:rofl: Haha, oh, if Alex had his say in things - that is so how many kids we'd be having. :XD I told him that we're waiting till Becca is definitely older. :P
He would want me to be happy and stop blaming myself for being here when he's not.
I am working on it, currently in therapy - my third appointment is Monday. I'm just hoping that I'm not pushing myself too hard. -sighs- :hug:
I am trying, it's just tough. :( We did that last year, and it was great - it's just getting myself to stop focusing on the fact that I'm here and he's not and that's just not fair. I can't believe that it's been five years. :( How come it still hurts this much?
That's great to hear! Eh, honestly - I didn't sleep all too well, and today is just a bit of a blah day. :( The closer that we get to the anniversary the harder it gets.
And Al is with Bec at the moment, so I've got a bit more free time on my hands than usual. :P
Zephi
