They'd never ever tell you such a thing! People go to those meetings all the time, for even simple things you'd be surprised at. They never point things out about you like that. These types of things are there to help you through things, there so you can talk your problems out with people who understand what you're going through. God, they're just so helpful. So kind. Sure there's always a thorn in the side at these things, but that's just the world. They'll never tell you to suck it up or get over it, that's certainly not why they're there. And those "friends"...? I'm pretty sure friends aren't supposed to act like that.
I just hate to know how sad you are. But it's nice to know you have a little comfort right now. It's... late. I do have to go, because I hadn't realized exactly how late it really is. I want you to feel better, okay? Even if it's just a bit. I'll be back tomorrow, I promise. Do well tonight, okay? Maybe we'll both be in higher spirits then, hm?
Have a good night, okay? Love you, Neko. *hugs bye*
Hey! No feeling bad, none whatsoever! That doesn't work right now, you know that? I'm just fine, okay? Just fine. I'm not crying---my eyes... well, they're watering quite a bit. I'm not actually crying, I promise you. I just hate knowing you feel so bad. So bad when there's so many ways to feel better. Just look around---there are always groups to attend, speak your mind. I'm just worried about you is all. That big-brother sense in me is just in full-swing.
Oh, no. don't worry about me. Dont' even go there. Um... Yes, so I'll admit... this time taking a little extra time. I'm just remembering back is all. You remind me so much of... myself, you know? And I can't stand seeing that. I can't stand knowing you're in such a state. Especially when there's such a chance for you to get out there, find real, true friends.
You're never going to be alone. I can promise you this. I really can. Even if you think you are there's always someone there for you. But it's just so easy, so easy to find someone to listen to you. Like I said, those support groups... they save. I... know. I know they do and I want you to be happy, not just... existing.
There's an entire country at your disposal. You don't need the acceptance of many, just one or two. Sorry about sounding like a repetitive freak, I'm... stuck ina loop. Taking too long to type out answers. Just think. Think, take some time. I'm afraid of losing such a good friend.
Neko. I want you to take a few breaths. Calm down just a bit, okay? Just a bit. You're worrying me to death, you are. Everyone's rejected, sometimes more than others, you just have to take it in stride. Take it as a learning experience. You know, Neko, those... those support group things, for drug addiction or suicidals, or those just not comfortable in their own body? Go, find one of those. I know how they work, you'll be listened to there.
Good God, Neko, you're... worrying me so much right now. It's not about me, but really, put your mind at rest for a while, step down, sit, let this initial feeling pass... Because my hands are shaking so much.
No matter what, you'll always have at least one person. Get out there. Do it. Please, do it. For yourself, not me, but yourself. And don't you dare give up just because a few people in this huge, wide world think you're "not good enough" for them.
Neko. Don't go saying that. You know when you're forced to be around insensitive bastards like that it rubs off on you, it makes you doubt yourself, feel bad, think yourself unworthy of friendship or family at all. And I don't want you thinking that. I don't want you to go doing something. You worry me, you know? Because I really do care about you. You're a true friend, even if we can't speak or meet face to face, you're a good person, a kind and caring person no matter what you think otherwise. Go ahead and ignore my speech if you like, but I want you to know that. I want you to go out to some... some gathering, a group, a place of meeting, where you can find real friends, people who'll accept you, listen to you. If you don't, you'll just be forced to feel the same thing from people who, since they don't seem to care about what you truly feel, don't even matter.
My first internet home was Neopets, back when I was still in school and internet was dial-up. I remember my original account had something to do with Yu-Gi-Oh! Seeing that my friends and I were obsessed with the anime at the time. I stayed on there until, I believe I got bored of it or we stopped having the internet.
At the time, I had a good friend who I used to role play with. We did so for many years, even when we didn't go to the same school and lived miles away from each other.
My internet home became fanfiction for a long time. It was the perfect place to practice my writing and also write about my favourite characters. I was known as Regiathius, Ilovephantom, Ilovenekos and finally, NekoLen. I have written many fanfics for many fandoms.
One day, while on my Facebook, I came across a site called Tinier Me. It was an avi chat site, with items and pets and games. I fell in love and played on it for many years. After three name changes, two break-ups, I became sick of the site and left. It no longer exists sadly.
I played League of Legends for 2 years, gaining some friends and having some fun. I have grown tired of the community however, so I have slowed down on playing it.
And so I came here. I hope I can make many good friends and have lots of fun roleplaying with you all.
Some Quick Facts
NekoLen is transgendered, being physically female but mentally male. NekoLen refers to himself as male and would like for you to do so, even if his avi is wearing a dress.
Yes, I live in New Zealand. No, I don't hump sheep. Cows are sexier ;)
I used to be an avid fan of anime, but have recently stopped watching due to laziness. The last anime series I watched was Durarara!
I am 21, live at home, have no job and hardly any friends. Kinda a bum, if you know what I mean.
Even though I am single, I don't plan on having a relationship with anyone on here or elsewhere. I have a few battle scars, so I am weary of relationships nowadays. But I am happy to be your friend :)
Location
New Zealand
Interests
Pokemon, League of Legends, writing yaoi, roleplaying
About Me
NekoLen