel genuinely appreciated. We're so hard on ourselves this time of year.

Fantastic that you got to chill with your crush. xD <3

Iseh: Any time, my dear. <33 I like being your twin meanwhile.

Lol. Yeah.. no more compulsive avi changing. I seem to have lost my will to whip up a new one.

I can go whole months without changing, but once I change it, I will obsessively change it several times a day for about a week. XD

Lol, it really just... depends on my moods I guess.

*nod* I like colour schemes that reflect how I feel. <3

My color schemes are usually a little weird, lol.

:chuckles and hums along with Kidnap the Sandy Claws:

I <333 She-wants-revenge's cover of that.

I'm rather partial to the original, lol.

Well, that one goes without saying. xD <3

*sighs* Didn't give Matt a valentine... vov I suck...

Brandon's such an ass that Matt has had to work 1-6, got 6-9 off, and is now back at work until like 11:30.... .-. And to make it up to me he had a pita delivered to me for dinner.

xD I'm pretty fond of Nabbed by The Yoshida Brothers though.

u-u I know how you feel... I didn't finish Jace's valentine doodle either...

Wtf, what bizarre hours.... u-u Jace popped in to see me at work towards my first break knowing I was in a super depressed mood and then surprised me later when I was working on recovery by popping up with roses for me.

*hums to Away From Me by Evanescence*

xD Yessu. <33 I like their sound. :3

It never feels like anything for him is quite good enough so I have a hard time finishing gifts. He likes even stick figures, but, I don't know.

Yeah... He had to ask to even get the three hours off to see me today. It's not his fault, it's Brandon being deplorable as usual (a rant that's too lengthy to get into right now), but I was really angry at first. Now I just feel really upset and teary. I don't even know why. It's just been a really lonely day, no one's around.

Roses are lovely. <3 I don't much like flowers, but I'm admittedly sad I didn't receive any when everyone else in the family did.

Good tunes. I've got the Juno Reactor instrumental of Control my Traci Lords playing right now. Gogo old Mortal Kombat days.

Yush. I hope to see them at Otakon this year.

u-u The stuff I do for Jace is difficult for me... I feel like I can never get Teridon, Hem or Mikh'ail right.

-- Sounds like Brandon and Lou are in a close league. :snorts: I was... as aching, blank and teary this morning as when I went to bed last night. I don't like waking up only to cry five minutes later.... :sighs: M'sorry, I had to go to work before you were up, otherwise I'd have kept you company.

I love getting flowers. But I also tend to dry them and keep them for scent and other stuff as well.

Mmm... Mortal Kombat. :drool

Yushu. <33

Yeah, that's another thing... xD Art for Matt requires males... *cough*

Yeah, except he's a co-worker instead of a boss. =A=; I think I could rant for a year and still have breath for more. Ugh.

http://yourfavoritewebsite.com/drawings/vcomics2.png
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>>;;


S'okay. *snuggles* I knew you'd be busy today. But yeah, I know what you mean. vov

Kinda bummed Hadsie and Kent haven't popped in today.

Oh, I always dry them. X3 My sister got something I'd never seen, too. A tie-dyed rainbow rose.

Good times with those games. xD Movies were so campy, lawl.

I don't mind drawing men, I just have the whole overly feminine thing going on. I can't seem to chisel features out to save my life.

.. :snickers at the comic: Win. Wish that could be me with Lou.

Not a busy I wanted to be. Tomorrow will suck, too... have to take the kids out like I promised, then to the chiro and after I'm supposed to go to lunch with mom for a "talk." One I don't really care to have given I'm probably going to get riled up and struggle really hard not to bawl and/or hoarsely yell in public. Joy. It'll be another one sided thing telling me how inappropriate it is for me to be bothered that I am expected (without being really asked) to handle some extra stuff when I have doctors' bills that I can't even afford, with my loans etc. I don't think it's so bad of me to want to wait on paying for cat litter and cat food when I have a scant $450 to my name, $330 of which is going in another week or two for my loans. I don't think it's so wrong to ask to wait until I'm on my own to pay for all that stuff, which will go a lot longer when I have just one cat and not three.

