I know, but some people sold theres for 50k + insane! xDD
But least your helpin me with my quest, thank you very much <33

I hope they have a auction/raffle soon with a vday pin for ya. OR try out that raffle of hinas and windys??

Awesome ^^

Still selling <3

Ahh gawd... Descartes discussion *leaves rather quickly* xD;;

Bwahaha. Yeah it's already gone over my head xD

How's your day been dudeness?? Fark everything has gone over my head today... I walked into the docs - and just sat down, and totally bypassed giving my name to reception. Took me like fifteen minutes to realise I hadn't given my name hahaha. Dumbass.

Dang dude, not with it today eh?
Me either ... I'm so done with arguing with people, i just wanna shut off n curl up in a corner lol.

Howcome?? Arguing with your ma or something?? Arghh, I wanna curl up in a corner too - but that's coz i'm sick of school work lol. Gawd i'm so not with it xD;; I think it's because I slept real bad last night, and i've been quite anxious about the future, wondering if I should just suck it up and do teaching next year >.<;; I'm just so fricken tired though...

Nah with Rob. He text me lastnight, saying he doesn't know what happened and he misses me. So i try to explain things, and obviously i was mad that he just pretty much gave me the flick. But he didn't understand and we ended up getting into another big argument. :(

Dude sounds like you need a break away, from everything ...
Still haven't decided what you wanna do? It's kinda hard when Joe's moaning about you not bringing in enough money, and then when you say your gonna work next year, he moans about that lol.

Ahh crapness. Why do that shit aye?? Pretty much walk out on you, when things were going so well. Then text you to say he's missing you, that so isn't fair. Just messing with emotions. What does he mean by he doesn't know what happened?? Like is he skitzo or something? Lol. Or was he just being impulsive?? Faaark - why can't people just be straight up, and clear about things from the start... Can totally relate to that one lol.

Ahh you know, I just need to chill out, time and space to breathe. I need a rest. Yeah no matter what I do, there's pros and cons to it - and the cons keep getting thrown in my face. Really wishing I could just pack my bags, and go to police college lol. Coz then it's studying, but you're also being paid for it too. All this 'breadwinner' shit would stop. Coz boyyy i'd be bringing in the bucks eventually lol.

Yeah dude i just have no frekkin idea what he meant to be honest ... I'm just confused as hell. I know i wish people could just be straight up and sort their problems out like adults. I know sometimes i can be impulsive and emotional and silly. But god damn it, cut me some slack boy!!

I know dude right? I wish i could do that too. Not that i got someone hounding on my back. But i just wanna get the fuck away from everyone lol.

@Nivvy: 3.5k for jade ronin? Can you put it on hold for me for a while?

Oh i think she missed your last offer hun ... Sorry about that.

@ Roach

That's pretty uncalled for :-/ I don't get that either, why start all this anguish? You wanna walk out, then walk out - don't come whimpering back expecting everything to be honky dory. What the heck is that about X_x;; Gawd anyone would get emotional over that crap I reckon, don't be too hard on yourself @[email protected];;

Y'know I loved being away in the army, just away from the usual. Meeting new people, out and about - not dealing with the same people day in and day out. Really have massive regrets about leaving the army, especially for the shit Joe's putting me through right now. Blarghh. Wish there was a way to know what the right path in life is lol. I always second guess X_x;;

@ Emma

Sure, i'll put it into a trade for you. I'll hold for 5 days, is that enough time??

Maybe it's coz he couldn't handle me getting emotional? Lol like im not suppose to have feelings or something ... He wreckons he's gonna call me tonight ... So i guess we'll get to the bottom of all this shit lol. Well we can only hope haha.

That woulda been great lol. I wish i had heaps of money to just bugger off anywhere.

Hmmm, maybe?? I hope he spills his guts in this bloody phone call. Sounds like it's putting you down a trip, through un-necessary land lol. (A lot like some other asshole, who thinks everyone should be in bed at 1am GRRRR!!!) So what was the deal with his ex, and this kid or something?? He was pressured into it??

Tell me about it! Once we get jobs and stuff, I think we should save our asses off, and go on a trip to Samoa or somewhere nice and tropical lols! Ditch these ditzy boys for a couple of days! Even though, I reckon if we did that, i'd have one soppy messy boy on my hands bawling his eyes out - that he doesn't get to go. I can just see it now lol. When he was giving me shit about not being romantic, and he feels unloved, I was like.... ohhh ummm, who's the fullah who went to Raro with his mates? and left his friggen mrs at home? Yeah... that was you. So you wanna know about unloved, try being ditched for the boys. Lol...

