Nova_Alchemist's Profile

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[COLOR=RoyalBlue][B]Who am I...?[/B]
I'm a constantly depressed seventeen year old girl who just wants to give the world meaning... I like making people smile and laugh even though I'm only pretending to be happy 99.9% of the time...
[B]What am I fighting for...?
[/B]Love, peace, and happiness... My friends... My world.. because I can't stand to see it crumble...
[B]Where did it all start...?
[/B]My first home in a small trailer in Katy, TX...
[B]When did it all start...?
[/B]Since I was a little girl...
[B]Why?
[/B]Because I have a purpose in the world and I believe it's making people happy.. to make them feel truly happy and loved... Of course there's more to it than that but that's all I can explain...
[B]How do you plan to keep this up...?
[/B]The same way I've been since I started... When it's time to stop I'll stop... But.. for now.. I'll keep playing my part until something bigger comes out...
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[COLOR=Red]Ugh! I'm bound to this place by the unseen so I can't leave.. unseen chains and shackles hold me down from letting all hell brake loose... Just once I would like my so-called family to look me in eyes and say they love me.. I want them to hear me.. to see me.. to trust me.. just once! Let me spread my wings and fly instead of keeping me locked up in a cage! You teach me how to be independent but when I want to to out and fly you won't me... Why? What are you so afraid of? I'll always come back.. even when I'm on my own I'll still come back... So many people only live for my sake.. am I really that special? That important? I am a human being but I'm not human exactly... I'm a vampire, an angel, a cat, a wolf, a snake, a demon, and human all at the same damn time! Judge me as you will but I'm tired of hiding... I'm sick and twisted, crazy and insane, good and bad, pure and evil but I can't help it... It's the environment I live in... [/COLOR][COLOR=Red]((this has nothing to do with anyone on here, it's more so what goes on in the real world))[/COLOR]

[COLOR=SeaGreen]My words never meant a thing to you...
If they did you would listen...
With everything you say I feel my heart shatter like broken glass more and more...
I can't sleep at night because I'm scared of not waking up in the morning...
A person can only take so much before breaking and I'm well passed the limit but I keep pushing forward anyway...
I have so much to live for but I feel like I have so little time...
My spirit is strong, my heart is fragile, and my body is weak...
Having pain were it shouldn't be...
'[I]Everything is temporary...[/I]' someone tells me soft and sweet...
How much more can I take...?
My shattered heart can only take so much before it dies forever...[/COLOR]

[COLOR=Red]Sick of the pain, tired of the tears. I only wish for something that probably will never come... People leaving for the netherworld of far way... When they leave they never come back... Just want to hide away and never be found... I'm not leaving damn it! I don't want to... My chest hurts, it's probably my heart breaking again... I'll admit something to myself right here, right now.. I'm afraid of fading... I don't like the fighting.. I hate the screaming! I have everything I need to live except one thing.. a heart that can be healed... Even with all the people who I love and hold so close.. it's always breaking... I've lost so much in so little time... I feel like all seven deadly sins put together in one no matter how many times I try to escape it... I hate it! I make people laugh and smile without actually trying and it makes me die a little more inside when they cry... Tears.. more unseen tears that flow... My tears mean nothing. They only reflect the pain I hide for the sake of keeping everyone happy... If I cry people worry.. so I try not too unless I'm alone... [/COLOR][COLOR=Red]((this has nothing to do with anyone on here, it's more so what goes on in the real world))[/COLOR]