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Azure eyes pierce the darkness
Shimmering slightly in the dim light
A figure ever waiting
Bound by that which must be broken
So they may truly awaken

Onyx wings with amethyst tips unfold
Revealing a blue rose
In the darkness the angel waits
For a world so far away
Out of reach and out of touch

Icy orbs gleaming with hate
Scorned and forgotten
Memories, but a scattered dream
Lost within this place
Darkness surrounds ever closing in

Blue rose unfold
Pitch black wings take flight
Light pierces the prison
Fallen Angel fly away
Waking dream

There are times when I feel as though I’m at a crossroad. I have never had much of a life because I have always felt that I needed to help my parents and my grandparents. Even if that meant giving up on things that I wanted and putting off chasing after my dreams. Now that my grandparents are gone and it’s just my parents I still find it hard to pull away. Sure I still feel like I should help my parents, but I want to live my life. I want to feel like I’m doing something other than idly sitting around, doing what I have always done. Despite feeling this way and feeling as though I’m becoming trapped I don’t know where to start. It’s like I’m lost with no place to begin or direction to head in. Things need to change and I realize this because I’m starting to think of how much of my life I have wasted yet I have nothing to show for it. No place to call my own, no husband, no children and hardly any friends. It’s clear that I have managed to isolate myself further than what I had already been due to being an outcast and loner when I was younger. Where does one start to change their life, to build a life of their own that doesn’t revolve around the family they already have? I’m faced with these questions, but I have no answer to them. I find myself wanting to search for the answer to move ahead, but hesitant. Have I become so afraid of rejection, of disappointment, of letting others in that I can’t move forward? Right now I seem like the most pathetic person I know. Letting myself feel so alone, so trapped, only letting my emotions give way when no one else is around because I bottle things up inside. Letting myself get pushed and pulled in different directions with no compass to guide me. Really I guess all that is left is for me to ask myself where do I go from here? What do I want out of my life and how to find happiness when it seems so far away?

[B]Ayumu "Ai" Yamashita[/B]
Age You Appear To Be: 8
Real Age: 791
Picture: [IMG]http://i54.tinypic.com/k130o9.jpg[/IMG]
Sound like: [URL="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIs5IbMA12s"]YouTube - Rozen maiden op 1 Kinjirareta Asobi (full and lyrics)[/URL]
Race: Vampire
Rank: Noble
Bio: Ayumu is the only daughter of Miharu and Kumiko Yamashita and heiress to the family fortune. Her parents were usually way on business so she never really got to know them. When she was 400 she rescued Ryo Fujiwara from his life as a slave. In return for her kindness he became her companion and bodyguard. Ayumu has recently grown bored with her life at home and has decided to go visiting the royal family and distant relatives.
Powers: Telepathy, shikigami, and spells
Weapons: dagger, poison darts, and her shikigami
Personality: Hyper, mischievous, shy, kind, and quiet.


[B]Ryou (Re-oh) Fujiwara[/B]
Age You Appear To Be: 15
Real Age: 834
Picture: [IMG]http://i52.tinypic.com/90zuic.jpg[/IMG]
Sound like: [URL="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTfSxDp1RWw"]YouTube - Kaichou Wa Maid-sama Ending 2 Full[/URL]
Race: Vampire
Rank: Bodyguard
Bio: Ryo lived most of his life in slavery until Ayumu Yamashita found him. She purchased him and offered him freedom, but he decided to stay by her side and to protect her as her personal bodyguard. Little is known about his life before Ayumu rescued him.
Powers: Ice manipulation, illusion, and healing.
Weapons: Throwing knives, silver wire, pole arm and sword.
Personality: Quiet, mysterious, gentle, and can be very serious at times.


[B]Damon Kline[/B]
Age You Appear To Be: 18
Real Age: 863
Picture: [IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v696/MysteriousDarkAngel/Cat%20Girls/1146317041888.jpg[/IMG]
Sound like: [URL="http://www.youtube.com/user/BreakingBenjaminOFCL#p/u/6/Kb7zhunYGik"]YouTube - BreakingBenjaminOFCL's Channel[/URL]
Race: Demon
Rank: Knight
Bio: Most of his life he has been living alone. Both his parents and his older brother died in the war. He hates the vampires for taking his family away from him. With his family gone Damon disappeared from his village. He went off in the forest because he was in denial. Searching for his lost family the only thing he found was Tabitha Kingsley. She met him with wary eyes and as she did he went running to her and hugged her tightly, crying. Tabitha comforted him before taking him back to the village. Since that time he has only had one true friend and that is Tabitha Kingsley. She has been his almost constant companion through the years. It has been a long road, but he has finally become a knight in the demon king's service. He’s trying to get his childhood friend Tabitha to join him, but has failed so far. Maybe he’ll change her mind one day.
Powers: Air/Wind manipulation, empathy, telepathy and transformation.
Weapons: Silver Sorrow (sword), claws, and whip.
Personality: He is quiet and mysterious. This often gets mistaken for shyness. He prefers to think before taking action. For the most part he is tolerant, but once you get him mad you better watch out.



