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In my enlgish class we are reading Beowulf which is what I suppose sparked this blog entry. In Beowulf they are fighting monsters. Before we began reading Beowulf my teacher wa talking to us about our inner monsters. And how we all have inner monsters.

I was thinking about it and it is true. We all have our inner monsters. But the question is can we face them alone? I believe yes. But at the same time I believe no. Because there are some monsters that are greater then others. I feel I need to face all of my demons alone. No one should have to share my pain or fear. If I can't and I lose it then so be it. While on the other hand I want my friends to let me assist them with their inner monsters. I suppose I am a hypocrite. But then again I suppose... Maybe I am insane. Who know.

If the pain in our hearts is from when something touched us, such as a loved one or an action, how long does the pain last. Does it give us strength? I know I use the pain as a way of telling myself I am still alive. Otherwise I try to be numb. I wish I could be truly numb at times but then I realize how horrible it would be to be numb. Never know how it felt to be alive. Being Alive isn't going out and doing something amazing. Like some of my friends do. Its feeling enough want and other emotions to do that amazing thing. Such as protect a loved one or help someone. So again I ask Just how long does the pain last?

Kyo woke with small realization of where he was. He rose from the bed shaking his tiredness away and stratching his strong arms. He twitched his ears and curled his tail stretching the muscles in both as he let his tail fall he walked slowly to the bathroom his white and pink tail dragging on the white wooden floor. His tail was long and if he wasn't careful his tail dragged constantly. It was one of the things Bri had loved about him. His tail, he shivered remembering the first time he had made love with Bri. She had him in a kiss and he had wanted to try other ways. Bri was always firmly with him and would let him try whatever he wanted he remembered. But she never screamed with pleasure as he did no matter where he was. She only screamed when that one place of hers was touched. He got to the bathroom and got in the shower when he felt a distinct heaviness on his tail. He lifted it and the bottom of his tail was red and black. He looked at what he had trailed through and saw his stalker chained up with Bri's wing feathers. And Bri's wings covering her. A large pool of blood surrounding her. He ran over his body panicking. He felt her pulse, nothing. He felt for warmth, ice cold. He felt for breath, nothing. Then he remembered what Bri was and quit checking for normal things. He lifted her wing and saw the dagger and slowly removed it as he watched bri's wings disenegrate. He sobbed softly as they died. He called the police. And looked at the calendar. June 18th. Oh hell. He had slept for three days. When he called he told them to hurry and whispered sweet nothings to Bri. As he looked at his stalker who was passed out near the window. Kyo kissed Bri gently and sobbed. There was a noticeable size difference between his Stalker and Bri. Bri was five foot three and his stalker was six foot seven. He kissed Bri's neck. He loved Bri. When the police arrived they took both Bri and his stalker away. Leaving Kyo alone watching them leave.

She pulled him closer. Their bodies entwined, the heat of both of them making him sweat.
When all at once her phone rang "With a thousand lies and a good disguise hit 'em right between the eyes hit 'em right between the eyes.."
It trailed of as he noticed her former squeals and gasps of pleasure became those of pain and deception.
She placed her pale, soft hand against his strong warm chest.
He glanced down at the female before him her dark hair and rusty shaded bangs covering what he knew in her eyes were tears and on her lips his blood.
She very gently pushed him onto the bed sitting up her pale skin practically glowing in the light of the moon. No one knew the effect losing a friend had on her. He had to keep her distracted well. Otherwise...
He glanced at her wrists red and raw from the silver metal of her glasses. He was aware she had sharpened her glasses just not for what purpose.
He sighed his great chest heaving. He also had to remember what he held in his arms so many nights.
Her desire for him never ending. His Gothic Guardian Fallen Angel, he called her fondly.
He watched as she picked up the phone and answered it the music silencing. "I told you you would never hear from me again." She muttered to the other on the phone.
He heard the male voice respond "I will always be here for you." She hissed and hung up turning her cell phone on silent as she turned to him and laid her head on his chest.
He smiled slightly and whispered to her "I Love You, Babe" She relaxed against his chest and smiled a small smile her fangs pressing against her bottom lip "And I will Always Love You, Kyo" She whispered stifling a yawn. Kyo sighed and wrapped his arm as well as his tail around her as she heaved her great black wings and laid them over their bodies as a great warm and soft blanket. She trembled as he was falling asleep.
She was there at his home for one reason and one alone. Tonight was a full moon. Kyo knew this and was firmly against her facing his stalker but he knew she would not give in until he was safe. She had always been like that. Kyo's eyes began to get heavy as he realized she had given him his insomnia medicine. He growled softly as his eyelids drooped and he drifted off into a coma like state, the one he called babe covered him with a blanket which had the distinct pattern of hello kitty on it.
She smiled softly and picked up her computer she had brought with her to do her school work.

As midnight neared she began getting the feeling she was being watched, she glanced side to side then saw in the window a face. The eyes of the face glowing red. She stood and closed her laptop hiding it away as the person belonging to the face entered. Dark hair and tan skin eyes that were brown but when hit with the right light glowed red. The one called babe by Kyo tensed for battle slipping the small dagger out of the small of her back. She growled as she was attacked by the other who weilded a much longer knife. The one called babe fought meeting fist with palm knife with knife. The battle seemed to go on forever until the one called babe got the other chained down. She bore a knife in her chest. The other had gotten her but the one called babe had restrained the other. Kyo was safe and the one called babe knew it. She fell to the floor her great wings falling over her. hiding her wound she looked around as the world went black.