HarukosHellkitten's Profile

It's been a good summer despite not being able to do a lot of things.

It depresses me very deeply to be leaving Owner again for another 5 months. He says he's gonna try and see me for Halloween and maybe Christmas. I don't want to hold my breath and hope for it. I'm at the end of my rope for hoping for stuff.

I do trust Owner but I don't want to hope and have my hopes crushed. It hurts too much and I don't think I can handle that.

Anyways, like I said despite not going ghost hunting, going to Hershey, not getting my piercings, not going camping, I really did have a great time with Owner, having fun with Dan and Chris. Just being around people helped a lot. It was nice to hang out with friends. I'm gonna miss tuna slapping Dan and Owner.

So pretty much what I want to say is Friday night I'm gonna go offline most likely until either Thursday or Friday of next week. Just for me to get back into a more or less regular schedule.

My flight for San Diego leaves Saturday at 5:35pm and I won't be getting into SD til about 10:33pm Saturday night.

I'll be crashing as soon as I get home and then Sunday my mum's gonna take me to Scyuan Casino for prime rib. Going to talk to her either later today or tomorrow and see about asking if my sis Sam can come along.

Then on Monday I start my '11 Fall semester. I'll be really busy from when I get til about mid October. So I'm just saying that from now til then I'm going to be sporadic in my blah-gs and other stuff. Though if you want (and provided you're in the US I can give you my number we can text) to follow me on twitter be my guest. I always update to twitter because tis synced to my phone.

I'll also be doing a lot of stuff to stave off a state of depression I can feel coming on.

I plan on doing:

+Walking twice around Rohr Park
+Spending time with my sis Sam
+Chatting with online friends (ask me for which messenger's I have)
+Skyping with my bestest Moosey friend Steph
+Cleaning my entire room
+Getting rid of books, stuffed animals and clothes that don't fit
+Writing more fics
+Using my tablet more
+Practice my drawing
+Collecting cans and bottles for money
+Trying to find an under the table job
+Starting to make my own metalwork jewelry and cell phone charms to sell
+Work on my photography
+Start getting serious about my melded religion and wicca/witchcraft
+Hopefully start texting my beloved Twin again <3

Hopefully keeping myself this busy will help keep my depression down the only thing is that it'll keep me from the internet most of the day. But like I said twitter follow me or IM me or email or to a lesser extent text me if you want to stay in contact with me. Those of you who already have my number and contact info don't need to both with this.

And for those of you who follow me on (dA, FA, SA, and other art sites) please look forward to my photography, pictures of my jewelry and trinkets, and maybe some digital drawings on smooth draw or SAI, and traditional drawings.

I know this is completely off a tangent from what I was saying but Owner and I were talking last night and he said "It feels like we didn't have enough time together." I replied to him by saying "Its never gonna be enough time until we're living together." I honestly feel that the time we spend together feels like its never enough. Its like no matter how much time we spend whether its 2 months or 2 weeks its never enough time. I'm just sad that because of forces that we can't control are keeping us from really being happy together.

Anyways back to what I was saying. If anyone I know who happens to be in San Diego/Chula Vista/Spring Valley area knows someone getting rid of a printer/scanner that would be great. If not I'll look on CL. I'm pretty sure I can find one in the 15-20$ range.

I really need one because I don't want to rely on my unreliable one at home. Plus it doesn't scan which I'm gonna need for uploading my traditional drawings. So if anyone knows anything please let me know, it would be a great help to me.

Anyways I think this will be my last blah-g til I'm settled back down and organized.

Talk to you all soon.

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Season's End-Kamelot

Nothing much really has happened since the road trip.

Owner ordered a new messenger bag for me for this semester. So I'm waiting for that to come in the mail.

I only have about a week or so left with Owner before I go back and that's gotten me really bummed as I'm not going to see him for another 5 months. So that's gotten me really sad and giving me trouble to enjoy the last bit of time I have with him.

There's been a lot of drama at home so that makes it even worse. But at least I'll be back with my mum and the boys. I miss those little brats.

I also have been trying to come up with stuff to do and keep me occupied while I'm back. Which is mostly gonna be cleaning for our inspection in October, walking with my mum, collecting cans for money, watching my little brothers helping them with their homework, taking more pictures, might start drawing again, will definitely start writing more too.

I'm gonna start saving up to upgrade my phone this time. I really don't like the one I have now. I'm also gonna save up for a 3TB hard drive as my 1TB is almost full and I got more music and pics to flood it with.

I also hope to start blogging daily again. If not at least once a week. I feel that blogging really helps me deal with bullshit that I end up internalizing.

