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[CENTER][FONT="Comic Sans MS"]Yes, its yet another "Fucked-up Xana" dreams.

My Math teacher Ms. Evjen, was listening to the radio this one morning while all her students were flowing into class because the bell rang. Then a random commercial comes on saying that if you participated in a race-and-find competition among many other people and find all the information, then you could win some prize. And for some reason, she got so excited and took us on a field trip.

We were taken to this mountain that had a tunnel in it that ran all the way to the top and at the top, were some desks waiting for us to look up and find information.

Yes Ms. Evjen made us do this so she could win whatever the prize was. What we had to do was jog up the mountain tunnel then when we got to the first available study-desk, we were to instantly take it and start studying. This went on for like a couple weeks. Thankfully, Ms. Evjen allowed us resting hours. I think she got the whole school into it just for her with the excuse that everyone was sick with the flu so all the other teachers just sat there during class bored out of their minds. I think a couple went crazy. O.O

One resting period for me, I was with Mai and Troy. xD Troy was SOOOOOO exhausted that he just leaned against ME and started to go to sleep for the period we were allowed to rest and eat. I was weirded out but I understood that he was extremely tired. So I just let it go and talked to Mai about how fucked up this was. Then Troy started cuddling with me so I woke him up and asked if he was okay with cuddling with ME. He saw Mai on the other side and was like, "yeah its fine. Mai's right there and I know I'm touching her so its good..." Then he fell back asleep. Me and Mai looked at each other with a dumbfounded look on one another's face. We were confused. He just said that in front of the both of us!

Well our time was up but Troy really didn't want to get up just yet. The next kids were Josh-them so we had them hide Troy from Ms. Evjen so he could rest. O.O Me and Mai stuck together and ran for the next 5 hours. >.> Dude... We saw Reece and were like, "SHouldn't you be resting by now?!" He just collapsed and died, with his last breath saying "Must study...must run to study."

That was it, Mai and I ran back down then Ms. Evjen just shoved some sort of soft retainer things at me and told me to figure out an easy way to teach everyone to put those on. I did it and put on a pair. It was to bite down on when we were in pain. As well as keep our teeth healthy and brushed while we ran around non-stop.

Mai and I forgot about Reece and by th etime we started running up the mountain tunnel, where we passed his collapsing body, it was a pile of bones. We finally reached the top panting and gasping for air. We reach two desks that was nearest to us and looked at the question that was written on the desk for the people who got to that desk. I did the question and I won!

Then I woke up... lol the end! xD[/FONT][/CENTER]

[FONT="Palatino Linotype"][B][CENTER][SIZE="2"]Saturday night, May 17 I had this pretty weird dream. I assume that I was going out with Zac because int eh beginning, we were holding hands. Anyway, it all starts when some people plan to go steal some stuff so they can get some cash and Zac and I decided to go.

That night, we met at this museum full with priceless things and we took most of it; whatever we could bag. Then we went to some dinosaur museum and stole bones for some odd reason.

Everyone was bagging stuff so I decided to go off and explore a little. Zac and Reece followed me knowing that I would get into trouble. =D Well, I go into this room that had several isles with shelves packed with bones and whatnot.

I saw someone walk behind a shelf, curious, I looked on the other side to see who it is was. But no one walked out. I freaked out, and in like Scooby-Doo, I jumped up into Zac's arms! xD I was like "I think I just say a ghost!" and Zac was like, "really?" like its no big deal. Then when Reece comes into the room, the person walked up to Reece which turned out, that person was Josh W. >.> He went to go talk about Yugi-oh cards with Reece or some boy-thing like that.

I buried my face into Zac's shoulders repeating "I hate you!" until we heard a door barge open and saw flash lights literally swinging back and forth really fast going "WHO'S THERE?!" So we ran back out and started running. Er, well Reece and Zac did anyway... Josh disappeared. xD Maybe he was a ghost after all O.O" but anyway, Zac was still carrying me as he ran. I looked at his face and it didn't look like he was straining or anything! I asked him if I was heavy and he said "Nope!" I mean it was like just holding your arms out as if carrying Casper bridal-style. We wound up getting away.

We go to this building and there was an elevator right there waiting. There was like ten of us. Only four could fit into the elevator. Two climbed underneath the elevator. Then two other guys went between the building and the elevator and the building. And up we went. The other two that was in the elevator with us wound up jumping out of the elevator half way up for some off reason though.

At the top of the building, there was a ship in the water already to set sail. We got in and instantly took off but then we got stuck in the rocks. So we all tried wiggling the ship back and forth to get free. It's a ship now! And yet, we finally get free! O.O" We set sail then we got stuck on some random rocks that appeared out of no where in the middle of the ocean!! We tried wriggling free but it didn't work this time. As it turns out, there was a stadium on those rocks and supposedly, a band was suppose to play in a couple minutes. And we kinda smashed the stadium [which had all their instruments in it =P] The band board our ship and instantly blamed some random guy that was on the ship and attacked him physically and with a law suit. xD

And then I woke up... So I guess that's that.

