Hey. Quit beating yourself up over it. I've actually been in two different things like that here on Mene, so I know exactly how you feel. That feeling lingers FOR-EVER. And it really fucking sucks. But it fades. There's no reason to leave Mene because one single person didn't like something you said. There will always be people out there offended by
something you say. Especially online, since it's really hard to convey proper emotion online.
I can't say for sure what I think should be done, since I don't know exactly what happened, or what was said about said bf. But I can say from experience that doing your best to keep busy and surrounded by people and plays that you love, helps. Knowing that you're only human, and that you may or may not have made a mistake, and you just have to accept that what is done is done, and can't be changed, and move forward from that and learn from it, is all you can do.
Running away from it, won't help. Forgive yourself. If Squids can't forgive you and let it go, that's her problem. Don't let it be and continue to be yours. If it's eating at you, you might consider sending her a personal message. Don't try and explain yourself. Just simply say, "I'm really sorry that I offended you. I feel terrible, and think about it constantly. I hope you can forgive me so that I can stop feeling so down about it and move forward as a better person, having learned something from this experience."
Honestly, if she refuses to forgive you, she needs to get right with herself and with God. You're supposed to forgive people and you're absolutely supposed to forgive yourself. At that point, you've done all you can do, and you've done the right thing, and you let it go, and move forward.