I don't mean to read your conversations.. and to laugh too... OTL It's not the content.. it's just ya'll say Dude alot. *snickers*

^_^;;

Sorry, I have a mind of a 5 yr old sometimes. :D

@Nivvy - I dunno, to be honest ... I'm just lost right now & really confused.
Ahh well she wanted a kid and he said he always wanted them, but he wanted to be able to have them when they were both ready, not just coz they'd been together 6 years and stuff. So she kinda forced him into it, and he couldn't handle it. Took to drinking and stuff ... I don't know the full story behind it, this is all i know. So i can't judge and say ... fucken harden up. But yeah doesn't sound like it was a good relationship. BUT we all say that about our exs right? Lol.

Ew guess who text me again? And asked me to marry him in not so many words? Oh actually he said "I guess getting engaged is out of the question". Like what the fuck dude? LOL I told him i couldn't go back there with him everRR. And he wreckons he's still not over me, and it's still raw and he lost everything that was important to him. I should send you what he said, he has a way with words thats for sure. But i ain't fallin for his crap. I'm repulsed by him now lol...

Yeah double standards aye dude? It fucks me off! But Samoa or raro sounds awesome ... no guys, cept maybe hot sexy ones all oiled up being servant boys bwahahahahahaha.

@Esme - Lols habit :P

@ Esme

Lol yeah, we both have this fascination for the word xD!! I'm tryna cut it out though, dunno why, just thought i'd give it a shot xD!

@ Roach

Gawd screw that... I am freaking out though, am I doing this in our relationship? Like seriously, I have to convince farken Joe of everything we do in our relationship. I even asked him why, last night. He reckons he just matured later than most. But still, i'm paranoid that i'm going down that same path. See, I asked him if he did feel pressured - he reckons no, but you can just never know what is truly going on in someone's head. GARGHH. So did they actually end up having a kid in the end?? That's gotta be tough, if you're not ready... But then you're right, you dunno the full story. He could just be a drop nuts, he could be totally honest. If only there was some kind of truth serum that was legal to use in everyday situations... lmao!

OHHHH send me the text xD!!!!! That is soooo insane! WTF!? Was it #1 weirdo, or #2?? Who the hell does that!!!!!!!! LOL. Well, he shoulda put his money where his mouth is, and treated you better when he had the chance. Farken men just never learn! ARGH. I totally don't blame you for being repulsed by his shit, you'd hafta be brain dead, not to have that stuff rub you up the wrong way =P

Yup NO GUYS! I just want a rub my feet, get my drinks kinda guy - gtfo otherwise lol! and a guy who doesn't cry his eyes out over dumb shit. (I'm starting to sound like Ani! xD! )

Yeah thats the thing i think Rob is another Joe. Where he can't just say what's on his mind ... I think i'm seriously getting that kind of personality from him. Cause the other day he was going on about space & me demanding shit. And i hadn't even! I had just asked him if he wanted to come over to mine - and he's the one who brought it up first, so i invited him over and he was like "yeah, maybe". I said ... Don't tell me maybe it's yes or no, don't sit on the fence, it's not gonna bother me either way ... And i think he took that as me being demanding. Then, he's always asking me over to his house and stuff so i went like 3 nights in a row, but why the fuck ask me over if you don't want me there if you want space? Wtf is up with that? Just say what's on your mind, i'm a big girl i ain't gonna get offended. Making me out to be like some crazed obsessive person ... Far out, get some balls mate.

Yeah they ended up having a kid in the end, that's why he went all crazy alcoholic etc. Said he almost died. I dunno he didn't tell me everything.
Yeah your right dude, i think he's got major emotional issues to sort out though. And i think that i can't actually bring my emotional things into this right now cause he's just not ready for something like that. He's like a ticking time bomb lol.

Nah dude he emailed it, i'll post it here xD. Craig1. Craig2 is a user, you know what he wanted. Cause after i cut it off with him, i haven't heard from him basically. Ya know if you were genuine you wouldn't treat someone like that.

I accidentally left this bit off ...
I said that is prob why Ani stays detached. She's kinda brainy in that way lol.

Yup, it sounds like he's another Joe alright. Explodes about things, later on down the line, so it doesn't make sense what they're actually upset about. Fricken hell, that totally doesn't make sense though, to be bitching you out - about space, but wanting you to come over and shit. Also the maybe thing, that's another Joe trait right there. Gotta cut that shit out early lol. ffs. Dude totally sounds like he needs some balls as well. Maybe we should hunt a pair down, and those two dimwits can share the pair between them LMAO. It sounds like he let himself get walked all over in the previous relationship, and pressured into shit - so that's starting to happen already with you guys. Arghh! Don't these guys learn a lesson? Exactly, it's better to know what's up crystal clear, instead of being left in limbo - even if it hurts. Can't guys see that it's better to be straight up, than to try and protect feelings, or whatever.

