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[SIZE="1"][COLOR="Green"][B][CENTER]All is well! I can't remember if I already shared, but me and Arie are all in the clear again. <333 He was just having some home life issues and I happened to get caught up in it and whatnot. Oi, not fun. I was a good girlfriend and apologized for whatever I did to make him snap at me and he apologized as well. He picked me up from school today and we hung out for a few hours. It was really nice. I get him all to myself tomorrow too! I'm wanting to actually do something with him now. I wish we lived in a larger town some times, so that we had more to do. Hm.. maybe I'll think of something. Or we'll just stay here and make out all day. Hahaha....[/CENTER][/B][/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="Green"][B][CENTER]I'm actually pretty positive about my last blog, now. There's definitely nothing between us -- the habit is just being broken so he's not texting me as much anymore. Which is fine, I understand. Finally. It was just rather bothersome at first. But we were talking last night and all seemed normal with him, so I'm back to be comforted. =D Yay!

I should probably stop fretting about this. Can't help it, though. Considering the circumstances. [/CENTER][/B][/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="Green"][CENTER][B]A few hours after I posted my last blog, Arie texted me. Which was really comforting and nice. He was still at his show so the texts were slow but I didn't mind -- I was studying for finals. He didn't get home until really late and didn't go to bed until even later, so I didn't expect anything from him early in the morning. Although I did somewhat expect him to text me sometime in the afternoon. He never did. And it's 9pm now... I've yet to hear from him. I'm really starting to consider that this is completely unintentional. Him texting me each morning was a habit and it's changing because he's not up early anymore, as he's out of school. So it just could be carrying over. I did the same with Scotty. I'd send him an IM each morning and he'd get it later when he signed on -- then I stopped doing it without realizing. I really think that's what Arie's doing. Hopefully, at least. He never seems annoyed or upset with me when we do talk, it's completely normal. -sigh- We'll see.

It'd be nice if it went back to the old habit though, I adored waking up to his text messages.[/B][/CENTER][/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="SeaGreen"][B][CENTER]I really don't know what's going on with that boy. Maybe I'm freaking out because I'm PMSing//just starting my period but I rarely PMS so that's not very likely orrr I'm getting rather annoyed with him because... uhhh... I should be?

So, I told him about Amber bothering me, yes? Yes. I told him Tuesday after school, and we hung out for a few hours. That was the last time I've seen him. I asked if he were going to go to the choir awards, he nodded his head and said probably. He didn't show. I texted him twice, once asking him if he were actually coming and the second telling him he's missing out on the awards he's gotten. I never got a reply. The next day at school, I texted him something rather exciting around noon -- he replied once. That's it. The conversation could've gone on a lot further. So I just kind of left him alone, figured he was busy. [[He actually usually texts me a lot during the day]] If anything, he would've sent me a text around 8pmish to talk until I went to bed. That didn't happen either. So I just continued to wait. And wait. Then I did it again -- I texted him around the afternoon while at school. This time, though, I got two replies! Likewise, though, the conversation could've lasted for a while. So yesterday I started getting kind of... irritated. Not seeing him for a few days doesn't bother me but not talking to him, when it's normal for us to text throughout the day, bothers me. I told Cayla and Pam the short version of this and they were pretty shocked. Especially since Arie had actually gone to Cayla's house... the night I tried texting him. So it's not like he's avoiding people because of graduation, which I thought was a possibility. Last night was the only conversation I've had with him possibly all week. Even before Tuesday, there wasn't much contact -- yet more than there is now. I haven't heard from him today yet, either. I was kind of expecting him to text me sometime in the morning to see how I was doing after last night, because he usually does when I get upset, but he hadn't. I don't think I'll hear from him tonight, as he has a show, either.

Agh, it's just so annoying. As far as I know, I'm the only person he's "avoiding". And it's really getting on my nerves. Quickly. If this seriously has to do with me telling him how him talking to Amber makes me feel, then that's just bullshit. All I did was explain my feelings, I didn't tell him to stop talking to her or anything. So, if that's what his problem is with me right now, then he can go shove it because that's just ridiculous.

I'm just hoping that this not intentional or that he's been busy [[doubt it]]. -sigh-

If this continues for about one or two more days, I'm going to have serious problems with this boy.[/CENTER][/B][/COLOR][/SIZE]

[B][SIZE="1"][CENTER][COLOR="Green"]So because I don't want to have to re-type everything in my own words -- here's the conversation I had with a friend.

