Heya, I need to log off. My kiddo is going to be up at the butt-crack of dawn shoving foreign objects in my nose if I don't wake up on time. Lol but I wanted to let you know you aren't alone in this, and I respect you for making decisions based on what you feel is best. If you ever need/want to talk to someone who's been through it, you can drop me a pm any time!