[B]Tabitha Williams[/B]
Age You Appear To Be: 19
Real Age: 886
Picture: [IMG]http://media.photobucket.com/image/anime%20scythe%20girl/Automatic_PWNage/Random%20Anime/awesome-4.jpg[/IMG][IMG]http://i961.photobucket.com/albums/ae99/JDLover333/Decorated%20images/Album%20of%20Albumness/redscyth.jpg[/IMG]
Sound like: [URL="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjFFiuA98jw"]YouTube - Evanescence - Imaginary (Demo V.2)[/URL] ([URL="http://www.justsomelyrics.com/421729/Evanescence-Imaginary-%5BDemo-Version-%232%5D-Lyrics"]lyrics[/URL])
Race: Demon
Rank: Rogue/Knight
Bio: As soon as she could Tabitha left home and set out on her own. She wandered from place to place. Throughout her journey no matter where she went it seemed the war was there too. The travelling and sights were starting to get to her and she was losing her true self until she met him. The day she met Damon Kline in the woods changed things for her. He was younger than her, but he had faced one reality of the war she hadn’t and that was the loss of his family. She comforted him and stayed with him for a while. Before she even knew it she had gotten attached to Damon. So when she set out on her journey again she brought him along. Teaching him everything she knew about surviving. Even today she continues to travel around as a rogue knight. Lately Damon has been more persistent about her becoming a true knight like him. For now she prefers keep things they way they are.
Powers: Fire/Heat manipulation, empathy, sensitive hearing, mediumship (can see and communicate with the dead)
Weapons: Scythe, chains, whip and Dragon Fire twin katanas
Personality: People see Tabitha as a loner and a bitter person. She doesn't trust people easily, but she is very loyal to her friends. Beneath her tough exterior she truly is a kind and caring person. When she's pushed she can have a nasty temper.


[B]Maiara “Mai” Kingsley[/B]
Age You Appear To Be: 14
Real Age: 796
Picture: [IMG]http://www.menewsha.com/forum/images/statusicon/wol_error.gif[/IMG]This image has been resized. Click this bar to view the full image. The original image is sized 637x640.[IMG]http://i182.photobucket.com/albums/x108/i-like-manga/manga/raven.jpg[/IMG]
Sound like: [URL="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HcMIsDGXGGw"]YouTube - Fushigi Yuugi opening song[/URL]
Race: Demon
Rank: Noble
Bio: Mai is considered to be the only daughter of the Kingsley family due to her sister, Tabitha, running away when she was younger. She has lived a sheltered and protected life for the most part due to her parents fearing she’d run away as well. This didn’t stop her from learning to fight and survive. She wants to be strong so that if she ever meets Tabitha again that she’ll be a sister that Tabitha will recognize and be proud of.
Powers: Healing, air/wind Manipulation, and spell casting
Weapons: Spell book, long bow, and short sword.
Personality: Sweet, kind, and gentle. She acts tough, but can be very emotional, naïve and childish.

[COLOR=RoyalBlue][FONT=Comic Sans MS]Name: Dorcas Rose
Age: 24
Race: Sorceress
Personality: Cold and distant with a dark sense of humor and can be short tempered. Only those who she allows to get close to her know she isn't as cold hearted as she acts.
From: The land covered in snow and ice. (North)
Background: She lived most of her life in the frozen lands of the north. Her father disappeared before she was born and her mother was murdered when she was 4. This left her scarred and caused her to keep her distance from people. She met Xavier when she was 7 and his family took her in. She left the frozen lands of the north shortly after Xavier.
Job/Faction: Fortune teller and psychic
Special Abilities/Powers: Premonition, mediumship, healing (will probably have to explain this more at some point), and use ice and dark magics.
Appearance:

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[COLOR=RoyalBlue][FONT=Comic Sans MS]Name: Xavier Carringtion
Age: 26
Race: Half werewolf/half wizard
Personality: A man of few words. He is level headed and laid back for the most part. Protective of the things he holds dear.
From: Was born in the South East, but has traveled around most of his life.
Background: The son of a werewolf and wizard Xavier had a rather interesting childhood. His family moved from place to place a lot until he was 9, when they settled in the northern lands covered in ice and snow. This was where he met Dorcas and the two became friends. When he was old enough he started to wander and use his abilities to help others in need.
Job/Faction: Wanderer/warrior for hire
Special Abilities/Powers: His werewolf powers are somewhat influenced by the moon, but not totally. He has both a wolf form and a beast form. He inherited his father's magic abilities which are also connected to the moon as well as water.
Appearance:

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