:murrs and wraps up in blanket: Too much stupid shit will go on tomorrow and of course I'm going to wind up brow beaten because I can never say what I want to say in confrontational conversations.

Ahh, I love this song so much. <3

Playlist | songs

xDD Very campy, but very win. I have the first one on dvd. <3

Same. xD; Mine come out either too beefy or like flat chested chicks, sadly. Pretty good at male headshots though, I think. D:

I wish it was real. D:

Guh, I'm so sorry. vov <3 *snugs* I think you're being completely reasonable. .-. S'mom's birthday tomorrow though, so iunno if 'll be around too much. Welcome to leave me 'i hate the world' messages, though.

:clicks to listen:

xD I have both on VHS somewhere I think.

It's the faces that I bugger up to be too pretty. Dx;;; :fail:

Yes, I get that life is going to be a bitch. I'm never going to be able to save until I get a job that pays more than what I owe for my loans a month. Yes, I know I'm a freaking disappointment in pretty much every respect they'd want in a kid, despite their denials and comments here and there that they are proud of me. I fail as an older sister, I fail to be social and like a daughter to my mom, I fail at getting my life in order and having motivation. But you know what, they are my parents and isn't it reasonable to want them to help on things like that so I can try to take care of the big things like my loans and car and doctors' bills? I already have to ask for help on the bills and loans.

Yeah... I got into it with mom yesterday, which was her birthday. She never lets shit drop. Neither know how to just leave me the hell alone. One of these days I'm going to not be able to hold in that yes, I am resentful of everyone. It's the bitter truth, I don't feel emotionally supported at all. Then things will get really bad....

Hopefully you'll like it. <3

I made myself basically an 'art inspiration' list and it has like 200+ songs, haha. XD;

Lucky~. D:

xD But I like your pretty men~!

*snuggles* You're being too hard on yourself. Most of that is garbage, anyway. Unfortunately, my saying so won't change the inevitable, so 'll send my strength and patience with you. *sigh* I hope you manage to get out of there soon, if damn jobs would cooperate. You always say I need out, but you just as much.

Resentful of me? ;0;

It's nice and mellow. I'd easily sleep to it. <3

Lol, I cringe to think of how massive mine would be and how full of BGMs.

xD; It doesn't really do Teridon justice, unfortunately.

No, I'm really not. I have no patience at all for my siblings, I don't really like doing things with them and more often than not I am just annoyed at being interrupted. It's why I know I do not want kids. They're nice when they aren't living with you. I feel no real satisfaction most of the time when I do things with them.

As for me not being much like a daughter, that one's been said out right. I told mom I felt like she treated Sam more like a daughter than me and she told me she acts more like one than I do. She likes to do stuff with the kids, she hangs with her and talks to her. While I have the same variety of emotional responses as my mother, I just don't have the same kinds of interests at all.

And failing on motivation... that is plain as day. I can't even really finish any artwork anymore. I don't seem to have enough motivation to make things work, either. And so I sit, stuck in this rut while knowing it but not knowing how to make myself move. Don't really know what's wrong with me in that respect.

Not you, just... my family.

<333 I relate to it a lot.

xDD Yours would dwarf mine. Playlist | Cynic Euphoria?s Profile Playlist |Art Aid lawl

See, I can't draw unless I have something upbeat and loud. Or I get frustrated at the silence and sleepy and whiny and i won't be productive. So I tried to make a list that was really active but still catered to the moods I tend to want in my art.

At least you're not prettifying cavemen. XD That would be weird. ...We won't count Brendan Fraser as 'Link'. *cough* <---- This reference means I am SO old.

