It's interesting, even for me. I'll have to add some things later if I think about it. If you'd like to see my results they're in my blog, the most obvious and longest post so far.
Oh, hey, I had a question! Had you ever thought about writing up a list of your favorite things and adding a picture to it? I did, and it surprised me, even though I was the one writing it. I suppose because of the contrast between images, know? Can learn a lot about yourself.
I didn't force myself to change attitudes! It was just my happiness at finding all I needed was to readjust my fingers and the pain went away. Just like that! Otherwise I would be dreading about their pain and the annoyance it causes typing.
I already know the bad. I don't try to force it down someone else's throat, so my apologies for typing such a block of text, which I'm well known for. I suppose I was born a pessimist, but I don't normally act the part. Like some people, who mope, moan, say 'oh no oh no' or 'bad idea' all the damn time. I just want to pull my Wolfie card and cut their tongue out. But they haven't done much more than mutter stupid things, so I can't. Damn laws.
Ice? No, they were just stiff. Lucky for me! See? I'm a forced optimist!
Not the way I've seen. And I've seen a lot of people. I watch them. I listen to them. I've done tests, and I've seen tests done in which subjects were put into a controlled situation. They had to ask someone they couldn't see a series of questions and for every one they answered wrong, an electrical shock was administered. No one was being shocked, however, the things the person was hearing were recorded earlier. But the majority of them went to the end of the experiment even though the unseen 'victim' was yelling for them to stop. This test was done twice, and each time, eighty percent of the testers went all the way despite the 'victim' crying to let the test stop.
Then I've researched so much it's locked away in my head. I have files of infamous killers, serial murderers, those who relate to these killers. I've even gone to libraries and read up while watching others. I'm very good at reading emotions, so I could hint on what they were talking about. Oh, and I've recently found a test online, realistically penning how evil you could possibly be. Several million people worldwide have taken the test and a lot score very high.
Not to mention I've been put in multiple very bad situations. It's most of why I don't contact home now that I'm away from it.
But you know what? People call that pessimism. I consider pessimism better than optimism. But that's because every time you think something bad will happen and it doesn't, you're more happy that it's been avoided in relation to someone who knew nothing bad would happen in the first place.
Well, it's not as though I don't put some of me into my other characters as well. I mean, Daren holds my general disgust with humanity, Alden is afraid of loss and change like I am, Valentine is afraid of making friends because he isn't very good at keeping them, Aloe owns my rough, pushy, and very demanding side. There are a lot more, but I'll stop as well...
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