Yeah I think the guy needs to sort out shit from the past too. The whole alcoholic/kid thing is just such a major issue. You don't need to deal with somebody that isn't ready to let go of their dramas from the past either, especially if there's a kid involved, and an ex. Those are huuuge things to get over. Sounds like he totally needs to space, to work that stuff out. Even if he's being all confusing, and wanting this and that. Can't have his cake and eat it.

Gosh, and here was Craig2's mates all defending him, saying he was a good guy, and not like that blah blah blah. Psssht. Goes to show what we thought all along, was so true. OMG! That email is so insane xD!!! Gahhhhh! I'm sorry aye, but i'm cracking up! LOL - what a silly, silly man! Talk about slowwww and also manipulative. Just can't get all those times outta my head, where he text you really stupid, and mean crap. What a douche.

I agree lol, she is brainy for protecting herself in a way. Hurts being lonely, but it hurts being in a relationship too lol. Just gotta figure out which one hurts more, and which one hurts less lol. I guess she has sorted something out in her life, after all xD!

Yeah i dunno aye dude just plain old weird.
Hahaha shit, i wish aye?? It's like this character off the movie year one. He carrys his balls around in a bag LOL. Yeah i believe so dude, he said to me that it was her way or the high way. So i guess she was a pushy bitch. Lol
I guess they don't and even when you tell them that they still don't get it lol.

OH don't you know though, it's always your fault never theirs? That's all i pretty much got over the phone today lol. I was just like uhuh... mmm ... okay... Yeah. LOL, what can ya say really? Its like if you do retaliate and say anything, BAM! Angry bears comes out and everything falls apart again lol.

Okay i can see you need to get updated with who is who lol.
Craig1 is my ex boyfriend we dated for over a year. He's the alcoholic one that pretty much destroyed our relationship with his selfish cheating ways. Craig2 is the guy i met after craig1, he's the one who got all weird on me & said that he was afraid of commitment. I didn't talk to him for a bit and then we got talking again and decided to have something casual. But i got bored with it, well not bored ... Cause he was great haha ;). It's just deep down it wasn't what i wanted. I wanted love more then lust, and i told him this and he got all weird again - was shocked i pretty much cut his ass off. But i guess i found out the type of person he really is, as since then i haven't heard much out of him.
And then of course there was John, who was the "i love you, no i don't, i love you but i don't wanna spend time with you guy". And seriously i was willing to give that a go but he just kept fuckin me around, i dunno what his issue was in all seriousness. I just ended up hating him, coz it was like one lie after the other. And now ... It's Rob. Damn i sound like a skank lol. But seriously it's not like that at all, it's just i dunno i guess the other guys weren't serious, just playing stupid mind games.

But yeah craig1 is just getting on my nerves we broke up at the beginning of this year, and he still hasn't let it go. I mean i know it's more hard being the dumpee then the dumper. But he brought it all on himself. I woulda been loyal to him and stayed with him, had he not screwed everything up. So yeah he spotted me on NZD (i went on to retrieve a mesg Rob had sent me). And i was like fuck ... then he started ranting on about how sick he is and how he doesn't care coz everything important in his life is gone. Radarada... Then i get a text message with the same shit. It's just like .. Dude! I told you i didn't wanna go there, im never gonna go back there, and i don't love you.. What more do you want?? Makes me sick really. Dude you can't get them outta your head? When i think of him that's all i think about, and im so sickened by him. Every guy i see with long hair i'm now repulsed by lol. And theres this guy that sits around the basin looks so much like him! And sits around their drinking piss, argh makes me scared every time i walk past him. It's like dude your stupid face reminds me of my ex, piss off! LOL

To be honest, being in a relationship is probably better then not being in one. But that's coming from a person who would prefer to be in one. I just think they all have their ups and downs and you somehow have to find a balance and work through all the bullcrap. And if your both willing to work through it, and sort it out in the end, then i guess it's worth having right? I think so anyways lol. Even though guys drive us insane, and im sure they're thinking the same about us. And they do some really fucked up shit, that makes you wonder ... wtf are you doin with them.?! But then your reminded of all the sweet stuff, that makes you love them ... and well yeah you can't help yourself lol.

So yeah i talked to Rob and we're back on ... What a douche though, he asked me to come over tonight LOL. I was like dude, after you just said i invade your space??! Haha, so full of it. I was like ... nah i got uni work to do. :P He's like "bring it over i promise to not try and do coitus with you" Bwahahahaha!!
But i feel so much better we talked about things, and we're gonna take things slow, see where that goes... So not holding my breath. But lets try this again? Lol

Oh I can agree with that. Some men don't grow out of it. :\

Just got divorced and he ocassionally calls me. I should change my number soon.