Lots of people don't have the patience for kids. =/ And they were sprung on you at a late age, that influences it a lot. I've ALWAYS been around children, so I have no problem with them, *usually*. Relatives have always tried valiantly, but I don't mind babysitting. I do get a bit impatient that they ALWAYS want to do things with me, though. xD It's like, 'yes, I like you too, but personal space plz', which i get a lot of with Gabe.

Nnnh, that's just not fair.

I know you'll pull yourself out of that. Until then I don't know what to say that isn't beating a dead horse though. vv

Good. .-.

I don't really know what I relate to anymore, lol. I listen to so much and it sets the moods for the others, not me usually.

Given I have over 6,000 songs on my computer alone, probably. I often find more inspiration in moody music without lyrics. I use a lot of instrumentals and such. It really just depends on my mood and eventually where the piece starts to go. I can't work on a dark piece to upbeat music. Doesn't click and I start to get really irritated. I have a propensity for listening to a single song on repeat for hours as I work because anything else ruins it.

<<; I think it'd be scary if I attempted cave men. And lawl.. xD;

In the mind of my family, that doesn't matter. They are my siblings, my family and I should appreciate that regardless of if I never wanted siblings. I love them, but in a very distant manner. They hate that and can't accept me for the way I am about it. Mom claims she doesn't have the power to make me feel like shit, but that's bull. There are only a scattered few people whose opinions of me matter. That I feel so obviously low in theirs makes me suffer emotionally... a lot. I just don't like to say so because what point is there in it? They'll be defensive like any normal person would and I'll wind up feeling stupid and childish for saying so.

I don't know. I'm scared. Jace is worse than I am. If he didn't have such a good heart and he didn't treat me so well, if I didn't love him so much more than almost anything in the world I know I'd be hearing a lot more from people saying we shouldn't be together. It's a frightening thought. He needs to get his head up, too.

Originally Posted by Ceridwen_Crystaline Ikoda

LOL, we met from online, so I know how that feels. It was kinda scary at first. o3o; had to make sure he wasn't an axe murderer. And we'll be meeting Ise from online soon. <3

Yeah it is. >< And lol, no one in my household drives and we don't have a car, but we get by.

XD Well, at least he isn't an axe murderer. :lol:
Though, what would've you done if he was? o:
Besides, that isn't the worst you can meet online.. there's totally much worse than axe murderer. :lol:

Well, that's good in its own way.. at least you're being environmentally-friendly. =D <3

*noddeth* Eh, what I relate to changes constantly? XD; My problem is... I can hear a song and I instantly feel whatever I just heard. Often to an uncontrollable level. I'm not sure why.

Pssh, I can listen to a song on repeat for a whole day just for the hell of it. xD;; So trust me, I know.

Would he be flintstoney? D: Oh man, bishy flintstones makes my brain bleed.

It's not stupid or childish... *sighs* People are really stupid sometimes. No one ever wants to deal with what anyone else is feeling, just, 'this is how *I* feel'. It... it makes me hide a lot. I think it's why I developed the SAD. No one seems to care beyond themselves and I'm too inherently sensitive.

Hell, I feel like a bad friend. I'm getting really tired of being approached with comments of, 'do you know what depression is like? how do you cope with it? why do I feel like this?' I got it constantly in school as I was a designated guidance councillor according to teachers.

Not long ago Teal called me at 3AM to tell me she thought she was depressed and 'oh hey, what's that like? *complain*' And I just got it over facebook from an old classmate who assumed I'd always had it and could help them.

Do I really come off so sad and hopeless? *draws knees in*I'm happy to help, but it's always such a slap across the face to me. I... I didn't even help her. I pretended to be afk because I was so stunned.

I know you two are right for each other. <3

Edit: Arikana: XD LOL, well, we screened him. We spoke on the phone for years, webcammed with both of our families in the room, and snail mailed. When we met people were always around us, initially. Just to be safe.

If he was an axe murderer I guess I would have died. x:

That's true~! <3