Like hell if I ever go out with Zac. I mean, evil is cute but not likely for me to go out with Zac. He is just that type of person that is so evil, you wouldn't even think he could love. He's not evil like angry "stfu, gtfo" kinda person. He is evil like "hahahahaha! you're pathetic" evil person. I mean, I don't see it happening. xD

A ship at the top of a building that has ocean and everything? A band concert on some rocks that pop out of no where in the middle of the ocean? Where's the logic? Me stealing stuff? I may be a prankster and reckless at times but I'm not like that. It's not how I roll. So yeah... not gonna happen! xD[/SIZE][/CENTER][/B][/FONT]

[CENTER][B][SIZE="2"][FONT="Comic Sans MS"]I have a Myspace but I don't use it. I have a gaia though I do use it. So I'm more use to "journal" not a "blog".

Anyway, no one I know will read this. I'm just venting so don't be like "oh, what a horrible person! Talking crap about that person just because they won't see it..." or anything like that. It's just that its happened for a long time. People (including myself) have confronted this person about the way they act but they don't seem to do anything about it. It's just a really unnecessary attitude. I mean, it's gotta be unhealthy, it's so bad.

I'm not saying names! Well, this person is someone I call my 'sister' because we really act like sisters. We have our disagreements, we fight viciously (not physically but verbally) and it seems like we'll surely end our friendship there but then later on its like, a magnet and we become friends again until the next time. We both come to each other when we need help. And things such as that.

I know that nobody is a perfect little angel but this is really bad. Probably like, a year ago, she was going out with this guy. Things were going great between the two but at some point they ran into problems. I heard they fight sometimes, took breaks from the relationships. But by the time I heard that, they were back together. Things went down-hill from there. They started fighting almost every other day. I didn't find out until much much MUCH later that most of the fights were over me. The guy wanted to hang out with me because we were practically siblings! But she didn't like it, she got jealous when we hung out. So she forced him to NOT hang out with me. What ever other fights there were, I dunno and to hell if I even want to know!

It went too far when they fought in front of my face over that stupid reason. When they both started to cast me out of their lives, when I took the time to write a letter to the guy telling him that he's changed and I don't like it. That I still would like to talk to him because I was having guy problems. Then the next day, I find out that the girl went on his account and checked his mail and read my letter. >.> Then shortly after that, they both ganged up on me when me and the girl had a fight over the phone. I knew I was going to say something really bad so I hung up on her. Later on I get a message on gaia from the guy asking why I hung up. I explained that the next things to come out of my mouth were out of anger and were to be hurtful so I backed off before I screwed something up.

Of course he was talking to the girl on the phone at the time and most likely she twisted the story to make me look like the mad person and probably misinterpreted what I said to make me look bad because after that, he still was pissed off and kept saying that I shouldn't do that and that it wasn't a good thing and dah dah dah dah dah dah! I'm like what the hell, you've changed so much, before all this... I bet he would look at it through my eyes and see that it was good after all. He has changed a lot and not in a good way either. I started crying and told him that because of this, I was crying and then he went off calling me "emo" and laughed at me.

That was it. That was as far as I was going to go in trying for them. I was so hurt and retorted to suicidal thoughts. I wrote a suicide note and called up the guy I "loved" at the time and told him that I was so sad that I wanted to slit my throat. An hour later, I get a call from the guy I "loved" scared half way to death. I told him what happened and he basically told me to give up, give the two some space and take time to heal from such a blow.

I told my other friend, Enaj. I guess he took time to talk to the guy "brother". Because Enaj called me and said that "brother" wanted to talk to me. I refused to talk to him, I told Enaj that I didn't want to have anything to do with him. He hurt me and in a sense, I was afraid to talk to him again, afraid to get hurt again. But Enaj convinced me that he wanted to apologize that'll take a couple seconds out of my time and then I can never talk to him for as long as I live so I was like whatever then. In the mean time, brother was arguing with my friend on the phone possible over me again. Enaj gave the phone and distracted my friend on the phone while brother apologized.

He started crying because he knew he hurt me. He really was sorry. I expected a crappy apology like "oh, sorry for being mean to you and saying all that stuff to you..." then done, but no he started crying and saying that he has sinned so much and did such a horrible thing that costed him his sister (me) nearly her life. I forgave him and comforted him. I was satisfied and willing to begin a new relationship with him. It didn't begin until now. He never glanced at me nor did he say anything to me until just a little less than a month ago. Slowly I'll try to rebuild that sibling-like relationship we had a year ago.

As for my "sister", I lost trust permanently. I don't tell her any secrets, I try to avoid conversations because if I even bring up brother, she gets pissed off. I don't even know why she has such a deep hate for him. And I tend to talk about the day, and the events that took place in our group of friends when she is away at the game room or class. I don't take her word about things. Especially if its about her getting "abused" at home by her mother. I told her she should make a meeting with the teen health center but she said "no I can kinda deal with it now". Right. I'd say the closest thing to a best friend that I have right now would probably be my friend Loseli and Kasey. Thats about it.

As of that event, I've created a barrier that EVERYONE must pass before I can actually trust them. Meaning I would only talk to them or joke with them. I wouldn't tell anything else.

Well that's my ventME of the day. Even though it was a year ago. I'm not going to complain about this one person all day. Thanks for reading!! I highly doubt anyone did actually read but yeah. See ya![/FONT][/SIZE][/B][/CENTER][FONT="Lucida Console"][/FONT]