Well I guess that's it for now. Hopefully I'll get my lazy ass in gear and blog before I go offline for a while to get back into things.

Owner and I will be going with Dan and Chris tomorrow to Delaware to pick up Dan's grandma. I will most likely be offline all most of the day so I advise you to text me.

Other than that not much really's been happening. Monday me and Owner went swimming and again on Wednesday. We got nommed on by rainbow trout and that was freaking AWESOME! It was pretty cool. Thursday I went walking all by myself to the Williamsport library. I had a pretty ok time til my netbook decided to poop out on me. I got a bit pissed because all the plugs were taken up. :/

Today me and Owner went back to the library. I got 95% of my music back on my original ChocoZune. I also started drawing my new fursona Helena Von Dietrich and her lover. So I also gotta start drawing anthros (Links to tuts would be helpful).

My mom finally sent the spam and stuff that she said she would.

It was:
4 cans of spam
2 snickers
2 paydays
2 whatchumacallits (candies)
3 bags of gummi bears
1 bag of beef jerky (the good kind lol)
and 100$ urf monies.

So now I can get my awesome new I <3 My Seme messenger bag. That is gonna have to wait til after tomorrow's road trip because of gas money and for munchies.

Also Owner is gonna upgrade his VUZE so he can start burning discs woot!

I also got some black pearl erasers and I LOVE THEM!

Thats about it for now

It's been a while since I've blogged anything. Just haven't been up to it. The fourth kinda sucked for me.

We went over to Dan's where, I suddenly felt left out, Owner got drunk and as much as I love to write I hate what spews forth.

We left and Owner started feeling the effects of being drunk. His dad made him some grilled cheese sandwiches that helped immensely. Owner laid down for a while and finally around 11 or so he got up so that we could set off his "Lighting Rods" and my sparklers.

He felt ripped off with his choice of fire works as there was only a bang and a few sparks in the very beginning and then the whole thing went out. Owner said he had more fun with my sparklers than the ones he picked out.

Then the next day on the 5th I got my blood drawn. That hurt like a bitch.

On the 6th we got my results and my blood pregnancy test were negative. Of course, so I was able to get my shot.

Being sore from having blood drawn and then shot in the belly hurt. I was pretty much a blob lying around.

Yesterday Owner said that he's gonna have to start saving up money for my plane ticket back to California, thus everything he had pretty much planned he wanted to to before I went back is now nil.

Honestly I don't mind that we wont be able to anything. I'm happy just being here with him. And if anything I'd prefer a new back pack then going to some amusement park.

So with summer drawing to a close and fall soon to take its place I'll be going back to college for another semester and hopefully I'll be able to post anything.

I'm still struggling with the fact that I hate whatever I write. If anyone has any tips to deal with hating my work, that would be great.

With that in mind I will end it here.

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Now Playing: Kamelot-Across The Highlands

I never got my shot because the doctors want to make 100000000000000000% sure that I'm not pregnant before they give me the shot.

Other than that Owner got Strep throat over the weekend but he's doing better now.

I only got half my order of pins from Gesshoku. Hopefully they will send out the rest of my pins soon. Then once they are all here I'll send Lobo's pin out. After that we'll go ahead and order the I <3 My Seme field bag which is slightly smaller than Medic bag. Then before I leave I'll have him order the actual I <3 My Seme messenger bag for classes.

I also picked and registered for my fall classes so I'll be going offline most of August to get ready to go back and get ready for classes and get more or less a regular schedule before heading back online.

I also need to start looking for a personal scanner/printer for myself only since I most likely will be writing more papers for my writing class and will need to print them out.

Hopefully by then I'll have all kinds of doodles and drawings to post up. If not then you all have permission to murder me brutally. I'll also be taking back my wacom tablet to use at the college or for Fridays when I have the complete day off. Which I'll prolly be dropping off Hoopla and Chibi for school in the morning for my mom.

I also plan on asking for help in actual fiction writing untill I get to the actual classes that offer fiction writing for that course.

I finally switched out my 16GB HD Zune with Owner and got his 32GB HD Zune which I named aptly Dr Tunah Catfish White ChocoZune. Why am I so god damn fucking obsessed with "ChocoZune"? Honestly I really don't know why. I just am LOL.

I also plan on saving up money to just save it up and hoard it. In addition to hoarding my change, I now have a bank card that's linked to Owner's bank account meaning I'll have money finally. Well for small stuff, like food and maybe a pencil or two from the college bookstore and Dick Blick's of course with the provision that I let Owner know what Im getting and how much I spend.

I guess that's about it for now.

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