Me: I'm like. Ugh.
Alex: How come maam?
Me: Well you see.
Me: Let me try to give you the short version.
Alex:: Mmmkay
Me: Two years ago, Arie and Amber dated for like 5 months. Then Arie dated Nicky for over a year. Arie and Nicky broke up over the summer. I liked Arie. Amber liked Arie. We both flirted with him and whatnot. He was emotionally unstable because of Nicky. Him and Amber made out hardcore over the summer. Him and Nicky got back together, broke up before Christmas. Him and I got together in January. Amber, throughout those years, has yet to get over him. She's confessed to him many times about her still liking him. He'd never take her back. Yet over the summer, when we all thought he didn't like her, they made out. Because of the distress. Understandable, yet degrading. Well. Before I got with Arie, Amber was going to try to do so as well. I told him this and he totally was disgusted and said he would never date her again. So that's when I went in and confessed to him my feelings and toda. So, now, she still hasn't gotten over him... and is indirectly very much so all over him. I'm not a jealous person.. it takes quite a bit. And right now, I honestly feel like asking him to never talk to her again. Because she's always making hints. "I'm really happy with life right now but there's something I'd change." "I like this boy, but he doesn't like me back. ]=" and she's told her friends, not even a few weeks ago, that she would get back together with Arie in a heartbeat.
Me: And... he hasn't done anything to show affection towards her, I wouldn't even expect him too. But I keep having dreams that he confesses he still likes her, etcetc. I'm going crazy here. Right now.
Me: And it sounds so silly but not even that long ago I read a bulletin survey she filled out on myspace... and there were soo many indications about Arie in it, it's not even funny.
Me: If I were still friends with Amber, I'd definitely be having a talk with her. I'm so bothered by this, I'm almost wanting to have a talk with her right now even though I can't stand to see her face.
Alex:: I really think you need to talk to her though.
Alex:: Cause theres a difference between girls thinking your guy is cute and blahblahblah and that.
Alex: And I'd talk to him too, let him know that it worries you.
Alex:Me: I know. I'm okay with people thinking he's intriguing or whatever. But to be so... mentally all over him and then verbalize it to your friends whom are my friends, so I will find out.... it's so wrong.
Alex:: I trust he knows you well enough to know that you wouldn't get worried if it was nothing.
Alex:: It is wrong. And she needs to step the fuck back.
Alex:: Cause as much as she may want to be with him, hes with you. He chose you. And thats that.
Me: Oh I am going to talk to him. Tomorrow, definitely.
Me: Yeah, I know. and you know what's bullshit?
Me: She was telling Claire, whom is my best friend, that she's just been kidding about it all. She doesn't really want Arie back, she'd never go back to him, it's just that she can't get over him because he's exactly what she wants in a guy.
Me: Uh huh... yet... about a week after that she told Casey the complete opposite. How she'd do anything to get him back, etc
Alex:: I almost think she told your best mate that knowing it would get back to you.
Me: And it's not that I'm worried he'd do anything, he really wouldn't. It just bothers me so much that she's so all over him. It's almost as if she doesn't understand he will never want her again.
Me: Probably.
Me: But I don't want to be the paranoid controlling girlfriend who tells their boyfriend who they can and can't talk to.
Me: But I really feel so strong about this, I almost have to.
Alex: No, I definitely don't think that you are.
Alex:: I think in a situation like this you need to make your feelings about it known.
Me: I mean, when Amber was just starting to get another crush on him, it was after she got her cell phone and was textng him a lot. Claire told him that she was getting feelings and he was like "Ooo, I'm not texting her anymore."
Me: Yet he still does. I don't want to say all of the time, but I'm sure she does a good amount of time.
Me: It's like, any time her name is mentioned about contacting him. Whether it be via texting, MySpace, phone calls, in person, etc. I get really... detestful.
Me: And almost a protective feeling over him.
Alex:: I don't blame you at all.
Me: This has been bugging me, ever since it started up again when me and him started dating but it's been getting worse. So it's been bothering me a shit load as well.
Me: And I just really couldn't handle holding it in -- I was crying in the shower about 10 minutes before I IMed you because I can't take it anymore.
Alex: If its bothering you this much you need to talk to him about it.
Alex:: Something needs to be done about it, and if I were you I wouldn't tolerate it.
Me: I know I do, I was going to text him [[we don't talk on the phone]] but I want to tell him in person. So I'm hoping after school tomorrow, we're going to hang out.
Alex:: Yeah, this is one of those things I'd tell him in person.
Me: I just reallyyy needed to get it out. And like, nobody else I can actually share things to is online.
Alex:: Thats what I'm here for.
Me: Ah haha yeah.
Me: Unless you're away
Alex:: Hahaha yes.
Alex: But when I'm not away, thats what I'm here for.
Alex:: But I definitely have been there before lots of times.
Alex:: It doesnt even matter how confident you feel with your guy, its the principal of the thing.
Alex:: The girl needs to learn her place and that what shes doing is wrong, and you need to talk to him in person about how much it bothers you. Cause if you're crying about it and stressing out about it, you can't keep it to yourself. Its obviously a concern.
Me: Ugh, you make me feel better in what I originally planned on doing. I don't feel like a crazy psycho girlfriend now.
Alex:: You're for sure not a crazy psycho girlfriend.
Alex: Ross had some girl hanging on him when I knew he had a crush on me, and it really bothered me. And we weren't even dating. She admitted to liking him though and he got rid of her, so I wasn't worried, but I've definitely been in situations like yours.
Me: It's really aggravating and the only way I can explain my feelings right now is being extremely distraught.
Alex:: You will most likely feel that way til you talk to Arie.
Me: God I know.
Me: I just want tomorrow to be here already and school to be out.
Me: Then time to slow down so I can talk to him
Alex:: If I were you, I'd go relax. Try and get your mind off of it, as hard as that sounds. Then get a good nights rest and face it tomorrow.
Alex:: I gtg though, I have to finish a project for work and call Ross.
Alex: Hope I was of some help to you, love.
Me: Thanks for that, it helped. <3
Me: Ta-ta[/COLOR][/CENTER][/SIZE][/B]