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It's not even the fact that she doesn't care about me eating it's the whole fact she doesn't listen to me. She doesn't care what I actually want. It's what's easier for her or what she thinks I should be doing. I can't even tell her about my dad and robotics because she'll just say I'm being a dramaqueen. She doesn't get it. The only reason I hate what I do is because of the people. But if I tell her that then what do I get? Told that I'm overreacting. It's not over reacting! Why would I want to hang out with someone who makes fun of me all the time, or who ignores me? Or laughs at me or yells at me? I used to like school, but now I hate it, and do you know why that is? Because if I complain about someone I get yelled at for being mean. If I get picked on I'm told to be the bigger person. No matter what I do or say she's not happy about it! It's not fair!

I really hate my family. She just ruined the first good mood I've had in days! Apparently it's to hard for her to understand that I want a break. I want to go to a short swim practice go have dinner as a family. I don't want to be told what to do. I don't want to go to robotics where I'll just get yelled at by my dad. I had a long stupid day, and I want to do something to relax! Going to robotics isn't going to do that! And because my dad just has to go to robotics I got the choice of no dinner if I go to swimming cause it's more important for him to have to eat out with her rather than me eating at all. Why in all hell do I have to starve! I don't like subway, she has gotten that for me for dinner about twentybillion times in the past few weeks and I don't even like it! I can't stand robotics anymore. I can't stand anything! I am freaking fed up with her and everyone! I want my own life! I want to do what I feel like doing not what someone else thinks I should be doing!

hopefully not, :hug:

But with my mom.. You never know.

If she does. I won't make her pay $2000 for one over the summer and this is free. So it'd be really dumb if she said no.

I hope I can talk my mom into letting me audition for a theater program after swimming is over though..

No..I still have to swim for another week or something. Till the finals are over. But then i'm done
I meant I hadn't swam because of what happened the last meet.

That's good. :glomp:

I fell better today. At least mentally anyway. :hug:

But I had a swim meet and the way you push off in backstroke you can make your legs lock really quick and hyper-extend or something, and I did that. So after two laps of backstroke my legs started to burn and be in pain, I then completely lost feeling in them, but was still swimming. By the time I was getting out of the pool I had the really bad pins and needles burning feeling from midway up my thigh and halfway down my calf on both legs. I couldn't walk without almost screaming in pain. It hurt to sit down once I got back to my seat. Thank goodness swimming is almost over! I was gonna tell you that you'd be proud of me because I refused to swim for two weeks while my leg stopped hurting. But then I hurt my legs again today. I swear swimming is just as likly to get you injured as any other sport!

Anyway, my complaining is done.

How are you? :glomp:

nice profile its awesome :D

ello XP