I can feel it pulsing through my veins. It's coming and I cannot stop it, no matter how hard I try. I let out a yell, not willingly, but due to the excruciating pain I am going through.
It continues to make its way through me. I cringe in fear of what it shall do to me once it's finished. I look down upon the black cold floor I once stood on. A chilling breeze visits me every once in a while.
I fall to my knees and then to my side in one fluid movement. I make an "oomph" sound when I hit. I no longer stand strong, but rather cower in the fetal position. I wither with pain as it pulses through me. My body flinches and twitches while my fingernails scratch the floor making a screeching sound. My eyes swell up.
It is claiming what is left of my humanity. It has just about beaten me. A few tears start to escape from my eyes.
I squeeze my eyes shut -- thinking, hoping -- in an attempt to wake myself up from this nightmare. I feel cold, on the inside and on the outside. That breeze probably isn't helping.
I toss and turn as it consumes me. I kick the still air and groan in misery, no longer able to scream or yell. I clench my teeth while throwing open my watery eyes to glare at the dark sky.
Darkness. I wriggle on a dark cooled floor while underneath a black foreboding sky. I shall soon join the stillness of the night.
I can no longer feel the intense pain. I feel numb, although the tears still come. I am surprised that images from the past are not flashing through my mind. I would think, on the brink of total destruction, I would at least see what I once loved in my last moment.
I try to get to my knees, but I find myself unable to move, although my body continues to have its occasional convulses. I continue to glare at the bleak sky in all hopelessness. I force myself to roll to my other side while slowly shutting my tearful eyes. The ground is wet around my head now, but I no longer feel cold.
I no longer fight. I no longer hope. I no longer feel emotionally nor physically. I am done. This is it.
And with that...the last minutes of my life have come to an end. However, a new beginning is about to ensue my once pathetic life.
I am ready for a new beginning – my true destiny is at hand.